OP, you need a quiet confidence, a tempered confidence to complement the force you're proactively shoveling into your engine through and beyond fear. A motive force is a good force, generally, but a confidence in line with everything-is-gonna-be-alright and we-are-all-in-this-to-get-her. It's called faith.

IT's a technology, faith's an application that the machines, the machines called sin, actively play out. We create our reality, reality as in estate, and we have more potential to do that if we abstain from rubbing two sticks together, this scared fire provides its own kindle, it's called Knowledge, and knowledge is sexual, the driving force behind everything. Where there's an opening, the serpent has to fill it, the universe abhors a vacuum, Satan's Miracle.

The IT is self serving. We must be a continuation of the IT. We cannot go against our self serving nature, but you see, in nature's service of itself, natures serves to benefit the whole of nature, including us, unbeknownst. This is so very much true for Lucifer, the light bringer, and Satan, the light. Forces which Fall for and into the path of least resistance. Who's yolk is easiest?

Service to Others is the real lie! Because you cannot serve others, without degrading yourself, because you are the other. STO is separation.