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I would like to know who is in the following life situation?:

1) So isolated that your voice cannot even be used and you have no friends, no relationships, no sex, no love, no family, no job, poverty, very bad mental health with no treatment, no medical treatments work

2) The above in #1 occurs despite thousands of efforts over many years, meeting hundreds of people, and trying dozens upon dozens of different methods to invoke positive change, yet 100% of all efforts over year after year failed 100% and life continues to get worse with time

Both 1 and 2 criteria met. Warning: people on message boards cant read well and say things that were already addressed in post. Example: someone will reply "meet people" when its already been written that hundreds of people were met.
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Re: No friends, no love, no family, no job, no health wellbeing, thousands of efforts fail
believe it or not that can be a blessing, no attachments no bullshit.
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Re: No friends, no love, no family, no job, no health wellbeing, thousands of efforts fail
You can't expect to enjoy health and happiness in an unhealthy, unhappy environment.

Human beings were not meant to live among monkey, ape Hybrids.
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Re: No friends, no love, no family, no job, no health wellbeing, thousands of efforts fail
You need to start being positive rather than dwelling on poor me.
Read books about the power of positive thinking.
They really do help. Also read up on visualization.
Works wonders.

When you get up in the morning, first thing is express an attitude of gratitude.
Act as if you have it all. Condition yourself to think this way throughout the day.

You are going to change, so will your life if you do this.

Of course, its easy to come down and get into the usual train of thought, but as soon as you realize it, get confident again. Visualize a great life.
You will see a dramatic change.
Try it for a couple of weeks and pick up the book "the secret"

It works in all aspects of your life.
Good luck
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Re: No friends, no love, no family, no job, no health wellbeing, thousands of efforts fail
I would like to know who is in the following life situation?:

1) So isolated that your voice cannot even be used and you have no friends, no relationships, no sex, no love, no family, no job, poverty, very bad mental health with no treatment, no medical treatments work

2) The above in #1 occurs despite thousands of efforts over many years, meeting hundreds of people, and trying dozens upon dozens of different methods to invoke positive change, yet 100% of all efforts over year after year failed 100% and life continues to get worse with time

Both 1 and 2 criteria met. Warning: people on message boards cant read well and say things that were already addressed in post. Example: someone will reply "meet people" when its already been written that hundreds of people were met.
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Yes and have a family but they don't like me.
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This world is not for true love and friendship... consider it a blessing you're ostracized. Take the time to learn a thing or two about the reality of the matrix. Meditate, 'be' in the 'moment'...
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You can't expect to enjoy health and happiness in an unhealthy, unhappy environment.

Human beings were not meant to live among monkey, ape Hybrids.
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I guess true though idk about the monkey ape hybrid thing lol, some people like being negative I guess, it's making me negative constantly being around it.
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build some power up for your self, get that flame back

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Re: No friends, no love, no family, no job, no health wellbeing, thousands of efforts fail
I would like to know who is in the following life situation?:

1) So isolated that your voice cannot even be used and you have no friends, no relationships, no sex, no love, no family, no job, poverty, very bad mental health with no treatment, no medical treatments work

2) The above in #1 occurs despite thousands of efforts over many years, meeting hundreds of people, and trying dozens upon dozens of different methods to invoke positive change, yet 100% of all efforts over year after year failed 100% and life continues to get worse with time

Both 1 and 2 criteria met. Warning: people on message boards cant read well and say things that were already addressed in post. Example: someone will reply "meet people" when its already been written that hundreds of people were met.
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Well OP, as I've told countless others, seen the wonders in my own life and friend's life happen, I will tell you the same thing.

Watch this video.

Perform this Ganesha mantra japa 108 times every single day.

The more you chant it the quicker your life will change.

Results appear withing 3 days. Keep chating for 40 days.

After 40 days your life would have been changed so much and so dramatically,

that you wouldnt even want to quit.

He will take all your problems, all your issues, no matter how big, and smash them into little pieces.

My friend had holes in his face from drug abuse. Now he's living in a million dollar home with a wife and 2 kids.

This is exactly what he did. He wanted to commit suicide since he couldnt get rid of his addiction.

I said just give this a try and if it doesnt work, then go ahead and die.

He gave it a try and he says he'll never stop again. Every single good thing thats happened

in his life is the result of this chant of Lord Ganesha.

I have seen miracles happen in my own life with it.

