Like in chess you choose a side before you play. There is no good or evil side - just players. You are here in your environment because you chose to. You accepted this challenge knowingly before you entered into your body. Everyone has.

And when this particular game is over all sides will bow and dance with delight at the outcome - whatever that is.

Become aware - overcome your gatekeeper. Do not indulge in emotions, especially fear and (self)pity.

Go out into nature and look and listen carefully. You will find clues everywhere. Let yourself find a place that you feel completely relaxed in and stay there for as long as it takes to recharge your energy. You will know where that place is. Know you will find it, do not think.

Do not fear what you will find - nothing can harm you.