All I hear is a lot of "no"s and distancing.
Will never marry..
If someone doesn't agree they get thrown away/kicked off land.
Will not give gifts on holidays.
Will not have children.
Will not eat out.
Will not go into crowds of more than 4 carefully chosen individuals.
Will drop anyone anytime for any reason.
"My way or the highway".
Etc.

You're not ready for commitment.
You're not ready for another person in your life because that will always require some level of change, adaptation, and acceptance.

Get a hooker.