Life has me down

hello GLP. im sorry if i offend anyone. I just needed a moment to get something off my chest that I have never been able to tell anyone face to face.

when i was 6 months old, my mom and dad abandoned me. my grandmother adopted me. when i was old enough to understand, i realized something. my grandmother received child support from both of my parents because she became my legal guardian. she gained money, healthcare, and food stamps from all of this. she was extremely mean to me, and abused me. she would go as far as to hit me with a wooden broom handle at times. she gambled my child support money in illegal gambling rooms, and their were times that my shoes were literally falling apart. when i turned 18 and all of the assistance cut out, i was treated even worse. she threatened to kick me out on a daily basis, and college didnt work for me. at the age of 19 i was kicked out, had nowhere to go, so i slept in my car. i managed to save 900 and purchased the vehicle. ive been forced to submit myself to a crappy low paying job and can barely survive. i have no one to talk to and have been struggling to get by as long as i can remember. life is so hard for me, and not just financially, but also emotionally. i feel so isolated from the world and everyone in it. i dont feel like anyone understands me. life has me to the point where i dont feel like im worth the breath i breathe.

again, im sorry if i offended anyone. i just needed to get this off my chest and had nowhere else to go.