What the fuck is going on?

Before I was blind, but now that I can see....

Life exists because prior unity was horseshit boring.
This separation of duality made life possible and the
creation of the ego. Now various conscious energies exist
and I have recently come to the conclusion that
good and evil is an illusion created from human emotion
and perception. The only difference is agenda, however you
want to perceive it...not here to argue on this.

I have been called a prophet by strangers I have never met,
I am the philosopher going through some alchemical transformation (metaphorical) and I may be ruled by Saturn.

Fate has brought a woman into my life who is a star reader and
very virtuous.

We are literally complete opposites in ever single aspect of
personality.

We do not "know" each other but we connect on a level somewhere in the cosmos. We feel each others emotions,
we know each others thoughts. And we have completely ignored
the physical lust towards each other because it is like
we mated in spirit and some other factors I'm not going to discuss.

When we come together storms brew up, entities seems to linger, we act as catalyst as each other, feeding off each others negative and positive vibrations. It is such an ecstasy
of madness and sanity, a cyclical emotional roller coaster.

Unfortunately I SUCK at meditating for more than 30 mintues,
so I have yet to astral travel or commune with higher energies, but I think there is a reason.

Are we some kind of weapon?
Some kind of "sleeper" being activated?

She seems to think we are witches and warlocks that will be the race that survives the catastrophes to follow, but
I need not put labels as I am a bit more educated than her
and I don't see a difference between an alchemist, enlightened being, magus, whatever.



Conscious existence on earth is mutating into something
awe inspiring and I am very worried because it is out of my control.