A rough time

No direction, no short-term or long-term goals...nothing seems worth doing. Everything you had has ultimately been taken away from you and so you say "What's the point?"

Life is asking you to re-prioritize, and to rebuild the rest of your life on a foundation of stone versus sand, and stop putting so much faith and effort in other people.

Find yourself, be yourself, and your Kingdom will arise, triumphant.

And The Lord said to Joshua! GET UP!!!!

The Last In Line, you nailed it! All of it. Hmmmmm, think I will pull out of it? What sees ya for my future. Got a view on where to find myself? This is not like me to be so freaking lost.

You need to find what you want to do...not as easy as it sounds...but find that and then do that. Throw your entire self into it and stop fretting over the bullshit. You need to find a pride in yourself that is based on accomplishment. When you do this, the rest of your life will fall into place one thing after another and the things and situations you are looking for will manifest effortlessly.

Secondly, I'm feeling another layer of inertia...lots of lethargy and feeling like you're just waiting to die at this point. Watching the hours pass. This is not healthy, and you need to get to a gym 3-4 times per week and essentially work the demons out of your system. No need to go full rager, just some light cardio and muscle training, focus on abdomen, lots of crunches and situps to really clean you out.

Reduce carb intake, especially the sugar.

If it won't kill you to do it, say the Lord's Prayer at night and a prayer of thanksgiving over meals. Even if you think it's silly, see if it doesn't have an effect over time. You may find yourself faking it and making it.

Keep your relationships casual for at least 2 years; you do not want to be bogged down or stuck with anyone while you're cleaning out. You are ten times more likely to meet a toxic person when you are detoxing.

I sense that there may be a strained relationship with a child or children. Let it be known to them, if possible, that you are taking steps to improve yourself and your life and remove obstacles but keep it brief and don't go into detail.

I sense that you have a relative that is sympathetic and Is ready and willing to help you if they get the impression that you are for real.

Again, Very spot on. A big part is trying to find myself. employment issues and such. Lost in direction. Will up my cardio. Been walking a lot.

not bad

Thank you. How do you see the universe responding?

First there will be great resistance as is necessary to test your resolve to make change. Be careful you are ready to meet this head-on, otherwise the tendency is for a person to actually take a step backwards from the crap point where they started from and be slightly worse off.

If you keep on, though, life will improve exponentially, kind of like young Forrest Gump as he began to run, the braces coming off his legs as he breaks free.

Your damaged relationships will line up to experience and glom on to the new you, but be careful not to open the door back up to damaged people you may have chosen in your darkened state unless they, themselves have done their own work.

My impression is that if you have an ex wife you will not be getting back with her. Again, an older relative wants to help you, if you are sincere, and maybe even a business partnership comes from this relationship. From this launching pad a soulmate is coming down the road, someone with genuine mutual interests who will make sure that you enjoy life and find your way. The name "Brenda" resonates and came into my head out of nowhere.

I've been trying to get a read on what your endeavor might be, and all I get are "hands" so it could be anything crafty, carpentry, or even arts/musical instrument I just can't see it. It could be you are multi-talented and it could be any of those things.

Thank you! Just had to get an intuitive perspective. January gonna be a tough month. Grabbed my ass and holding on. Thanks!