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This is the only place that I felt I could post this, anonymously, where people would actually understand what I'm talking about because the rest of the world sure as hell hasn't understood it.

Let me tell you my story about the torture that MK Ultra and the mind control programming has put me through.

When I was 4 months old, my birth dad hit my head on a cabinet causing me a frontal lobe injury that has hindered me for a long time emotionally and mentally. It has caused me to break relationships with people and become mentally unstable with my anger and mental anguish because things are extremely chaotic in my head.

At least, that's what the doctors tried to tell me..

Lately I've been noticing some things that I find really strange. When I was 14 (now I'm 23), I started noticing hearing a voice in my head. It wasn't my voice. It didn't even sound like me. And I ruled it out as an "audio hallucination" because I heard it in my head, not outside of my head like big pharma defines as a hallucination.

I thought nothing of it, befriended the voice, and moved on. Thought if I got along with it and cooporated with it, it wouldn't cause problems. Boy was I wrong.

As years went by, it started getting worse. Telling me I'm a piece of shit. Telling me that all of the spiritual feelings and vibrations I was getting in tune with were wrong. That I was crazy. That I needed to start following the program or I was going to end up in a psyche ward and live there for the rest of my life because what I was thinking was crazy and it wasn't based in reality. Whatever it defined as "reality."

Then the voice got worse. It started taking over me and making me do things that I wouldn't normally do, or that I would absolutely refuse to do in the right state of mind. Stealing, lying, hurting the other people around me. There were three specific incidents that I remember where I smacked around my closest friends, and degraded them horribly. But the funny thing was, when it happened I felt like an outside observer in my head. That I was possessed, and that I could do nothing to stop it. I've ended up in the court system because of it with a conviction of DV assault 4 on my record. My whole life that I built for myself got screwed up because of it.

Now I just don't know what to do. I've taken control of it for the time being, and I'm taking this time to post my story because the voice won't let me do it. I'm expressing this here so I can at least get my voice out into the world so others truly understand the mental anguish and torture us, the victims of MK Ultra, truly go through. You define us as controllers, and as people who are trying to keep people in the system and as asleep sheeple. You define us as people who are specifically out in the world to make the rest of the world who has woken up brought down in the worst ways possible, and that we do it willingly. That might be true for some people, but for people like me, there is something else that is forcing us to do it.

I need your help GLP, I don't know what to do. Like I said, I've gotten a reign on it for now, but I don't know how long that will last. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to hold it before I have another violent outburst and worst of all, I'm afraid that I'm going to end up hurting the love of my life in the process. I couldn't give a fuck less about the law, it's her safety I'm truly worried about.

So what are my options? What am I supposed to do here? I've woken up partially for the time being, but how am I supposed to wake up fully and permanently? Now that I'm woken up I'm seeing what Zakk has pointed out. The face touching, the hypnosis and psychological techniques that the forced controllers use to try and put you back to sleep. I don't want to be that way anymore. I want to wake up, but I don't know how.

I truly hope someone out here can help me.
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I don't know, honestly, I don't.

I just told myself in my head that I've had enough and that I don't want this anymore. That I want to be my own person and not be used to damage other people anymore. The voice has stopped for the time being and I feel I have about 25% control on myself. That's enough to be able to reign control on the insanity that the control has put me through, but it hasn't provided me a full and complete reign on my life.

There are still some impulsive decisions that I have been forced to make, but at least a quarter of what I make are my own decisions. I just want to wake up fully and take back complete control before I lost the percentage of control that I've taken back.

It's torture, and I want it to stop so bad.
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Step one:
Take the voice, form a soundproof room around it in your mind, close the door, padlock it, and laugh.
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Good call!
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hypnodoll?
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From what you describe, you sound like you are suffering from a psychiatric disorder with delusional features. Possibly, schizophrenia. You already stated that you suffered frontal lobe damage. That can cause problems with dopamine, which ties into schizophrenia, and so on.

Don't get me wrong, MKULTRA was never discontinued - it still goes on under the guise of 'Gangstalking.' Gangstalking often features the use of radio/microwave/sonic technologies (called V2K - "Voice To Skull") to drive victims nuts by using synthetic voices to constantly threaten and demean them. HOWEVER, one easy way to verify that you are a victim of Gangstalking and/or V2K (it's hard to miss the constant burglaries, destruction of property, harassment and being followed, blacklisting, etc.) is to take a trial of anti-psychotics. If you don't respond, you might be a Gangstalking/MKULTRA test subject. If the voices go away, that's a good indicator you have some form of delusional disorder.

