I have a question that is a bit off topic. I think however, it might relate? I have a very close relative who was a VERY high ranking government official. I had a fabulous childhood. No abuse at all that I recall. However, once he passed I was going through old pictures. There was one and only one of him around redwood trees at a huge feast. The two people seated on opposite sides of him- everyone would or should know. It looked like a gentle men's club so I started googling. It led me to Bohemian Grove which led me down the rabbit hole. I was led to sacrifices, sexual deviance and eventually uncovered MK Ultra. I was clueless until his passing that any such things existed. Long story short, I have experienced, since childhood, "old Hag Syndrome" My childhood psychologist whom my relative set the appointment diagnosed a sleep paralysis disorder. I only saw her for a total of 5 to 6!times that I recall. I was very young. Have never seen a shrink since but here comes the funny part. I purchased a cabin on a remote island 2 years ago. She's my next door neighbor. I didn't rember her but she " reintroduced " herself. Since then, my Old Hag Syndrome has become more frequent and more violent. I guess my question is- well I'm not sure exactly.