I don't want to play anymore...

Maybe I'm just weak.

Maybe I'm a pussy.

Maybe I'm just lazy...

Or maybe I don't want to jump through hoops at the earth circus for crumbs anymore.

Jesus said, "Loose your life and you shall find it."

If you can spot depression, then you can avoid it.

Well, how do you think I feel. I'm working at Wal-Mart and people are spending their hard earned money buying all the stuff that they can. I watch people have trouble paying their bill in the check-out and I know that we are in a lot more trouble than you might expect. Lots of people are on food stamps and it's more people than you might think.

No you are real.

You are like many others.

(((((( hugs )))))))

Exactly! Which is why everyone should be ready for the SHTF event.
Whether it is an Economic collapse, Civil War or some other event, things are going bad, FAST.
I suspect this is also what the OP and many others are sensing and it has them upset or depressed.
So it won't be long before we will be playing a new Game: Survival.
On your Mark, Get Set......

Thank you.
The only thing that gives me comfort is knowing I am part of something much bigger. Unfortunately it is that realization which causes my suffering here at times.

you gave fear control

That's the thing.

I don't want to exist just to survive.

There's more to life than that.

The concept of "survival of the fittest" is created with dark mind.

Thank you. Hug received.

yeah the jews will save you OP. Just believe in the jews oops I mean jesus and everything will be fine. Don't worry about the the jewing your getting in the world.

Not expecting anyone to save me.

Hmmm, you know what would be interesting.

That the real goal of this reality is to figure out how this reality works. So when your time here ends and you pass onto the next step, there is a test. The test is to see how well you understand the rules to this reality and if you don't pass, back you go for another round. You are still able to keep some of the lessons learned through previous lives.

That would certainly make taking the plunge to be born into this reality a little more interesting. If there was nothing at stake, this life would lose it's meaning.

But not to the point of burning forever in hell because you made poor decisions in this reality, that is just stupid.


Youaredreaming:
Hey, you had another thread the other day where you mentioned that part of the test after we exit this reality could possibly be love. I was wondering if you are willing, to describe what you meant by that.

I wish you good luck. I am walking out the door tomorrow to be homeless and I will not return to society.

Remember the kingdom of heaven is inside you. It is all you need. Develop a personal relationship with the universe through meditation, breathing, feeling and imagination. Clear your mind of all things and just be.

You will be okay. I love you. :]

Wow, now that takes some courage. If you find out that the freedom and happiness greatly increase after you are free from commitments, just come back here and lie to us and tell us it is horrible :)

I would do more than that.

I would change the world.

Much love.

:]

Lies

Well if we were actually able to remember our lessons that makes sense.

However that is not the case here.

seems this place is a good place to unlearn anything true and live in an unending cycle of lies and deception.

I've tried the " we're all here to learn" attitude.
My intuition tells me otherwise.

Our original purpose, most likely yes... But somewhere along the way I feel we got lost here.

You all have let mankind define your mind that work is life, to just accept it.

I am sorry, but this is poison to the masses and you all worship death.

Inquire within.

Work for what? Imaginary pieces of paper that deem us worthy to live?

I have nothing against honest work for the good of all and self improvement.
I am, however, not for being a wage slave for the profit of others. Selling shit that poisons people's minds, bodies, and spirits that they don't really need.


Even the jobs out there that are supposed to "help" people just hurt them in the end.... People think they're doing a service to humanity by being part of the medical field and they are only helping people to an earlier grave and the wallets of their masters.

Yes but with life vs work, I don't have a supervisor to blame all of my stupid decisions on. Hmm, so I need to find a supervisor in life to place all of my woes on.

'hello wife'...naw, already tried that didn't turn out very good (me being an incel and all).

'hello god' ... now that has a nice ring to it. But that ship has already sailed. maybe if I eat enough lead paint chips ....

Oh well, personal accountability/responsibility here I come. Damn, life is looking better already. In fact this reality kicks ass? Who knew.

there is a trick
you have to find it

Let us say you have an open mind. When you review both sides on any subject, don't you feel a slight pull towards one of the paths versus the other? Don't some 'truths' seem better than others and other truths smell kind of funky?

Maybe you have already been on this path before and that is your 'soul' trying to nudge you in the right direction? Sometimes if you just still your mind and explore all possibilities there is one path that shines a little brighter. As you become more experienced I wonder instead of a little nudge it becomes an epiphany. Then the wrong choice will scream out to you 'this is fucking stupid, don't do it'.

This is because of separation from existence.

Everything from your chair to your hair to electricity of the city is energy, or a type of vibration. Therefore energy is all around you.

Why do you need energy if you are already intricately connected to this? That is because you allowed yourself not to be by putting up walls and defining yourself. You have removed yourself from love.

Love is life, love is knowing, love is power.

I wish you good tidings, you poor soul.

your getting closer!!

Charles hits the nail n the head, consistently.

“The problem was you had to keep choosing between one evil or another, and no matter what you chose, they sliced a little bit more off you, until there was nothing left. At the age of 25 most people were finished. A whole god-damned nation of assholes driving automobiles, eating, having babies, doing everything in the worst way possible, like voting for the presidential candidates who reminded them most of themselves. I had no interests. I had no interest in anything. I had no idea how I was going to escape. At least the others had some taste for life. They seemed to understand something that I didn't understand. Maybe I was lacking. It was possible. I often felt inferior. I just wanted to get away from them. But there was no place to go.”
;-Charles Bukowski

Holy SHIT OP.

You have to realize with that one response, you are probably farther along in realizing the truth than the majority of people in this reality?

It seems like you realize it is not smart to sell your soul for the almighty paycheck. I think you have been through this reality many times already and will soon find yourself looking for a bigger challenge than what this world has to offer.