Just give this a try. Hand over all your problems to him. No matter what it. Just give it to him. He'll solve everything. If you want a girlfriend, keep this in mind while chanting.
If you want a job, keep that in mind while chanting.

Just give this a try and see your life completely fulfilled.

Anyone else who is suffering should also give this a try.

Good Luck! hf

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I'm sorry OP....I can hear how painful it is to live the way you do. I hope you know there are many people who understand that pain at GLP, and are here to listen anytime you want to talk. A big hug and love to you today. You are a valued and precious human being deserving of much love and kindness. Change starts by loving and accepting yourself for the unique individual you are first. hf
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You're trying to follow your own will, going in every direction, hoping something will work. Try giving your life to God instead. He has a perfect plan for your life.
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check, sold house, moving to florida next week.

"better to be miserable on a beach than miserable in iowa"
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Got God?
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Seems like you are truely free.

Pack up a backpack and hit the road. See where it takes you.
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I'm sorry OP....I can hear how painful it is to live the way you do. I hope you know there are many people who understand that pain at GLP, and are here to listen anytime you want to talk. A big hug and love to you today. You are a valued and precious human being deserving of much love and kindness. Change starts by loving and accepting yourself for the unique individual you are first. hf
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hf To you OP.
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You can't expect to enjoy health and happiness in an unhealthy, unhappy environment.

Human beings were not meant to live among monkey, ape Hybrids.
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I guess true though idk about the monkey ape hybrid thing lol, some people like being negative I guess, it's making me negative constantly being around it.
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I'm sorry OP....I can hear how painful it is to live the way you do. I hope you know there are many people who understand that pain at GLP, and are here to listen anytime you want to talk. A big hug and love to you today. You are a valued and precious human being deserving of much love and kindness. Change starts by loving and accepting yourself for the unique individual you are first. hf
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clappa

hf To you OP.
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Yes you have a right to feel good, to be happy, to be good to yourself and work out what ever it is, in your own way, you are truly your own and have the right to be your own, its not egotistical to work on your self and focus on how YOU can solve what you need, to feel better all related to the circumstances around your situation.

You are mutch loved and the pain, well then you know it can only get better.
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I'm sorry OP....I can hear how painful it is to live the way you do. I hope you know there are many people who understand that pain at GLP, and are here to listen anytime you want to talk. A big hug and love to you today. You are a valued and precious human being deserving of much love and kindness. Change starts by loving and accepting yourself for the unique individual you are first. hf
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Such a kind response... right from the Heart! Some really good advice on this thread from other posters too (Natasha77, Balloons, etc.).

OP - We Love You, and it will get better. Believe in yourself, and KNOW that you are worthy. Good things are coming to you...you know this is true, and you are taking the first steps to make it happen.
Everything you think, say and do is a choice towards the World that you prefer to exist. Discover what you like, and what you don't like...what you prefer... and live in that excitement as much as you can. The World you desire will reveal itself to you! I prefer a World of Truth, Goodness & Beauty... this IS my World. Won't you join me? :)
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was the OP talking about themself? cuz they said who on the board?

or is that like a rhetorical question
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Re: No friends, no love, no family, no job, no health wellbeing, thousands of efforts fail
I would like to know who is in the following life situation?:

1) So isolated that your voice cannot even be used and you have no friends, no relationships, no sex, no love, no family, no job, poverty, very bad mental health with no treatment, no medical treatments work

2) The above in #1 occurs despite thousands of efforts over many years, meeting hundreds of people, and trying dozens upon dozens of different methods to invoke positive change, yet 100% of all efforts over year after year failed 100% and life continues to get worse with time

Both 1 and 2 criteria met. Warning: people on message boards cant read well and say things that were already addressed in post. Example: someone will reply "meet people" when its already been written that hundreds of people were met.
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Come...Love Awaits You

3/5/05 From Our Lord and Savior, Jesus The Christ -
A Letter Given to Timothy, For All Those Who Have Ears to Hear



Timothy, write these words to the nations, so they may hear and know.

The Lord God, Creator of Heaven and earth, has come. Even now am I, The Savior, The Holy One of Israel, in your midst. I am also coming quickly in full power and great glory. I bring with Me absolute authority, to judge and destroy the wicked and he who is called wicked in his ways. Also will I bind him who has deceived many and caused My lambs to go astray. All these things have been ordained from the beginning by The Father. For His glory will all that is written come to pass, and those things written of the end become manifest in the earth, the sky, the sun, the moon and the stars... For the time is upon you, My children.


