OP....
You have truly inspired me, i have been on the same boat as thee, i wish to walk the same path as you, reading the words you spake made me cry, i wish to meet you in person one day, i am with you on this journey and i know for a fact that Jesus the living God, is with us aswell, it is our hearts that he sees, and the willingness to acknowledge and turn from our wicked ways is another reason why, worry not my brother, let us believe that, "not one shall be lost" and hold on to that belief, may God be with all of his children in his holy name Jesus, and may his mercy endure forever..ahmen