No easy way out or what?

I've bettered myself, and yet my situation still remains bad, why won't the World grant me a break?

I've got love on my mind, but I have no idea how to get there... Just the will for it...

I feel I have more important things to focus my energy on than working a Monday-Friday job, so I am unemployeed and have little cash, I sit at home most of the time thinking... thinking... different scenarios, possible outcomes trying to reach the right one but I keep doubting that I can have what I want without leaving this place? With my friends, family, community...

Sometimes my attitude is just kill me now i'll leave God to decide my fate.

Whether i'll be put in nicer conditions or be terminated...

I've worked enough, let me rest in peace.

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