OP has fallen victim to mind control but on some level has become aware his mind is being turned into Swiss cheese.
I guess this is their way of dealing with it.
Wouldn't be the fist to go off track and pull the messiah card


i'm in Father Mind which is why i type or talk without thinking

you are MOther Mind which is why you think before you type or talk

the only controlled mind are those in Mother Mind scripted by Matrix

Messiah card is used on me in the dream to keep me interested

i ain't buying the Messiah bulltinkle

symbolically thought YES i'd be the Son of God in the storyline because the BIG DREAMER IS ME

good day mr. NOT REAL