Thanks to all the fighting and arguing of my parents I already held a disdain for marriage when I was but a child, I felt very relieved when they divorced as the tense atmosphere really got to me. And besides that I lived the better part of my life alone, got my heart crushed in many different ways to the point of being grind to dust, not easy to glue dust together, best to sweep up the dusty crap and throw it in the garbagecan lol.