Lack of ambition with my job, causing problems with co workers.

I am right at that point when a person falls into that dreadful inertia of routine, going to work, coming back home tired, trying to rest, feeling like I never get any rest, having to do house chores, cooking, errands, and then I am back at work feeling drained. Repeat 6 or 7 days a week and then I have my free days I have no will power to do anything, I just wanna rest but I never fully do, I am just stressed and in a bad mood reading crap online or else I hang around with my gf having sex, eating and watching movies (when both our free days coincide).

Yeah I know I am doomed.

You will be fine, just dont ever expect to be promoted.

Mediocre? By what standard? Look, I spent 25 years in corporate America, stepping on people and playing games to get ahead, disparaging workers like you. And guess what? I made it very high up the ladder and...it fucking sucks! Soul-sucking, working 80 hour weeks, political bs, etc. I guess it's better to make 6 figures hating what you do than minimum wage, but the cost is the same...your happiness, your soul.

To me, having crested the society-approved mountain that defines success, I now know that happiness and success are more about personal satisfaction and peace. If you can find a way to provide for your basic needs doing something you love, YOU, my friend, are not mediocre! You are to be envied and should consider yourself lucky and wildly successful! Pursue your passion!

I am EXACTLY like you. My true passion is art, yet I am stuck with the most annoying, disgusting, crude, people... i hate my co workers ....

Most people work to pay the bills, not because they are doing what they love. There are some who love what they do, but in my experience, not the majority.

With me, I choose to make efforts with my coworkers because I have to spend a good portion of my day with them and I want it to be as pleasant as possible. I can't stand drama, so I avoid it like the plague. So, somehow I've become the person everyone confides in - because I never tell anyones secrets to anyone else. No gossip ever gets traced back to me. Not always pleasant for me, because I know too much about everyone else and I have to keep my mouth shut so that there is peace in our department.

OP, it's not the easiest economy to switch jobs in, so, if you quit, make sure you already have another job. Sometimes, a change of jobs makes you feel refreshed again and ready to work. And you may find happier coworkers.

Thanks for chiming in. I guess it's somewhat relieving to hear there's more people in the same page. Actually the "I hate being a computer programmer" thread the other day got me thinking of making this thread.

Unfortunately I doubt I will ever do anything with music. I've been preparing this album for 3 years plus and I am really proud of what we're doing. I will invest my savings in having a decent recording but I know beforehand that being the genre we do it won't get far. I can't keep wasting money on doing music, I feel like I should try to save and get some stability in my life instead of wasting all money on pursuing musical chimeras. People say pursue your dreams but when you get to my age and you're on your own the bills begin to pile up and the prospect of getting old and the danger of losing your job and ending up fucked is ever looming.

You are only 30 years old. You are still YOUNG! What if when you get old you never really did anything that was your passion. You just gave up. That old you would slap this young you.LOL Read up on the law of attraction and do some serious thinking and see and feel where you want to be.

Make a vision board.

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OP! I am in the exact same position. EXACT!

Also a musician who feels the pressure of "I should love my job and what society has to offer". Pffffft.

If there's one thing i realized. You get paid for labor.
How you feel about the job is completely irrelevant, as long as you are doing what is required of you.

I used to have a boss like this, and the coworkers and supervisor kept pressuring me to love my job.

Told em to stick it up their ass and quit.

Yer, i had to cut down majorly, and i barely scrape by.

But guess what!, i'm making music, and i'm happy!

You think they're happy deep down?

Also, dont expect/push for a music career. I went through this stage and ended up quitting for a while, lost of part of my soul and couldn't seem to figure out why.
Do it because you love it, and dont forget it. The rest will follow.

Just be glad you can make music at all. Expecting to live on it is an entirely different thing.

Op

The energies are changing and many creative people no longer want to be worker drones. However, if you show up and are lazy you are creating negative karma for yourself. Change your minds approach to it and just go to work and do a your job and be thankful you have one. If your minds fights it daily than you will never be content with life.

Is it really that hard to work with right effort for 8 hours a day. You still have the rest of the time to do what your spirit wants. Change your thoughts.

Just after the "Give up" and before the "become a tramp"?, he left out the "Move to Mexico".

HTH!

More people live out their cars in the US than anywhere else, so the US, but why would he want to leave Spain? He could move anywhere in Europe even to the UK without the need for that golden ticket aka Green Card?

The last place I'd go would be the UK, believe me.

I wanna get some feedback from those who think i am piece of shit loser too.

Feels like every place is a shithole right now.

Work is fucking work. You're trading labor for cash. There is nothing "fun" about it. It's business. Anybody who thinks it should fun be is an asshole.

If they are getting one Euro of labor for every one Euro they pay you then there should not be a problem. It sounds like the asshole you work for wants 2 euros of labor for one euro of pay. That's what he's really saying to you. He wants to fuck you in the ass and he want's you to smile when he does it. Screw him. Don't let it bother you.

One for one is all the fucker deserves. No more, no less.

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You should start moving your sphere of reality to something/somewhere you actually do want/feel interest for, Manu! You'll have to take steps in your every day life to make it happen though! As you say, you've been doing this for a while... you might be a little rusty!


I'd say get a mail order bride too, but you're already a foreigner, so!? Doesn't really work the other way around!!!



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Good luck dude!

Congratulations on that MBA! You have the opportunity to pay off your debts, have money to live comfortably, travel, and put food on your table, but you don't want to?

True...money doesn't "buy" happiness, but it sure is better than being poor and in debt, struggling...working two jobs, etc., like many people do. They are miserable.

I doubt if any successful person didn't seek out those with clout. I knew a PhD who felt that his degree was all he needed. He never was nice to those in authority..in fact, he'd rather argue his beliefs and, as a result, made enemies. He was stubborn. Then he wondered why he didn't get promoted. He retired and is struggling now because whatever money he saved is not getting much interest.

I also knew a young attorney (in his 30's) who never mingled socially with those in authority. He was one of the first ones to go from his firm when they had to reduce the number of employees. He had to look for a new job...it wasn't easy.

It's just a fact that you should associate with the higher ups. I once heard Oprah Winfrey say that you always should associate with those more successful than you. This is coming from a woman who lived in poverty and was raped repeatedly by her grandfather and other men in her family. How horrible is that? Other women in her situation would have given up long ago, and here she is...happy, successful, and has enough money to do whatever she wishes.

Good luck. You have your whole life ahead of you. Make it a good one.

The bottom line folks, in this world if you don't have a magnetic personality you better be either be very talented or very good looking , because otherwise you're up for an uphill bumpy road. If you merely want to live a simple life and get by you WILL be targeted by those trapped in the matrix, even if you're harmless.