Return to your First Love...
The Love that formed you... The Love that held you...
The Love, that desired for you to be made in His image...
The Love that loves you...
The Love, that wants to be with you, forever...


Come now, accept My love.



It was out of love that I gave Myself for you, nothing held back. It is My love for you that brings Me back to save you from, and take you out of, that which has hurt you. My love for you is great, so great that I will recreate the entire world for you, so in love you may reside with Me forever. There is no greater love than that of The Father for His children, and so it is manifest through His only Begotten for you, oh peoples of the earth. His love knows no bounds, for it is as the universe, even more so. Therefore, how much more will be His anger and wrath against those who have hurt, persecuted, stoned, scourged, imprisoned, murdered and torn the flesh of His beloved? Do you not know you are His treasure, His most precious gemstones? I have come to do all that He asks, concerning those He loves and who love Him... I come to hide away those special ones, who have the light of His love in them, who have accepted He who The Father of Love had sent in love, for love’s sake, to die for all. Oh you peoples of the earth, turn from your wicked ways, and accept the love of The Father through His Son.. For His love is so great for you, that He will remember your sin no more, and cast away your iniquities.


I, The Son, carry full power and authority as The Father...

Still I plead with you, come!...


Come to Me and be healed, for The Father’s love is without end.



So much is His love for you, that He will risk losing you, so you may choose for yourself... Either to love your God... Or to His eternal anguish, love yourself and the ways of the world, which leads to destruction and death. Love is a gift, freely given and freely accepted. You can not have love when it is forced upon you. This leads to hate, and is contemptible in His sight.
The Father’s will is that none are lost. He has also given you the will to choose. His love, and that of The Son, is near to everyone... You only need take My hand... I will lead you from the valley of the shadow of death, into the light of salvation.


Take My hand, take My hand, all peoples... Grasp it, and come with Me as you are.


Come, all those who know not My ways... I will show you.


Come, all those who have been abandoned...

I will comfort you and give you shelter.


Come, all those who are crippled...

Let us run and leap for joy together.


Come, all those faithless...

I shall fill your cup, and watch how it overflows.


Come, all murderers...

Watch Me raise you, and all who sleep, from the grave.


Come, all you who blaspheme... I will give you a new voice.

Bring with you all those who are blind and deaf, for they too shall see and hear.


Indeed, come all those who have sinned against Me... Take My hand...

I will lead you to the waters, where I shall wash you,
And where your new clothes hang upon the tree, which grows next to the stream.


Come one, come all... Ask, and it shall be given you.


All things are possible with God, and made manifest through The Son.



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You need to start being positive rather than dwelling on poor me.
Read books about the power of positive thinking.
They really do help. Also read up on visualization.
Works wonders.

When you get up in the morning, first thing is express an attitude of gratitude.
Act as if you have it all. Condition yourself to think this way throughout the day.

You are going to change, so will your life if you do this.

Of course, its easy to come down and get into the usual train of thought, but as soon as you realize it, get confident again. Visualize a great life.
You will see a dramatic change.
Try it for a couple of weeks and pick up the book "the secret"

It works in all aspects of your life.
Good luck
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the more things I acquire the less happy I am.
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You, need to fall on your knees and tell God your problems and ask him to have mercy. Repent of your sins and begin to give thanks for the good and wonderful things that you have, those wonderful things that you see are around you and in your life. Now if that's funny to you or a joke than what can anyone say! Your not listening. You want to hear what you want to hear. So, then you will remain the way that you are until you get worse. You want to do better, you want to feel better. So,then why don't you pray? Is prayer really, really so bad?
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I would like to know who is in the following life situation?:

1) So isolated that your voice cannot even be used and you have no friends, no relationships, no sex, no love, no family, no job, poverty, very bad mental health with no treatment, no medical treatments work

2) The above in #1 occurs despite thousands of efforts over many years, meeting hundreds of people, and trying dozens upon dozens of different methods to invoke positive change, yet 100% of all efforts over year after year failed 100% and life continues to get worse with time

Both 1 and 2 criteria met. Warning: people on message boards cant read well and say things that were already addressed in post. Example: someone will reply "meet people" when its already been written that hundreds of people were met.
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If you are on disability count it a blessing that you don't need to put up with all the BS of working. Consider moving to a better area of the country and enjoy life while you can.
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If you've tried everything else it sounds like its time to try God. Get a kjv bible and start reading, nothing else is gonna be a solution.
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I would like to know who is in the following life situation?:

1) So isolated that your voice cannot even be used and you have no friends, no relationships, no sex, no love, no family, no job, poverty, very bad mental health with no treatment, no medical treatments work

2) The above in #1 occurs despite thousands of efforts over many years, meeting hundreds of people, and trying dozens upon dozens of different methods to invoke positive change, yet 100% of all efforts over year after year failed 100% and life continues to get worse with time

Both 1 and 2 criteria met. Warning: people on message boards cant read well and say things that were already addressed in post. Example: someone will reply "meet people" when its already been written that hundreds of people were met.
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all I can say is that I have been there and probably still am minus the poverty.

