you aren't alone.. my awakening is 4 years in the making..... I like to compare it to having one foot here in this world, and one foot there..wherever "there" might be. I also feel like I am here to help people wake up to our complete enslavement to establishment.. it'll all work out tho.. after all we are immortal, so don't worry... just hope your next life will find you remembering more of your past lives.. that is my wish..lol