GLP Confessions From A Concerned Citizen

stop posting when you're still riding the residual Ecstasy high.

You can stop being so humble too. After all, you're not that great...

I've been a regular member of GLP since 2007; gone by a slew of handles, both registered and non registered, paid and non-paid; spread a lot of wisdom and light, as well as a healthy dose of disinformation and hatred. I'm halfway considering adding a sort of chronological compilation of all the various threads I've posted on here just to show that I do not deny that I am quite mentally/emotionally/spiritually unbalanced.

I've done it all, GLP; from claiming to be the Daniel 12 "Michael the Great Prince" to playing along with the Nobody/WOS drama-script to downright supporting the New World Order and Luciferian ideology. I've participated in threads of vulgar and utterly derogatory nature, said cruel and downright ugly things to well-intentioned kind hearted people and of course been very blatantly Antichristian.

I've lost count of how many times I thought some date was going to be the "end of the world" or the "return of Jesus" or "the return of nibiru/planet x" or the economic collapse/marshall law/power grid failure, etc. I've bugged out hardcore and told all my family and friends, like the boy who cried wolf or chicken little, that the sky was falling and yet here I am today.

Why am I telling you all this?

Because the one thing I love about this website is that those who run it state in the disclaimer that they DO NOT DISCRIMINATE AGAINST THE MENTALLY ILL. I am sick, GLP. I admit it. I'm very much a paranoid schizophrenic and I suffer from a slew of anxiety disorders and am often completely dissociated from my reality. I'm a recovering addict with only two years clean and sober but most of my GLP "life" was spent making threads and replies while stoned out of my mind, tweaking or hopped up on numerous sorts of narcotics or hallucinogens; if not just completely drunk. :youreafag:

I've made a few good posts in my time; namely recent ones which taught me the immeasurable beauty in this community and through it I've made friends for life. I am so deeply touched by the wonderful and amazing people who frequent this little hub of information with me on a regular basis. For whatever reason we were all brought here and were it not for GLP I wouldn't have met such truly incredible souls who I'm so blessed and honored to call my friends, my brothers and my sisters.

It's funny because I can make a post from the heart and yet there will always be someone who brings up my past. They'll say "aren't you the one who claimed to support TPTB and spoke against Abrahamic religions?" or "aren't you the one who spoke ignorantly about white supremacy and native american genocide?"; "aren't you the one who spammed countless replies of odd phrases off of gematrix.org with those nobody followers?"; "don't you have some kind of sick messianic complex" and "yet, here you are claiming to be a Christian? Ha! Good luck, dick weed!"

As a matter of fact, those who speak out against me certainly are not lying. I've done all of those things and worse! The words of Paul in his first letter to Timothy (1:15) resonate so strongly with me when he writes, "A faithful saying, and worthy of all acceptation, that Christ Jesus came into this world to save sinners, of whom I am the chief." I know that I am the worst of the worst. I know that I'm a reprobate and a backslider and at one point made it up in my heart to be a full on ENEMY of the Most High God. Yet it blows my mind how in Romans 5:10 he also writes "For if, while we were enemies we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, how much more, now that we are reconciled, shall we be saved by his life?!"

Yes, I am certainly all of these things and I do not deny them or even try to cover them up. I wish that I could go back and take back the ignorant things I've done and said but that simply cannot happen. But what I can do is heed the words of James (5:16) when he says, "Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed." These are my sins and trespasses I've made against you, my brothers and sisters. I've promoted hatred, intolerance, antichristian doctrine, fear mongering, self-promotion and sheer ignorance. I've been a stumbling block and done great harm to any chance of witnessing I may have had at one point. I've taken myself entirely too seriously and only contributed to the ceaseless amount of noise and filler. A thread about A1 steak sauce and genitalia would have been less harmful than the propaganda I would spew so carelessly.

I sincerely hope that I can sow seeds of righteousness, charity, hope and love rather than continue to sow tares of contention, discord and hate in your midst. In closing, I was speaking to a Christian Brother whom I met through this community and we prayed that the Holy Spirit of the Most High God pour out His Love, His Light and His Mercy upon this community and strengthen our love for one another, allow us to see each other truly as Brothers and Sisters and pave the way for the Kingdom of Heaven to be made manifest in the lives of each one of you individually, as well as here in our magnificent collective.

And remember, my friends:

"Do not call conspiracy everything this people calls a conspiracy; do not fear what they fear, and do not dread it."

Love relentlessly. Trust no man. Seek the Kingdom in all of its Righteousness. Spread the Good News of Jesus Christ. Forgive. Show mercy. Give freely. And last but not least, post responsibly.

I love each and every single one of you.

Thank you for putting up with me and for calling me out on my bs when it's necessary.

I haven't taken drugs in almost two years. It's not a 'residual high', it's what I am to do as a Christian.

Romans 12:8 “Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for whoever loves others has fulfilled the law.”

I don't really feel that I deserve much of anything but I just want the opportunity to right my wrongs; in every aspect of my life; and to sort of turn things around and do good to others. It's never too late to repent or turn around. Thank you for taking the time to read my post and comment. I appreciate it.

My question to you is what motivated you all those years to use GLP and its members as the instrument of your anger, hate and disfunction?

I haven't taken drugs in almost two years.

Maybe you should start again.

Cowardice and convenience.

I've always been a loner, glued to a computer screen all day and all night, so once I found this outlet I latched on like a hungry ghost or a thirsty parasite.

Hmmmm . . . you appear to be honest; however, time will tell. How many others like you do you believe have done the same things on GLP?

That's a pretty ignorant thing to say.

And yet you want to troll ME? HAHA. WOW!

Well, you are trolling GLP with your sob story... so, tit-for-tat.

Poor you. Next you'll be posting a kickstarter fundraising page. Seen this troll crap before.

Feeling bad about yourself ? Grab a helmet and join the club buttercup. Poor me, wah wah wah...

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... so you don't have family you are returning to? ..
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What? Are you referring to my latest threads?

No those are all genuinely from the heart and yes I do. July 17th I'm moving back home to be with my family. :)

Tell it all brother, tell it all. LOL

Hey, remember no ne is perfectly logical and rational all the time. If you are smart enough to know you are a bit crazy--you are not that crazy. You know that you need to keep it under control.

Nice post.

Well OP, it appears that you didn't use all the time you spent on GLP to your advantage,
seeing as that you chose to take the blue pill instead of the red pill and become a "Born-Again" Christian.

My time here is short "I suppose" compared to you.

With that, I surmise this moment is now.

It's not what you've done, for you have been washed in the blood.

If the truth be known, I don't read post ever, this long.

But, for some reason I did.

So brother, put on the full armor and stand, not proudly but humble and bask in his light.

:wise:

Confess your sins to God, not to GLP.

What you wrote smacks of grandstanding.

A simple "I'm sorry if I hurt anyone, and I'll do my best to do better from now on" would have sufficed and would have come across as sincere.

Pride is in your words, not humility.

Genuine remorse doesn't start a thread.

You are saved
Because you know your transgression ..
Sinning now will cost you your soul..

Born Again Christian = blue pill, I meant.