OP, What a cowardly way to go.
You know you're a coward so you came here and hoped the GLP crowd would cheer you along. Well no cheers from me. Sorry!

Why on Earth would you live for someone for that long and not TALK TO THEM ABOUT THE ISSUES YOU HAVE.

Seems you were a coward and still are a coward.

Good luck with your next relationship... but please learn to TALK to your "life partner" so you don't have to be a coward once again.

Oh and if she stopped grooming herself... it's because she found YOU repulsive. Just a FYI...