Maybe it's Magi[k]c

Man...LB deleted her account....I can't believe I didn't save some of those messages...there was one I wrote regarding how my decision to quit smoking came about.

I want to say, I was compelled to quit. Of course the reasons for myself were plentiful, but the catalyst and the command were from something else...something that called itself messenger



all I know is it told me I'd never smoke again and I threw my pack away
I had not planned on or decided to quit smoking - it was revealed to me that I would do so, and I scoffed at that , like huh, you're kidding...yet....

anyhow...

been playing pokemon still?

I wonder if what they lack is assurance.

Perhaps the dream world truly is more real to them than the common realm insofar as they are able to better complete their own circuits than the various distractions around them are. In this sense they are neither failed nor possessed: they are merely extremely skilled in a method of meditation that is intensely esoteric. Perhaps they have performed a full on heiros gamos ritual by themselves, and indeed were in this case Gnosticism at all valid, then we'd expect individuals to be able to do so.


Did you know that schizophrenia was once widely purported to be exclusively the fault of the mother? Indeed it was said IIRC to be akin to borderline personality disorder made distinct by the near exclusive involvement of the mother, specifically invalidation of her child's thoughts and emotions. However, outcries were made and the evidence was eventually discredited. Despite this we can easily compare schizophrenia and borderline personality disorder, and what we find are that the schizophrenics are primarily the more sheltered group for whatever reason. Logic dictates the caretaker here would almost certainly be the child's mother.... and especially, as functioning schizophrenics are generally independent and have access to drugs. Nicotine for example that'd be abhorred by an overbearing mother, is so efficacious in the treatment of schizophrenia that it was once used as a psychiatric treatment, while it's metabolite cotinine was similarly once used as an antidepressant.

truly. So what's new? I've rather missed your particular take on things.

I was told a long time ago, that LSD blocks whatever it is, that keeps us from dreaming, while we are awake. Not sure if that is true but it always stayed with me, as it made sense in a weird way. It also makes sense in regard to schizophrenia, as well.

I was quick to recognize as a youth when my mother read me Bible stories, that if people claimed to speak to God today, they would be seen as 'crazy' and dismissed, drugged, and forgotten.

Well as you know I got a new job. All the boxes are ticked except I work with the devil herself lol.

Now I am tossing up what is more important. The boxes being ticked, or the people I have to be bombarded with every day.

Other than that I am just trying to relax and carve out something I am satisfied with.

How about you, did you get that teaching job you mentioned last we spoke?

Interesting indeed. I do hope you're feeling OK. I personally only rarely feel nicotine withdrawal, seemingly it is overshadowed by my cravings for weed.

Walking about the mall I found that any anxiety I had was dulled by the action of playing with a lighter I carried throughout. Not something I normally do but in the last few days it's a habit I've more or less picked up.

hey wannabe mages.


Help this dude;


Thread: Crying on my Birthday

Do you feel you are often unduly judgmental on this forum?

I do.


There is nothing 'wannabe' about any in attendance here. And any who claim as such, is either blind or a liar.

It's been a couple months now, I'm alright. My adderall prescription is sort of a toss up though. I get 30 pills a month, typically I use them in 15 days and go without for the next 15.

How would you go about helping that poster?
It does appear that they are feeling what it is like to be used and have little control over it.

We always have control of our own actions...who we decide to let into our hearts

That's probably an effect of the 2C serotonin receptor on muscarinic acetylcholine receptors. IE rathermore on a quantum level the prevention of the onset of delirium.

It begs the question to me of whether LSD induces or restricts the downstream release of dimethyltryptamine. That said, it is apparent that in waking life we don't expect DMT to have a prevalent influence. Then again if it did, it'd be indistinguishable from the very firmament upon which consciousness rests, being the bodymind's most efficacious neurotransmitter in all possible regards.

Really to imagine the path of glandular DMT working its way through the bodymind evokes images of the Higgs Event in my mind. It is something so profoundly active that the consciousness cannot help but be heavily influenced anywhere it takes effect.


In fact I'd not be surprised if it were DMT that was ultimately responsible for the registering of the scent of a Rose.

Indeed not so much insofar as the composition within the mind of it as it is analyzed, but rathermore as the overwhelming pulse of emotion that follows despite the inherent imperfection of any 3d specimen to even the most forgiving of palettes and sensitives of nose.

Is it an ancient's memory within us bursting forth? Is it an illusion generated by our desire to enjoy? Is it merely perhaps la Vie en Rose?

I thought I would add a note about quitting smoking.

They say smoking suppresses the immune system. And after quitting the immune system starts functioning again at full capacity again.

With that said, for the last 4 weeks I have been experiencing seasonal allergies for the first time ever in my life.

Since, I have spoken to others regarding I have randomly found 4 others, who never experienced allergies to pollen until they quit smoking.

Just today I told a friend I had quit and I am now finding myself subject to the pollen. She said, My boyfriend quit recently as well and he has bad allergies too.

I then asked if he had, 'just moved here' being the Willamette Valley is infamous for how bad it is here and she said, He was born and raised here.


One draw back to quitting smoking...I now have allergies. Which suck. Sore throat, running nose, sneezing, itchy ears.