If you were being Gangstalked, you'd know it. Don't do people who really are, as we speak, being tortured in these government programs the disservice of claiming victimhood when you haven't done anything to rule out what sounds like it very well could be an organic brain disease. I have a very good friend from high school whom I watched develop schizophrenia. While psych drugs are not good for those who don't need them, they are lifesaving for those who do. This guy would be dead if he hadn't taken anti-psychotics. He still says that the voices in his head try to convince him that he isn't ill, and that external forces are to blame for his illness. Then he takes his medicine and thanks God he didn't listen to them...

See a doctor, please.
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From what you describe, you sound like you are suffering from a psychiatric disorder with delusional features. Possibly, schizophrenia. You already stated that you suffered frontal lobe damage. That can cause problems with dopamine, which ties into schizophrenia, and so on.

Don't get me wrong, MKULTRA was never discontinued - it still goes on under the guise of 'Gangstalking.' Gangstalking often features the use of radio/microwave/sonic technologies (called V2K - "Voice To Skull") to drive victims nuts by using synthetic voices to constantly threaten and demean them. HOWEVER, one easy way to verify that you are a victim of Gangstalking and/or V2K (it's hard to miss the constant burglaries, destruction of property, harassment and being followed, blacklisting, etc.) is to take a trial of anti-psychotics. If you don't respond, you might be a Gangstalking/MKULTRA test subject. If the voices go away, that's a good indicator you have some form of delusional disorder.

If you were being Gangstalked, you'd know it. Don't do people who really are, as we speak, being tortured in these government programs the disservice of claiming victimhood when you haven't done anything to rule out what sounds like it very well could be an organic brain disease. I have a very good friend from high school whom I watched develop schizophrenia. While psych drugs are not good for those who don't need them, they are lifesaving for those who do. This guy would be dead if he hadn't taken anti-psychotics. He still says that the voices in his head try to convince him that he isn't ill, and that external forces are to blame for his illness. Then he takes his medicine and thanks God he didn't listen to them...

See a doctor, please.
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Go away shill. I'm not subduing myself to big pharma medication just to watch my psyche wither away and falling deeper into sleep. You say it's a medical disorder, and yet you're recommending I put foreign chemicals into my brain to fix the problem?

Please, that would only expedite the problem. My stability was worsened when I was on medication, and it got even worse when I got off the medication. That's why I don't take meds anymore.

But thanks for the degrading comment, it really shines a light on your ignorance of the subject and your denial of what the truth actually is. Treat me like an idiot, and I will respond with the same response I give everyone else when they tell me the same thing.

You have no idea what goes on in my head. You don't know my past. You don't know what I've been through. Posting a degrading comment of such a nature is typical of someone who wants the rest of the population to remain asleep while the rest of you laugh while we torture ourselves.

Well, not anymore. I'm doing being tortured, and I'm done being forced to torture others. I just posted this here to see if there was any further spiritual attunement that was required to keep away from it. With comments like these, however, it's clear that I need to just trust myself and keep fighting it internally.

Nice try, but it's not going to work. I'm not going through that again. I'm stronger than that, and I know I am. I suppose it was a mistake posting this in the first place as only I know myself and only I know how to fix myself.

So thanks, you've proven to me that I can do this myself and I don't need to post things like this because people like you will degrade people like me who realize what is truly going on.
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Keep doing what you are doing and follow the advice about the padlocked soundproofed room in your head. You are in control. Tune out the voice until it fades away.

Infinite love is the only truth. Everything else is illusion.

Thank you for sharing your story. There is something about strategic head injuries they use to control and propagate more of their own kind.

See what you can find out about the ancient art of bonesetting. Not as in fixing broken legs. More along the lines of strategic head injuries used by secret societies for mind control or to invite demon possession. It gives a whole new meaning to the jolly Roger and skull and bones.

It was used in my own family line and on children I grew up with. I believe the military is actively doing it now to soldiers with closed head injuries from ieds in war zones.

Thank you for speaking up and sharing.

hf
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You still haven't told us much of your background. What did you go through? Your training or experiences with MK Ultra?
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I am being gang-stalked, I know cause I am blacklisted throughout financial, online, phone calls, snail-mail, email, and I can't stay in one sot for more than 8 months. I am always moving around and don't know why, it always feels like somebody is watching me (no pun intended to the song), I fear nothing honestly and I always end up in the hospital for the oddest reasons.

