I fucked up the post above. Otvagiuld be likevrt


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So I wrote a really long post and lost it. Start again. As predicted  desk no sleep  now two or 3 day...no drugs just my brain is naturally fucked. But I belt more mess everywhere. I felt better so I went out to war. I mean to watch!  Theh. TV wit my wife but it was some dumb  chick flick and u couldn't blieve anyone could be so  stupid you could hear the echoes of s energy. They actors made no effort they are machines  too? The my wife's freaks out and says its supposed to be stupid becauae. Then she gets all mad and tearful and says she likes it  dumb  rcause all she does all day is his worry abou me. So I put her on My lap and run  by fingers through her beautiful hair and hold her tight and is  the beast  best part of the day. There there. everything is going to be fine, sis.

Now she is suddenly screeching and pissed off I called her sister instead of wife. I honesty thought it was My sister...fuck, they are the same age roughly. Suddenly I m being yelled at by my wife, a hallucinated sister and the ghost of my mom! Triple bitch-session, 3 on one! Can I just lose My mind in peace? 
 
Funny things is I love these people allthree the women so much. kids too. I would do  anything in the world I would  take a  Blullet for any of them. And here they are screeching at me an I'm the  crazy one. Well, OK two imaginary women and  one real woman I guess. So i go back to my room to cool off.

But 5 min later she's like a hurricane of eyeballs bursting through the door witjout preliminaries. "Rremember that thing we italked about last week? You promised it was up to me and now I think IT IS TIME." I have no idea what she is talking About. Breakfast was a zillion years ago. Before  Noah's flood. How ths fuk Jiu u   Well it looks like we are going in a car ride. SsSsss.

What a run down ugly shitty town we live in Everyone is old and  Ada's bar  is  all closed up down and borded up. A few skeezy junkies are wandering around. And we then as we turn a corner it looks like--a hospital! Whuxso thsy gny so they paint it sun with salmon colors. I am pretty fuckinh sedated, it is not like I choose this ahit for  care.

Then they are zapping my head head wind  lighting style. Things go cross-hatched. "I think that will be all for  now."" Allo aaaaaaaqaaaaaasaxd

All. I  any remember is dismay. It seemed  to be a big deal at the time. Maybe it never even happens