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Anonymous Coward User ID: 58068420 United States 05/28/2014 10:47 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | this is a true story Quoting: Anonymous Coward 52019277 my mother (whom I was never close to) passed away two years ago my real father was a POS and left when I was 2 my grandfather passed last year my grandmother who is 82 did not take it well they were very old school symbiotic really she lost her will to live adult protective services called me, from her area saying if I didn't put her somewhere (as in a nursing home) she would end up somewhere I DIDN'T want her to be I live in nyc and she lives in AZ she was born here but did not want to spend her last years here selfish I believe but that is how my family is I had a decision to make I have a 12yo son of my own (i'll get to him in a bit) and I had a very well paying job, but I do pay child support I researched it and saw the FMLA (family leave) does NOT cover grandparents I had just started this position and could not ask for 2-3 months off when I just started I also didn't want the pressure of having to complete everything in a short period of time I had to sell her house, her belongings and put her in a nursing home (the sale of the house would pay for that) so I quit, went to AZ and did everything my grandmother has some sort of OCD, PTSD after my grandfather passed she was not very thankful, maybe she didn't realize what I did I stayed there for three months, flying back a couple of wknds to see my son so now I am back in nyc I am having such a hard time finding my job my savings has been dried up rent food etc I am behind on the CS payments and now I haven't seen my son in two weeks we had an argument as he is just at that age where hes embarrassed to be around me im in despair not feeling sorry for myself but I feel trapped god are you listnening? 1 day at a time. It'll change. Just take it 1 day at a time. |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 20241035 United States 05/28/2014 10:57 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28 What you did for your grandmother was what you were to do. One day, you will know that God had you be the one to help her in her time of need. We all will learn that He has always been there....we just do not listen. Trust in God. |
Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 52019277 United States 05/28/2014 10:59 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | im sure I can call my son but he was being very disrespectful to me hes getting too old to hit/spank lol so I told him to go back to his mothers I don't want to call there bc she will then remind me how much $ I owe I need to find a job QUICK ive looked and posted my resume im sure my landlord will understand if I am late with next months rent hes pretty cool but I couldn't do that for long as far as internal happiness I don't even know what that is |
The Comforter~ User ID: 58342685 United States 05/28/2014 11:01 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Brother be still and know you are loved this very moment... please... bring your awareness to your breath ... dont try to control it just observe it... All the issues you listed are temporal and are going to change... you have to decide right here and now WHAT VALUE is there in WORRY in regards to those very life gripping issues? Abide in the present moment long enough to HEAR them... Your Heavenly Parents... I promise you my dear friend... your life will never be the same again if you do this... Love will find you right where you are and embrace you like a prodigal Son~ if nothing else I've typed here makes any sense to you...know this ... before I drift off to wherever my soul goes ...I will ask The Source which IS Love to bless you and your precious little ones and elder ones and that you to may have the sweetest nights rest in a very, very long time~ |
Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 52019277 United States 05/28/2014 11:01 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Quoting: Anonymous Coward 20241035 Matthew 11:28 What you did for your grandmother was what you were to do. One day, you will know that God had you be the one to help her in her time of need. We all will learn that He has always been there....we just do not listen. Trust in God. thank you I thought that too that if I did the right thing that everything would take care of itself it hasn't and ive lost faith time and god are my enemy |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 20241035 United States 05/28/2014 11:02 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | i just spent my last $ on rent for june Quoting: Anonymous Coward 52019277 unemployment has been denied bc i voluntarily left my job i have until the end of june to find a job the nursing home is approx. 4k a month! OP - there was a guy on here last month asking for prayers on getting financial help and a new job and simply asked for prayers. He posted in the morning.. That afternoon, he got a call for an interview. Believing what you ask for in prayer is what He asks. BELIEVE. |
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Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 52019277 United States 05/28/2014 11:03 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Brother be still and know you are loved this very moment... please... bring your awareness to your breath ... dont try to control it just observe it... Quoting: The Comforter~ 58342685 All the issues you listed are temporal and are going to change... you have to decide right here and now WHAT VALUE is there in WORRY in regards to those very life gripping issues? Abide in the present moment long enough to HEAR them... Your Heavenly Parents... I promise you my dear friend... your life will never be the same again if you do this... Love will find you right where you are and embrace you like a prodigal Son~ if nothing else I've typed here makes any sense to you...know this ... before I drift off to wherever my soul goes ...I will ask The Source which IS Love to bless you and your precious little ones and elder ones and that you to may have the sweetest nights rest in a very, very long time~ thank you those are kind words but again words don't pay the rent or get my son talking to me |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 7131892 United States 05/28/2014 11:04 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | this is a true story Quoting: Anonymous Coward 52019277 my mother (whom I was never