Hi I'm Alex i'm new to this site and i'm somewhat a christian. Ive heard about God eversince i was a kid but it was when i was around 16 that i started reading the Bible and what i found shocked me.

My question to you is how to be a real christian?
Where do i start?
I want to stop backsliding and going back into sin.
I'm tired of having my mind full of confused thoughts about God.

I often doubt God's love...

Also i'm scrizophrenic and bi-polar.
Sometimes i can control myself sometime i can't.

I wouldn't mind having some christian friends to guide me.

I don't want to go to hell and mostly i want to be a good person.

What am i supposed to do now?

Help me please.