Booo!

Other than that, I have saved $1000. :D

Well that is true. Well said.

Interesting note about the allergies actually
I kind of have been feeling a little of that too

but still - when I actually realized that quitting smoking meant I could afford a ps4, that was joyous. I'm now playing Final Fantasy 14 : A Realm Reborn (the new FF MMORPG) on it and I'm heaven. Whenever I turn that game on it's like being taken to another world, so gorgeous and peaceful.

Do you like the one character can be all classes aspect?

Your experience with sleep deprivation I have never close to knowing the like of. I missed a night of sleep once or twice...and found it disturbing and uncomfortable.


Years ago, I had a very spiritual, intelligent and learned friend of mine, who told me of DMT and how it changed his life. He came back with stories of a elf-like jester, that met him and showed him 'Everything'. He said, it was beyond what could be explained in words and would forget upon returning.

He said he would smoke more, and be set right back down in front of the 'elf' that looked at him a bit annoyed for forgetting. Holding a sign which read...'Duh'.


I was so intrigued, that I decided to seek it for myself. After years of meditation, practice, I had consistently failed at willingly projecting my consciousness, outside my physical body.


After weeks of contemplation, I was directed to then found the individual to which offered me said. He had one 'good' eye. Having lost the other, in a BB gun accident as a child.

I told him both my curiosity and reservations regarding. He then popped out his glass eye, held it in his palm and said, I'll keep an eye on you...

When I mentioned it that I had quit smoking, random marketeers came up to me to congratulate me having overheard. Some that have never spoken to me before.

I mentioned last week to a known, about the sudden onset of allergies for the first time in my life and he kinda started and said...You know, that happened to me too a few years ago.

I said, Makes sense, the immune system goes into overdrive, and now pollen is seen as an enemy, when it wasn't before.


The money saved is amazing. Not to mention, I don't smoke anymore. Which makes your loved ones, so happy.

Right.
I shall hold my own counsel.
Although, we shall have moot again.


Be Well.


And, no, I don't, actually.

I can be acerbic, but if the tenor of glp was a little higher, maybe the need wouldn't be there.

Look to your foes, Seer and leave me be.

I do yeah. I've always loved that about FF games actually. My attention span is very short and whenever I play an MMO I end up with ten thousand alts because I love to play with other classes. it's kind of nice too in the sense that I have my character and she kind of gets to be this total badass shapeshifter of sorts...I like having just Caylus Ark and being able to do everything with her

the mechanics of the mutiple jobs are really realy addictive..like fishing is a whole freaking art with 25 levels and its just one tiny class... yet it requires the player approach the game in a completely different way. that's the sort of approach that sort of defies the MMO genre imo


I played 14 when it first came out a couple years ago and the only reason I stopped was because my PC is not really as reliable as it should have been given its specs. So I just sorta left it behind.

With my ps4 I was forced to start a new char due to the retarded security restrictions of square enix, which pissed me off, but once I started playing I was really glad I had to make a new character. I started as an Archer in Gridania this time as a Keeper of the Moon, and pretended with my Free company (like a guild) that I was a newb because I don't have a USB keyboard and it was too complicated to explain with my ps3 controller. lmao.

But I'm totally sucked into the atmosphere. Honestly I'm not a PC gamer at heart and I never have been. Consoles are just better for me. PCs do not like to work right for me. I've never owned one that didn't eventually shit out and stop working for me.

I love playing 14 on the ps4, it's really enchanting.

It's saddening to me as my sister and mom (basically the only family I have left) are both smokers, although of course they are extremely glad I stopped. I hope that in time perhaps me quitting will inspire then, since I really was a terribly bad chain smoker and I have a huge oral fixation PLUS I tend towards stimulants which are very hard to avoid smoking with. I kind of feel like if I can quit anybody can

I think you're being kinda mean lately. Like a lot, mean. You can be mean sometimes and it is funny. Clever. And sometimes it isn't. It seems to just be cruel for the sake of being cruel.


Thank you. I hope your Autumn is to your liking. Often a beautiful time of year if surrounded by trees.


I have no foes.

A foes is a friend, separated by misunderstanding.

This is FS, right?

yeah, you are probably right...


Comes with staring at the apocalypse too long.

Still, better a bruised ego, than a lost soul.

Yeah. I smoked A LOT.

Truly, I had no plans on making it to 40. I lived for the day alone.

I had experienced ultimate bliss in meditation, and knew that is were I wanted to be.

A part of that.

Sigh,, yes its me...

Look...simply put, if the "magic (ie Solomons knowledge ergo Asmodeus Knowledge) is used it has to be reapaid> particularly, if it is stolen/wrong.
I don't care in reality.

Weird, I was just like that too
For me one of the motivations to quit was to lift a spiritual burden - that I was betraying my inner child

What shifted for you?

Well it seems like you do care

That's an interesting statement though. How does it relate to this thread?

I understand.

Very well. I find myself fighting the same beast. To do unto others, as was done...

There is a strange type of sense in it. But, its cruel. Cruel is the opposite of kindness.

But then pain moves...causes problem solving. Drive. Will.

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it doesn't.

I'll go.