Hello OP.
I am someone who has mostly detached from my own behavior patterns. I have experienced a kind of "ego separation" through meditation and what I would likely find to be a dissassociative "disorder". Where do I go from here? Do i continue proving to myself that I am nothing but potential for everything else? That I am simply an observer? I find it difficult to rise past this plateau I've been on. Also, what is your view on the transgender mindset? I'm curious because I fall into that "category". Have I made progress or am I just in another trap? I'm quite confused. I have yet to have any direct contact with any guide, spirit, entity, being, or "true self". What am I doing wrong? I find it almost impossible to astral travel, even though I feel I throughly understand how to do it. My query may not be clearer than simply asking "what gives"?
Quoting: She_who_supplants 12581007 I am OP!
Supplantrix, you are to be congratulated on your work thus far. You have now reached the event horizon, beyond which you must put down the quest for enlightenment, for its own sake, and begin to work with your hands.
To digress to your burning question about trangender identity; Gender is not who you are, anymore than your hair color defines you as a person.
Humans are a poorly-executed mush of DNA and prone to mutations instigated by environmental toxins.
You may find that your waking mind must transcend the idea of your gender identity being part of your "soul" before you will be able to project astrally. Your physical responses to other humans are purely chemical, such that minor genetic flaws will cause a non-majority reaction... E.G. you are turned on by men and women, or you have both organs - the in-untero formation of which are governed by minute amounts of hormones OR TOXIC MAN-MADE ANNALOGUES.... get it?
Like most humans, you might be over-obsessed with your sexuality. Non-standard genders tend to be far more consumed by it than regular humans and will suffer to their deaths.
The salvation is to realize that sex has nothing to do with your time here on Earth. Forget about sex and you will cease to be "different." Being different is how you act and think, not how you mate. You think you are different? Prove to me that you can breath argon for an hour or melt tungsten with your urine. THAT is different. Har!
Right. Your task is to turn your sexual energy inward, using alchemy, and transform it into mental clarity and physical strength.
Use that energy to study and implement PERMACULTURE wherever you can for the rest of your life. While you work, continue your meditations and don't forget to observe natural law.
Look for the Permaculture Designer's Manual on amazon.
Good luck!