close to) passed away two years ago my real father was a POS and left when I was 2 my grandfather passed last year my grandmother who is 82 did not take it well they were very old school symbiotic really she lost her will to live adult protective services called me, from her area saying if I didn't put her somewhere (as in a nursing home) she would end up somewhere I DIDN'T want her to be I live in nyc and she lives in AZ she was born here but did not want to spend her last years here selfish I believe but that is how my family is I had a decision to make I have a 12yo son of my own (i'll get to him in a bit) and I had a very well paying job, but I do pay child support I researched it and saw the FMLA (family leave) does NOT cover grandparents I had just started this position and could not ask for 2-3 months off when I just started I also didn't want the pressure of having to complete everything in a short period of time I had to sell her house, her belongings and put her in a nursing home (the sale of the house would pay for that) so I quit, went to AZ and did everything my grandmother has some sort of OCD, PTSD after my grandfather passed she was not very thankful, maybe she didn't realize what I did I stayed there for three months, flying back a couple of wknds to see my son so now I am back in nyc I am having such a hard time finding my job my savings has been dried up rent food etc I am behind on the CS payments and now I haven't seen my son in two weeks we had an argument as he is just at that age where hes embarrassed to be around me im in despair not feeling sorry for myself but I feel trapped god are you listnening? Love light & prayer headed your way. Stay positive, we hear your requests. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 20241035 United States 05/28/2014 11:06 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Quoting: Anonymous Coward 20241035 Matthew 11:28 What you did for your grandmother was what you were to do. One day, you will know that God had you be the one to help her in her time of need. We all will learn that He has always been there....we just do not listen. Trust in God. thank you I thought that too that if I did the right thing that everything would take care of itself it hasn't and ive lost faith time and god are my enemy Scripture reveals that the Father gives instruction and discipline. Not your enemy. Most will have a hard time because they do not accept what that is. Just as your own son willact out if you discipline him, the same we will do until we realize the depth of the love. |
Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 52019277 United States 05/28/2014 11:08 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Quoting: Anonymous Coward 20241035 Matthew 11:28 What you did for your grandmother was what you were to do. One day, you will know that God had you be the one to help her in her time of need. We all will learn that He has always been there....we just do not listen. Trust in God. thank you I thought that too that if I did the right thing that everything would take care of itself it hasn't and ive lost faith time and god are my enemy Scripture reveals that the Father gives instruction and discipline. Not your enemy. Most will have a hard time because they do not accept what that is. Just as your own son willact out if you discipline him, the same we will do until we realize the depth of the love. thank you all for your kind wishes I will try praying and promise if anything good happens you all will be the first to know/hear god...please |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 49015177 Canada 05/28/2014 11:12 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | im sure I can call my son but he was being very disrespectful to me Quoting: Anonymous Coward 52019277 hes getting too old to hit/spank lol so I told him to go back to his mothers I don't want to call there bc she will then remind me how much $ I owe I need to find a job QUICK ive looked and posted my resume im sure my landlord will understand if I am late with next months rent hes pretty cool but I couldn't do that for long as far as internal happiness I don't even know what that is Do you have your physical health?? Can you eat solid food - keep down liquids??? Breath on your own? Do you have mobility issues? Have you permanently disabled/injured/any chronic illness? Just wonderin'.... |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 36306569 United States 05/28/2014 11:15 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Quoting: Anonymous Coward 20241035 Matthew 11:28 What you did for your grandmother was what you were to do. One day, you will know that God had you be the one to help her in her time of need. We all will learn that He has always been there....we just do not listen. Trust in God. thank you I thought that too that if I did the right thing that everything would take care of itself it hasn't and ive lost faith time and god are my enemy You described how your son disrespected you -- you just did the same thing. Life is a lesson. |
Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 52019277 United States 05/28/2014 11:16 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | im sure I can call my son but he was being very disrespectful to me Quoting: Anonymous Coward 52019277 hes getting too old to hit/spank lol so I told him to go back to his mothers I don't want to call there bc she will then remind me how much $ I owe I need to find a job QUICK ive looked and posted my resume im sure my landlord will understand if I am late with next months rent hes pretty cool but I couldn't do that for long as far as internal happiness I don't even know what that is Do you have your physical health?? Can you eat solid food - keep down liquids??? Breath on your own? Do you have mobility issues? Have you permanently disabled/injured/any chronic illness? Just wonderin'.... yes everything is fine with me you try moving an 82yo woman from a house she was in for 25 years put her in a nursing home sell her belongings put her house on the market THAT was my job for the last two months this aint the waltons where I can live on love I was asking for advice not ridicule, asshole |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 20241035 United States 05/28/2014 11:17 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Quoting: Anonymous Coward 20241035 Matthew 11:28 What you did for your grandmother was what you were to do. One day, you will know that God had you be the one to help her in her time of need. We all will learn that He has always been there....we just do not listen. Trust in God. thank you I thought that too that if I did the right thing that everything would take care of itself it hasn't and ive lost faith time and god are my enemy Scripture reveals that the Father gives instruction and discipline. Not your enemy. Most will have a hard time because they do not accept what that is. Just as your own son willact out if you discipline him, the same we will do until we realize the depth of the love. thank you all for your kind wishes I will try praying and promise if anything good happens you all will be the first to know/hear god...please Prayers said for you OP. Give it to God, trust and Believe. Put your hands up and give it all to Him. |
Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 52019277 United States 05/28/2014 11:17 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Quoting: Anonymous Coward 20241035 Matthew 11:28 What you did for your grandmother was what you were to do. One day, you will know that God had you be the one to help her in her time of need. We all will learn that He has always been there....we just do not listen. Trust in God. thank you I thought that too that if I did the right thing that everything would take care of itself it hasn't and ive lost faith time and god are my enemy You described how your son disrespected you -- you just did the same thing. Life is a lesson. how did I disrespect? by questioning God when all is lost? |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 49015177 Canada 05/28/2014 11:22 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | im sure I can call my son but he was being very disrespectful to me Quoting: Anonymous Coward 52019277 hes getting too old to hit/spank lol so I told him to go back to his mothers I don't want to call there bc she will then remind me how much $ I owe I need to find a job QUICK ive looked and posted my resume im sure my landlord will understand if I am late with next months rent hes pretty cool but I couldn't do that for long as far as internal happiness I don't even know what that is Do you have your physical health?? Can you eat solid food - keep down liquids??? Breath on your own? Do you have mobility issues? Have you permanently disabled/injured/any chronic illness? Just wonderin'.... yes everything is fine with me you try moving an 82yo woman from a house she was in for 25 years put her in a nursing home sell her belongings put her house on the market THAT was my job for the last two months this aint the waltons where I can live on love I was asking for advice not ridicule, asshole Wow and wow!!! LOL |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 58068420 United States 05/28/2014 11:22 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Quoting: Anonymous Coward 20241035 Matthew 11:28 What you did for your grandmother was what you were to do. One day, you will know that God had you be the one to help her in her time of need. We all will learn that He has always been there....we just do not listen. Trust in God. thank you I thought that too that if I did the right thing that everything would take care of itself it hasn't and ive lost faith time and god are my enemy No dude. There's a reason why your going through what your going through now. It doesn't make sense right now... In time you'll look back and understand. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 58569635 United States 05/28/2014 11:24 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Don't fret OP. your heart is in the right place and that is all that matters. Kudos to you for taking care of your grand mother and family. Life shall blossom if you choose to let go of the past and live life from a newer and higher perspective. 'Be the love that you are.' God Bless and God Speed to you and yours. Don't give up as you will make your grandma and son proud. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 49015177 Canada 05/28/2014 11:29 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Quoting: Anonymous Coward 20241035 Matthew 11:28 What you did for your grandmother was what you were to do. One day, you will know that God had you be the one to help her in her time of need. We all will learn that He has always been there....we just do not listen. Trust in God. thank you I thought that too that if I did the right thing that everything would take care of itself it hasn't and ive lost faith time and god are my enemy You described how your son disrespected you -- you just did the same thing. Life is a lesson. how did I disrespect? by questioning God when all is lost? Apparently - you're health isn't lost? |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 49015177 Canada 05/28/2014 11:29 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Quoting: Anonymous Coward 20241035 Matthew 11:28 What you did for your grandmother was what you were to do. One day, you will know that God had you be the one to help her in her time of need. We all will learn that He has always been there....we just do not listen. Trust in God. thank you I thought that too that if I did the right thing that everything would take care of itself it hasn't and ive lost faith time and god are my enemy You described how your son disrespected you -- you just did the same thing. Life is a lesson. how did I disrespect? by questioning God when all is lost? Apparently - you're health isn't lost? |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 19004483 United States 05/29/2014 12:02 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I feel for you. There is much suffering in Samsara. Needlessly. Every story told affects many more than the teller. But, there is no liberation from suffering. This is the way of Tao. You are asking externally "where is God". God cannot be found outside of yourself. You must search deeply within and you will find, that is the riddle to the door that if you keep knocking on will be opened to you. You must not loose faith in this believe, for then you are disconnected from the prime reality. No matter what happens in life, or how you feel, believe in the prime reality. The infallible spirit, that a piece of resides within you. Faith is about this. Faith in self, in what one believes in, and what others says is not possible, real, or worthy, when you know this is not true. Define for yourself what you find in the deeper part of yourself, but remain true to what you truly feel and believe. And know, you are not alone with these feelings and circumstances in life that are convenient. |