A love letter

Ok,well then..I will leave you with this as I think it explains it perfectly.

I want to tell you something. It's kind of sad but interesting at the same time. Einstein wrote that since there are only so many ways matter can arrange itself; eventually, matter has to repeat and arrange itself in similar ways. Think of it like a deck of cards; if you were to shuffle that deck, there's just so many orderings that can happen. If you shuffle that deck enough times, the orders will have to repeat.

You know I am nerd about things like this and how much stock I give to synchronicity. I have always told you that I think time runs in multiple directions certain events alter future scenarios. It's the butterfly effect. How one action can change all future events. Stories that have already been played out but with minor variations.

Ok what am I getting at. I realized today that my path has completely changed. Not just a fork in the road of familiar lanes but one that is completely unknown. For once it's actually blank. I told you when I met you that this already happened I recognized you. This is why I was immediately comfortable with you. We have fit together before. Strange I know but, not really for me..

However, something has changed and the story has been altered. I had a few visions of you that stick out. Like future memories or past events which ever; that are so vivid I could even hear the cranking of the door open, the dabbled lighting on the floor and the excitement on your face showing me what cool thing you had accomplished. It was beyond real I even remember what you were wearing and exactly what the room smelled like. Why is this a sad story? I don't know but it feels like something lost or maybe a really good book that you weren't ready to finish. Or maybe because it was something good like that one fleeting moment of absolute content that you can never really recreate again. It was happiness I think. Familiarity. Ha! I probably sound crazy. Like I have told you before I have always been yours and will always be a person you can lean on for anything wether we don't speak for months or years I can promise you that. Oh Jason, I love you so dearly don't be too much of a stranger;)