I have no friends, will never be in a relationship, am mentally unstable and is living a life of torment...

:coolstorybro:

To make friends, be a friend.

go buy a gun and plenty of ammo, it'll make you feel better. Normally, I charge for this advice, but in your case, all I ask is that you notify me if you're planning on moving to within 500 miles of where I live.

You could have crappy friends and a horrible relationship. Just be glad you can be mentally unstable on your own. You decided what comes next. No one else does. That should at least bring you some happiness. If you want companionship get a dog or even a plant. They will bring you much enjoyment.