What schizophrenia sounds like (try and listen all the way through alone with headphones! Scary as hell! I feel sorry for people with his disease

That's why I tried it.

WOW

Yes for 15 years,yes there is a demonic component the voices are just part of the show death threats from rabid barking dogs,lectures from vacuum cleaners,lawnmowers,airconditioners,flashing lights,explosions,loud music,physical torture at times,people becoming suddenly agressive at you,messages from the radio and tv...as I said the voices are just a part of it.

i listened to this video over a year ago and heard a voice the same night it was scary

write it over then

Write what over?

nothing never mind

bah I got to 2:17 and stopped it

here I'll do a live one for you

its really hard to type it out fast enough
and the thoughts turn to typing the words so it breaks the flow

I guess ill just try and wait a min or two and then type the thoughts out as best I can after

no I can't do it it's too hard to try and memorize without interrupting

I Guess I can't really
I don't really hear any voices as per say really
not like talking in my ear

just thoughts and memory of other peoples voices but they say things that the originator of the auditory memory never actually said

and there are thoughts of other voices foreign to my memory

yet for all the crowd situations
television, movies, music ect
all the repetition
and all the deliberate subliminal tracking of sounds and voices I would guess there really isn't anything going on in my head but my brain trying to process and reject all the pollution by bringing it up and turning it to something that isn't a threat or unhealthy degradation
who knows whats all gone in and been forced

but im still not typing out my thoughts, I tried, I can't do it

theres a lot of profanity in most and a few so far have been bannable material best left in the sewer of my mind

but if I am resting with my mouth closed the thoughts mostly come at the speed and frequency of my respiration
and anything more excited, literally feels like it pulses in my brain, and my brain has to expand or contract like a muscle as it courses through as if surging and coming to the forefront of my thoughts depending on the forcefulness

there are also subtle layers I guess with what could be termed voices speaking as thoughts, rapidly yet not in gall or anger even though they can be almost as provocative or subtely inciting to my emotions

its like if I try a thought monster tries to interject profanity or profane and inappropriate statements just like a little kid that wont stop mouthing off in class, just as if some part of my mind need to spout obnoxiousness knowing that I am trying to listen to my thoughts and type it out, so it comes up with something I wouldn't, couldn't shouldn't put down, especially here, and most has nothing to do with anything

I guess if I had a subject to ponder or an agenda maybe combined with activity, err or at least a mental preoccupation, but it would still be damned difficult to remember and type out candidly so that my thoughts wouldn't latch onto the alterior motive and hum well its just bs to try and conceptualize let alone someone suffering along trying to read this
yet its still in no way my thoguhts
all my disease can do is sputter simple words and a phrase or two inbetween and takes a few seconds to try and crank up if I pause and relax my documentation I am performing

this isn't what I thought, its just what I wrote
and if I go over it too much my mind starts trying to regurgitate it to me while putting it in terms of someone else thinking the words I'm typing and knowing their thoughts (at least my brain tries to come off that's what its getting) like inside there some sort of stress to be a empathic analyzer ummmmm like it reads my dialogue back in the form of someone else reading it
this is quite a lot to say about nothing in particular
not a lot going on beneath the surface either, but I am quite tired, not unrested, just mentally fatigued at all times

I keep thinking back a paragraph or two to how I failed to properly get my meaning across
and yes there was some scoffing in my thoughts just previous to this sentence as if ridiculed for being incapable of explaining things better
you know its mostly like an unwanted unneeded commentary and umm the word escapes me, must concentrate, unnecessary (its like commentary, but I mean as if there's a play by play announcer that forces me to (forgot to put end bracket)) forces me to have a second layer to every thought analyze it and force my brain to do a double memory of it the silent thought, fast and simple, then the regurgitation of it slower and way more pronounced
I say this because I caught it when I looked over at the desk clock and noted the time and it came to mind I had self analyzed it like that before
not a lot going on, my left nipple feels slightly chaffed suddenly, not sure it wasn't soft when I stuck my hand up my sweater and fingered it to see and soothe the sensation
and soothe the sensation there I caught it repeating, but I breathed in through my moth because I'm slouching