I also have odd dreams that I enjoy but are trippy, am I an MK Ultra test subject or just psychopathic? I have a lengthy mental health record but just for generalized anxiety disorder.

Well speaking of dreams I am off to dreamland, good night!

jerkit
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Embrace the word which will be bitter at first, but as you shed the layers and remove the veil, it will become clearer. The demons will leave, and you will finally be released from their hold on you.
"A truth's initial commotion is directly proportional to how deeply the lie was believed. When a well-packaged web of lies has been sold gradually to the masses over generations, the truth will seem utterly preposterous and its speaker, a raving lunatic."
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Hi OP, I know exactly what you are going through. I was a part of the program in the mid 90s. I've went through the same things you have and some that may have been a little worse, I've been poisoned with potassium cyanide and have even been held down and tasered.

The best piece of advice I can give you to actually find out what your programming consisted of involves doing a couple drugs, and no I'm not some New Age Tim Leary, the reason I am suggesting this is because these two drugs were what helped me remember being in the program.

What you will need to do is try LSD and DMT, both of these drugs were used in programming in the 90s, when I had done them both the feeling of the drugs in my system gave me my first flashbacks of what had happened, I had no prior knowledge of illuminati conspiracy or MK Ultra for that matter, I had remembered a test I was given, I remembered seeing my mom crying as I was taken away, and I remembered being put in the machine for the first time, only later did I start remembering other things.

Now I'm suggesting you do this to at least try and remember what happened, however I can not stress the fact that you need to have someone present with you just in case anything happens.

Now about the erratic thoughts and voices, all I can say is it wont stop anytime soon or at least it didn't for me, however I know a couple people who were also a part of the program that swears that you can ignore it. I was told that is the only way you can get out of it in one piece mentally, my friends and I all tried to beat the system and failed miserably, the best thing you can do is tell them to shut up and leave you be that you won't be used like a tool, you need to take control of your thoughts and actions, you need to let them know you won't go down that easily.

Remember you are your own person and you do have control over yourself, nobody can make you do anything all they can do is torture you and hope you give in or give up.

Peace.
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are your thoughts and memories actually real or are they fabricated and false? think about it.
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Hi OP, I know exactly what you are going through. I was a part of the program in the mid 90s. I've went through the same things you have and some that may have been a little worse, I've been poisoned with potassium cyanide and have even been held down and tasered.

The best piece of advice I can give you to actually find out what your programming consisted of involves doing a couple drugs, and no I'm not some New Age Tim Leary, the reason I am suggesting this is because these two drugs were what helped me remember being in the program.

What you will need to do is try LSD and DMT, both of these drugs were used in programming in the 90s, when I had done them both the feeling of the drugs in my system gave me my first flashbacks of what had happened, I had no prior knowledge of illuminati conspiracy or MK Ultra for that matter, I had remembered a test I was given, I remembered seeing my mom crying as I was taken away, and I remembered being put in the machine for the first time, only later did I start remembering other things.

Now I'm suggesting you do this to at least try and remember what happened, however I can not stress the fact that you need to have someone present with you just in case anything happens.

Now about the erratic thoughts and voices, all I can say is it wont stop anytime soon or at least it didn't for me, however I know a couple people who were also a part of the program that swears that you can ignore it. I was told that is the only way you can get out of it in one piece mentally, my friends and I all tried to beat the system and failed miserably, the best thing you can do is tell them to shut up and leave you be that you won't be used like a tool, you need to take control of your thoughts and actions, you need to let them know you won't go down that easily.

Remember you are your own person and you do have control over yourself, nobody can make you do anything all they can do is torture you and hope you give in or give up.

Peace.
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Also and I'm sorry for the double post, I suggest you find a way to search for bugs and cameras in your house.

I found a bug in my ceiling once because I noticed my guitar was picking up radio signals from the pickup, I took my guitar and used it as a bug finder and found where one was above my bed. What happens is the bugs will sound like ticking on a distorted guitar, kind of like how a cellphone works, the reason this happens is because the pickups can pick up the signal, now you may hear some ticking that is caused by house wiring however a bug makes a noise that is unmistakable.
Peace.
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You are being led down a dark path...so that you are emotionally available to demons. Those are the voices you are hearing. The only way to get rid of the demons is to proclaim and profess faith in Jesus Christ. To proclaim that His death on the cross was payment for your sins. Call on the Holy Spirit to dwell within you and the demons will never come back.

