my father is the antichrist demon number 1....

If he is getting a free ride on your back, it may be time to turn your back on him and walk away

Yeh it is but iv been under the cunts poverty trap and unable to move you see.. but soon very soon I dump the piece of shit on his ass and move on and find a better way beyond the streets and poverty the maggot has bound me in for too long.. he should be lucky im not like my you ger years where id turn and put a shiv or two in him in a heartbeat if I was this angry and fed up after all these years of suffering and pain in his hands..

Perhaps you are still quite young and find it difficult to leave.
I hope your find peace soon

No I am not young its just they have done the most unthinkable evils upon me pretty much destroyed my life and my entire adult life iv been imprisoned by them with full force of state run psychiatry which has left me pretty much broken and useless.. now I am in my early thirties and I came back to their house last year for the final time and my time is pretty much over withthem.. really circumstance no choice kind of life its been.. too much to explain here and now but I am making moves slowly rather than being on the streets and more fucked upcause of this cunts

Im glad you recognise it for what it is and are able to make the move to personal freedom.
I understand that it is too difficult to explain your life on one thread on glp, and I wish you luck at creating your own happiness and most importantly understanding forgiveness....took me about 50 years...I hope yours comes sooner