I went back AND CORRECTED SEVERAL(TRIED TO COUNT LOST TRACK) sry caps lock key curse it and insert key and friggin number lock key
and goddamn keyboards in general I mean to say all to hell changed it at the last second
pulling on my beard

this has got to be the most boring thing ever
did you really want to know
I mean as long as I keep typing there hardly a chance for your mind programs to invade
maybe that's why I go on and on typing so much, its like relief
I just thought back with pride that for all my typos I only had to use spell correct once so far
which is a e(I wanted to say vast but it came with a Hillary Clinton voice(because of her 'vast' right wing conspiracy) so I tried to change it to something I forgot the word now
I was thinking because of the American audience in my head it came to mind to not use that word because it could conjure that to someone and make me seem like I was saying something I did not wish to have come across in a Hillary Clinton voice to your mind if you read it
I keep typing conjur conjure (had to look at spelling, keep typing it conjour ) maybe I ought thesaurus myself an alternate word as I seem to be using that one umm as I seem to have used it too much wanted to say played but the better term is tired.
a lot of the words are just form other peoples texts, im not that smart, more like a brain damaged idiot with their brain stuck on record mode and it vomits it up
not intentionally of course
I guess this is more of a err cant think of word, exercise in babbling on and on as opposed to my thoughts

im a bad person it said to me
then I smirked sort of grinned more like thinking and reading that one back
winding down now, glanced at screen
noticed I glanced at screen
too introspective
not a lot of voice activity
made me think of paranormal activity
had a minor brain convulsion just there
chuckled audibley rethinkning that
see theres just not the opportunity to really think it out and type it
I dropped only a few in there
it cant come up unless I stop but it gets cut off if I type
I guess I could stop and try to let it wind up
not much emotion because this is so boring

cough

isn't this so exciting and fun
bet you wished you never wanted to be in the mind of a real crazy person as opposed to a fake youtube one

I had a little moment of gloating there fgor a second
trying now to remember the time when I started typing
I think it was 1128
46 mins might be wrong on the start time
meant to jot it in here forgot

ok my brain tells me someone is less than thrilled
it was like a scarcastic hurrah type emotion

im getting a little annoyed at a person creeking and rolling hteir chair on my ceiling
some sumliminal thoughts toward violence suppressed into words of reprimand now ignoring it'
but hes still at it
1217 in the goddamned night
I might have to go up and remind him when I really want to scream in his face
and if I really could rough him up a bit but that would become ahh I cant really do that and hes a little wiener
now hes hacking cleared his throat

if I was trying to sleep I would be right angry if it continued
seriously thinking I might have to go up there

ohhh looked up and theres a sea of red underlined words
opting to leave it for astetic? purpose to show how bad my typing(not so much spelling but ) but its like some sort of mechanical dyslexia where im not speaking but typing stuff (changed it from the word shit to stuff typing stuff
ass backwards
missed the ashtray
dropped my fucking ashes
I mumbled that but it wasn't ashes I thought it was a big ash
its on the floor the place is filthy
im so sick
I got about 20 square feet of floor space
a dog that tracks dirt in
I walk though with my shoes on and
the landlord turned it into a construction zone since Christmas time
so theres constant dust flying everywhere
of those last lines there was quite a few swear words I omitted and some that come up like I wished I had thought and put them in that I couldn't unless I went back and ins
I just about done
had second thoughts
not gonna wimp out
must hit
post
had to look up and see what the word on the button was
ok
oh god like reading one of my dads emails except I almost make sense sometimes
ahh its no use
im cooked
good bye
keep stopping myself lately from typing (saying) astalavista
ya its even selfconciously embarrassing to read now that I gave in
oh boy this sucks
getting tired now
dog is snoring
he was hiding behind the garbage pail(bucket) cause it was lightning and thundering
you know what im getting at
good night
all I can think is holy fuck is it ever fucking dumb when I think about what I have written here
now I good laugh to myself that started becsue I suppressed a cough
hacking wiped nose s
scratched leg
dick upstairs is hanging a leak
clanking creeking walking around
I had to stretch
neck feels stiff
yawned
I stopped for a min or so
theres just no real comparison to the video clip

Record yourself and then type it?

