WoW, I pray you all find peace in this life for the next.

It's very difficult I can sympathize with the many posters in here. I gave my life to Jesus may,16th, 2011 and have lost many worldly things. Yet, I've gained soooo much more. I too drank (alcoholic) smoked cigs (pack ana half/day) used drugs (many kinds) hated my job even though it paid well and many other shackles society in general offers.

We are under HEAVY Satanic influences and it's not easy to get out from under it. Op, God bless you for wanting to change and realizing your sins and having the courage to repent.

All I can offer you is encouragement and prayers that Jesus help you on this narrow path.

For me less is more, be quick to listen and slow to speak, so many times my tongue got me in such terrible situations. And finally slow to anger, my temper is vastly improved and is still very much a work in progress.

Best wishes, brother, David.