You know what, everyone on this planet has a sob story. Its called "so what". I had my infant daughter die 3 months ago, beat that one.

Quit moping, get off your ass, and take charge of your life and change it for the better if you dont like how it is now.

PS. I dont believe you anyways, what idiot has a computer and internet, while having nothing to eat. A person who is really in the situation you stated you were in would have sold the damn computer, and got rid of the internet a long time ago. Dipshit!