MY friend who is schizophrenic is just wild....he hears voices and see's things the whole nine yards but it all ssseems normal to him.....until he tried medication which made him realize he was nuts and scared the shit outta the guy......so he is NOT on big pharm crap medications he just lives in his own world....and is happy doing so....

a disease i would NOT want to suffer thru,has to be the worst disease out there...ALS ( Lou Gherig's disease )......cuz ur brain is still functioning and knows what's happening.....trapped in a box with no escape....everybody should find a friend or family member and make a deal if u ever get that and it gets to the later stages,do whats necessary.....thats suffering

There is no proof for voices or schizophrenia. It is all opinions.

You're completely wrong and that's the difference between someone that is Schizophrenic and someone that is hearing their inner voice.

A Schizophrenic person will actually HALLUCINATE and hear the sounds/voices coming through their ears.

Don't you people educate yourselves before spamming opinions in a thread?

contrary to bipolar disorder schizofrenia causes successive loss of intelectual abilities and memory. The old name was "dementio praecox" - premature dementia. Tragical cases are, when e.g. person after graduating at the university, let´s say at the start of productive life gets schizofrenia attack and you can see how he is gradually forgetting all he has learned at the university as well as his social and work skills. Very negative role in this successive "getting stupid" is played by drugs, especially those of first generation like Tisercine, which selectively kill dopamine ergic neurons A9DA and A10DA thus adding to the "getting silly". They sepress the halucinations but on the other side they make a slowed down robot from a previously vigorous and bright human being. Bipolar disorder usualy does not negatively affect the intelecual abilities and there are many people among scientist, politicians, artists, etc. suffering of bipolar disorder but working and functionate in their field of cognizance.

btw some genial compositors hear music and voices in their heads. E.g L.van Beethoven, Bedrich Smetana - these two even being physically deaf, heard music in their heads. Schizzos?

Creepy....had to stop listening....

Aaaaaaaaand you're schizophrenic. Seek treatment

A schizophrenic experiences inter reactions with others as if there are there. It is a completely different reality than what non-schizophrenics experience. Medications don't work on everyone. Very few people with schizophrenia are dangerous to others. It is very hard for many schizophrenics to have one on one conversations with someone else as there are other conversations going on. It is like living in a crowd when you are alone.

Sounds like an everyday conversation in our house.

Thread: Is Schizophrenia a powerful spiritual capability rather than a disease?

"she's looking at you NOW! look away! Quick quick! Oh no she's looking at you!"

Good example of paranoia in action.

Agreed. I listened to more than I wanted to.

My Uncle ODed on pot and now sounds like this

I haven't read this text but I came across it the other night while searching for Psychology texts and it looks worthy of exploration. Posting it here for anyone who may have interest:

Rethinking Madness by Paris Williams PHD
[link to www.amazon.com]

Schizophrenia: The Inward journey By Joseph Campbell
[link to www.mindspring.com]

Schizophrenia is a mediunic issue... You have to understand the spiritual realm in order to understand this issue though...Think about this people.

What some term "hallucinations" usually aren't. When SELF-styled so-called experts stop using denial as a crutch, they'll actually get somewhere because malevolent spirits do attack/harass people, and yes, demons do exist no matter how many times SELF-titled so-called experts cover their eyes and hum to try and ignore it.

I've had it for almost 20 years now and almost had to break down and start taking meds about 15 years in when I got sick with an auto-immune. I just became so fatigued mentally and physically it was becoming too much to bear. But I pulled through, can't keep me down for long.

Seriously though someone had it nailed, the voices are most often like little children. That will just repeat themselves over and over to annoy you or make you react. If you try to ignore it, they will get worse and worse trying to get your attention, they always need or want your focus to be on them. Not the brightest of the bunch that's for certain. I constantly make fun of my voice for their ignorance and feeble attempts at manipulation. Even tried to show it the errors of it's ways, but is mostly uninterested in learning and seems to have only one focus to disrupt.

But it does learn things, but only towards it's focus, disruptive things. Ya it's likely as they say just a broken aspect of a person's mind, but I have to admit I'm a little embarrassed any part of my mind is that ignorant.

I told him to go clean Brooklyn and he said no! lol it was worth a try.

I wonder why there are no female voices...

It's actually not a bad idea, I don't expect anything to get done. But I've done similar things to disrupt the disruptor, this could helpful as well. Thanks.