I know this may sound like tripe. It may sound like the above is some "canned" answer. Please, do not take it as a canned answer. Please do try to ask Jesus into your life. The whole MKULTRA stuff is satanism in disguise. The only way to get rid of satan is by Jesus removing him and Jesus coming into your life.
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Yes, it's clear you have a psychiatric disorder...

-voices in head
-delusions of granduer
-persecution complex
-severely paranoid.

Either everyone is in on something against you...lots of other people's time, money resources...or you're imagining it all.

It's crystal clear to me:)

Please consult a psychiatrist ASAP.
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Yes, it's clear you have a psychiatric disorder...

-voices in head
-delusions of granduer
-persecution complex
-severely paranoid.

Either everyone is in on something against you...lots of other people's time, money resources...or you're imagining it all.

It's crystal clear to me:)

Please consult a psychiatrist ASAP.
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You are an inconsiderate asshole, that knows nothing about this subject. It's easy for some guy in Australia to know what the US government is doing to their citizens.

After all it's not like the US Gov has never done anything to hurt anyone in the name of national security is it?
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It's only demons, and they have been around forever. Read the new testament, Jesus tells how to get rid of them.

We inherit them or pick them up after sinning.

We are all of Eve and are born into sin, so have at least one....some are pretty bad and try to take over.

boblarson.org

He is an exorcist w utube videos, he helped me.

Don't take their drugs if you can help it, just be strong and remember they can be gotten out if you trust in Jesus.

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John 14:27
"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
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I am being gang-stalked, I know cause I am blacklisted throughout financial, online, phone calls, snail-mail, email, and I can't stay in one sot for more than 8 months. I am always moving around and don't know why, it always feels like somebody is watching me (no pun intended to the song), I fear nothing honestly and I always end up in the hospital for the oddest reasons.

I also have odd dreams that I enjoy but are trippy, am I an MK Ultra test subject or just psychopathic? I have a lengthy mental health record but just for generalized anxiety disorder.

Well speaking of dreams I am off to dreamland, good night!

jerkit
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Reminds me of the time I was making friends with a neighborhood girl and for some reason my user thought that was a threat, so she brainwashed me to forget the other little girl and I stopped going into the back yard (we were meeting at the fence where our yards met). I didn't recall her again for decades until I saw a ladybug and it triggered memories of the tree full of ladybugs that we used to play under.
There's some weird isolating shit when it comes to abuse and the covert.

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You need a Psychiatrist, not a GLP fix. Same goes for that Zakk guy. Everytime I read his posts it makes me feel bad for even visiting the same website.
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It's only demons, and they have been around forever. Read the new testament, Jesus tells how to get rid of them.

We inherit them or pick them up after sinning.

We are all of Eve and are born into sin, so have at least one....some are pretty bad and try to take over.

boblarson.org

He is an exorcist w utube videos, he helped me.

Don't take their drugs if you can help it, just be strong and remember they can be gotten out if you trust in Jesus.
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Prayer, Fasting, and SSRI's?
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hummbird It seems like you have very little love in your life, turn to Jesus Christ. And you are correct about staying away from Big Pharma.

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OP !

Don't be afraid, I know where you're at, as I also had a frontal lobe injury sometime during my youth. You must understand, that because of the injury you sustained, one side of your brain developed more than the other.

I'm guessing you were prescribed some short of stimulant, which allowed the "inactive" portions of your brain to come "alive". I've had the exact same experience. I've had another person talking to me in my head, most of my life, and I take it as a spiritual guide. The problem is, you don't trust it.

Talk to it, and ask it philosophical questions. Tell it you'd like to do something it's honor etc, etc. Tell it you're not interested in violence, etc, etc. Ask for advice. Ask for signs to affirm.

You must learn to use both hemispheres OP. Please read Julian Jaynes book on the bicameral mind. I promise, it is meant for you.

Your curse, is blessing in disguise. When you were injured, part of your brain was disabled and unable to receive government/parental/religious programming. You must seek to unite both hemispheres.

Check yourself for ambopoia and torticollis. Look up "Brock String" exercises.
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OP, I'm not saying MK Ultra doesn't exist. But the question becomes: when did they enter the picture?

You don't mention any government interference, or having been "selected" by any agency.