In a way, you are living the life of the old saints, who used all that for the greater glory of God.

hf
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You need to start being positive rather than dwelling on poor me.
Read books about the power of positive thinking.
They really do help. Also read up on visualization.
Works wonders.

When you get up in the morning, first thing is express an attitude of gratitude.
Act as if you have it all. Condition yourself to think this way throughout the day.

You are going to change, so will your life if you do this.

Of course, its easy to come down and get into the usual train of thought, but as soon as you realize it, get confident again. Visualize a great life.
You will see a dramatic change.
Try it for a couple of weeks and pick up the book "the secret"

It works in all aspects of your life.
Good luck
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Great advice, Natasha.
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was the OP talking about themself? cuz they said who on the board?

or is that like a rhetorical question
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Sounded rhetorical to me...
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I would like to know who is in the following life situation?:

1) So isolated that your voice cannot even be used and you have no friends, no relationships, no sex, no love, no family, no job, poverty, very bad mental health with no treatment, no medical treatments work

2) The above in #1 occurs despite thousands of efforts over many years, meeting hundreds of people, and trying dozens upon dozens of different methods to invoke positive change, yet 100% of all efforts over year after year failed 100% and life continues to get worse with time

Both 1 and 2 criteria met. Warning: people on message boards cant read well and say things that were already addressed in post. Example: someone will reply "meet people" when its already been written that hundreds of people were met.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 809170


Well OP, as I've told countless others, seen the wonders in my own life and friend's life happen, I will tell you the same thing.

Watch this video.

Perform this Ganesha mantra japa 108 times every single day.

The more you chant it the quicker your life will change.

Results appear withing 3 days. Keep chating for 40 days.

After 40 days your life would have been changed so much and so dramatically,

that you wouldnt even want to quit.

He will take all your problems, all your issues, no matter how big, and smash them into little pieces.

My friend had holes in his face from drug abuse. Now he's living in a million dollar home with a wife and 2 kids.

This is exactly what he did. He wanted to commit suicide since he couldnt get rid of his addiction.

I said just give this a try and if it doesnt work, then go ahead and die.

He gave it a try and he says he'll never stop again. Every single good thing thats happened

in his life is the result of this chant of Lord Ganesha.

I have seen miracles happen in my own life with it.

Just give this a try. Hand over all your problems to him. No matter what it. Just give it to him. He'll solve everything. If you want a girlfriend, keep this in mind while chanting.
If you want a job, keep that in mind while chanting.

Just give this a try and see your life completely fulfilled.

Anyone else who is suffering should also give this a try.

Good Luck! hf


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Awesome!! do you have any more bits of advice like this?
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I am in this situation. I feel as if i have nothing, and nobody. I've tried and tried to transcend it, to become happy and "better", and yet here I am, miserable.

However, one insight has twisted my mind, and shown me an aspect of existence, that I was unaware of...

I still have life... or more accurately... there is still life in me even without my consent.

I do not want to live, I do not want to experience suffering anymore, but some invisible force inside keeps breathing me. And despite my greatest efforts and genuine intent to die, this "presence" is still functioning with an unwavering persistence.

And now, as I let go my life, as I let go of all hope that I will ever be anything at all, my attention is turning toward this force that tirelessly keeps me alive... what is it?

If I want more than anything to be dead and yet I am still here then this "essence" must be unaffected by pain, misery and suffering... is it God, Oneness, Life... I don't know... but if it can trod on unscathed and unchanged then it seems only this can show me how to be happy.

Throw everything away. Throw away your thoughts. Throw away "I am this" or "I feel that". Throw away your life, you have nothing left to live for anyway.

And in that darkest hour your attention will automatically focus on this silent force that maintains you.

I hope one day to trust and follow only this, because everything else has failed me.

You are not alone in your experience.

Maybe one day this pain and suffering will drive us to enlightenment...

Farewell.