I am a fuck up. I have lost my mind and my way. I am poor I have no money, no future, no clue what to do. I am an American I have issues within myself. I have a bad temper and can't seem to be happy ever. So in order to "turn my life around" I decided to join the Marine corps. I believe it is a benevolent decision. True, mankind does not need war but it exists, and true, I don't need to be a soldier but someone els would..... If the US had no soldiers we would all be killed in an invasion. So I decided I'm going to do a few years as a rifleman and I'm going to school to become an anthropologist, travel the world and study the third eye chakra...... But I am worried that maybe I am wrong what if I go to hell or a "lower dimension" or just return to earth when I die. Please, I pray to god that he will send me an answer. I cant stay here..... I am here on earth for a reason and that reason is to improve quality of life for mankind....I can't think of any better way then the marines. I'm not "evil" or a bad person, but I'm afraid to become one. Please I need advice. Am I doing the right thing?