According to you, you just started hearing a voice one day. How do you know it's MK Ultra?
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From what you describe, you sound like you are suffering from a psychiatric disorder with delusional features. Possibly, schizophrenia. You already stated that you suffered frontal lobe damage. That can cause problems with dopamine, which ties into schizophrenia, and so on.

Don't get me wrong, MKULTRA was never discontinued - it still goes on under the guise of 'Gangstalking.' Gangstalking often features the use of radio/microwave/sonic technologies (called V2K - "Voice To Skull") to drive victims nuts by using synthetic voices to constantly threaten and demean them. HOWEVER, one easy way to verify that you are a victim of Gangstalking and/or V2K (it's hard to miss the constant burglaries, destruction of property, harassment and being followed, blacklisting, etc.) is to take a trial of anti-psychotics. If you don't respond, you might be a Gangstalking/MKULTRA test subject. If the voices go away, that's a good indicator you have some form of delusional disorder.

If you were being Gangstalked, you'd know it. Don't do people who really are, as we speak, being tortured in these government programs the disservice of claiming victimhood when you haven't done anything to rule out what sounds like it very well could be an organic brain disease. I have a very good friend from high school whom I watched develop schizophrenia. While psych drugs are not good for those who don't need them, they are lifesaving for those who do. This guy would be dead if he hadn't taken anti-psychotics. He still says that the voices in his head try to convince him that he isn't ill, and that external forces are to blame for his illness. Then he takes his medicine and thanks God he didn't listen to them...

See a doctor, please.
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Go away shill. I'm not subduing myself to big pharma medication just to watch my psyche wither away and falling deeper into sleep. You say it's a medical disorder, and yet you're recommending I put foreign chemicals into my brain to fix the problem?

Please, that would only expedite the problem. My stability was worsened when I was on medication, and it got even worse when I got off the medication. That's why I don't take meds anymore.

But thanks for the degrading comment, it really shines a light on your ignorance of the subject and your denial of what the truth actually is. Treat me like an idiot, and I will respond with the same response I give everyone else when they tell me the same thing.

You have no idea what goes on in my head. You don't know my past. You don't know what I've been through. Posting a degrading comment of such a nature is typical of someone who wants the rest of the population to remain asleep while the rest of you laugh while we torture ourselves.

Well, not anymore. I'm doing being tortured, and I'm done being forced to torture others. I just posted this here to see if there was any further spiritual attunement that was required to keep away from it. With comments like these, however, it's clear that I need to just trust myself and keep fighting it internally.

Nice try, but it's not going to work. I'm not going through that again. I'm stronger than that, and I know I am. I suppose it was a mistake posting this in the first place as only I know myself and only I know how to fix myself.

So thanks, you've proven to me that I can do this myself and I don't need to post things like this because people like you will degrade people like me who realize what is truly going on.
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Seriously, what other conclusion do you expect someone to come to when you say that you are hearing voices other than schizophrenia?
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Re: My experiences with MK Ultra and how it's damaged my life
This is the only place that I felt I could post this, anonymously, where people would actually understand what I'm talking about because the rest of the world sure as hell hasn't understood it.

Let me tell you my story about the torture that MK Ultra and the mind control programming has put me through.

When I was 4 months old, my birth dad hit my head on a cabinet causing me a frontal lobe injury that has hindered me for a long time emotionally and mentally. It has caused me to break relationships with people and become mentally unstable with my anger and mental anguish because things are extremely chaotic in my head.

At least, that's what the doctors tried to tell me..


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I'm confused because you did suffer a traumatic brain injury, correct?
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Re: My experiences with MK Ultra and how it's damaged my life
There are some threads on Project Avalon on this topic.

I'm no longer a member, so I can't 'search' for those topics (and never quite got the hang of it....anyway).

So I just starting looking through threads....

so here is one to start out (on a similar topic)

[link to projectavalon.net]

Title: "Have you ever met an MKUltra victim or similar..."

Hope that is helpful.

I say start simply. Find out everything you can on the topic at hand. Find people with the exact issue and talk to them to determine if you have exactly the same thing.

Once you are sure (because, I'm not), of what is the issue, then you can proceed.

Right now...50/50....it either an old injury turning into a mental disease (there are so many...and no, never take BigPharm drugs....unless zero other options. I'd say....look for more simple ways to heal brain tissue. Foods/herbs/accupunture. Wouldn't hurt to do this anyway. The stronger you are....the better).....or.....you are right.

I can't tell.

I mean I could remote view you.
But.....I'm already picking up negative energies...so wouldn't be fun for me. (from your aura).

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