I no longer have the desire to own a house, to buy things, to work for someone else, to watch TV, listen to music, to have sex, to have friends.

Ok, use the damn thing then! Fuck! USE IT! I don't give a shit whether you EAT the fucking thing.

There happy? Fucking idiot.

Yeah, ok...

Sorry I even replied.

haha YES!

That has to go too. You’re better than that.

Yeah, ok...

Sorry I even replied.


That has to go too. You’re better than that.


"He's back,he's back! Voldemort is back!"

from Harry Potter in Goblet of Fire.

You are sailboat people and don't know it yet.

"He's back,he's back! Voldemort is back!"

from Harry Potter - Goblet of Fire

LOL!!!! Thanks, I needed that!
I love you guys.
There is a better place for some of us. We only have to have the courage to find it! I think we here on this thread are well on our way.
We still believe in magic! No- we know that magic is real!

Good luck to you beautiful lady, who is giving up everything and going to seek. I know you will find.

If I ever hit the jackpot with money, you will be among the first to get an invitation to come and live with me in the woods, in comfy homes, taking care of animals and having fun. You and the other person who said that this sounded great to them also. (Might of been the same person- not sure)

And if any of you are able to create such a place as I described, please invite me to come. Although, I am sick, I still have a good sense of humor and am among the most loving beings you will ever meet. I am also a white wizard now.

With love- Goddess

Perhaps some music will lighten the mood?



Pianoman - Cast A Spell (Original Mix)



[link to www.youtube.com]

Me too...been feeling this way since my awakening in 2011. Somehow I've faked it this past few years to appease my husband. When you become aware it is hard to go back. I want more than anything to live in nature and learn to survive, heal naturally and love all around me.

Well thanks to tonight, I no longer have a desire for my car. I bought some bulbs because I was going to attempt to change the taillight on my car myself. My sister tried to help me, and between the two of us we couldn't even do it. Tried to follow the manual, pulled the carpet thing back, and then lord only knows what we found back there. There were some wires, but nothing that really resembled what was in the manual. Do they not want us to fix our own things anymore? Are we just two stupid girls who couldn't change a light bulb? I felt so defeated, and mad that something so simple was probably purposely made difficult so we couldn't do it ourselves. I didn't really want to start just randomly pulling at things because I was afraid to break something.

Long story short...I would like to trade my car in for a horse and buggy.

I wish I could live in a small town and be able to walk or bike everywhere. Better yet, I'd like to have my own small homestead -- grow my own food and live like the Amish.

One thing that pisses me off about the Amish is their strict adherence to conformity and their willingness to shun and alienate their family members for not wanting to follow the herd. Other than that, their self-reliance and disinterest in mainstream 'society' is respectable.

Yeah, I just admire that they live simply. The shunning and the inbreeding, though ... that shit's gotta go.

That's the kind of town I grew up in...where you could walk/bike everywhere. Maybe that's why I miss it so much.

Not that anyone cares, but we fixed the light!!! I found a video on the internet. We had to use pliers to unscrew the thing...something the manual left out.

Good job for fixing the light! I care. I knew you girls could do it!

Woo-hoo! :)

:highfive:

Dang it really does seem pointless. Im happiest tending to my chickens really just doing mundane things like that,

I'm 100% with you on this OP.

I've felt exactly the same way for years now. And I ditched all of it. The house, the cars, the friends, the sex, the booze, the entire stupid hamster wheel that everyone calls "living".

Fuck all that. I am much happier now, living minimally, watching the morons go on with their nonsense around me. Need a refresher once in a while? Go to an Ikea, or Walmart, etc... and spend 5 minutes observing the idiots we call society. You will KNOW you made the right decision.

Sounds like Operation Slammer run and protected by Bob Mueller's FBI wi CIa supplying the mind control frame ups...all compartmentalized to hide all the facts.

Me too.
I agree. There is no going back. I tried to fake it but I just can't. It does not pass. My family sees it as depression, but I am the most happy inside that I have ever been. i guess a little of it is depression just from living in pain daily and not having any money because I have not been able to work and am housebound and alone all the time.

So- is this what happens to us when we become awakened? We are no longer of this world and no longer enjoy this world or want to be of it anymore? We see how pointless this rat race is and are tired from participating in it for so long. We have found the way out and what we truly are and that this life is not how we used to live. We want to live as we did before desperately.
What do we do now? Just wait for death so we can be free of the burden of these bodies and return home to paradise? We may have a long wait.
What do we do in the meantime?
If I had some money and the health to do it- I would want to have a small house in the country with horses and a few animals, a garden, lots of books and some good friends around me who felt the same way to laugh with and love and share some tea with. I would try to have a little business where I healed others by laying my hands on them and giving my loving energy to them and I would also make natural soaps and oils. That kind of thing. Maybe have a little petting Zoo for children to come and laugh and enjoy.
I think if I was to have this that my health would improve.
I just do not have the desire to go shopping, out to eat, party, drink etc.
I feel sick even thinking about doing any of these things. But I could just wake up (not have to worry about bathing, makeup, clothing etc) and go out and be with the animals and enjoy nature. Sit by a waterfall and meditate. Just lie in the wildflowers and look at the clouds. These are the things that sound enjoyable to me now. I would enjoy a nice hot bath later with some natural oils in it (don't think I am a scumbag and don't like being clean, it's just that it hurts me to bathe- I don't know why- you would think it would make you feel better but bathing has become like torture) maybe I have nerve pain or something that the water hurts, I don't know. It's just that I can't move very well and it hurts me to wash my hair- to scrub myself.
But how to get there?

See, these are the kind of people I avoid like the plague. People are insane.

Thanks! :) We were pretty thrilled about it!

This is the OP here. -

To any of my friends still following this thread, I have noticed a trend here that I would like to discuss.

There is no place to escape to now. There is no sanctuary to hide in like a place in the country or trying to live like the Amish.

This coming change is all about YOU. Nothing else. You can't escape it, you can't hide from it, you can't run from it. Every fear, hang-up, fear and doubt will now be tested to it's limits. What is coming is all of your fears in your face.

All you can do is to stop searching, stop looking for relief from the suffering of the world and face them head-on.

Completely let go....

Only when you completely let go of EVERYTHING:

Buying things
Wanting things
Wanting to escape
Wanting to hide
Wanting to run
Wanting to be someone or somewhere else.
Wanting to be wealthy
Wanting to live somewhere else.
Wanting love, forgiveness, peace

You have to no longer "want". No matter what it may be.

Just my opinion. Your choice though.

Peace

You should be! I knew you could do it!

You made me smile. Beautiful.

Please don't think I'm trying to tell ANYONE how to live their lives. Just my thoughts.

Peace

Aww Thank you. :)

You aren't alone OP, I feel the same way. I love the peace of solitude.

ok,finally you found you are a Vulcan, and you are here on a mission... !!!!!!!