I'm A Former Adonis And A Genius, But Now Look And Talk Like A Reject...I'm A Question Waiting To Be Asked?

Im a genius, or so they say. Whether a good thing or not i cant figure out. But for that, a lot of good its done me. And let me just say the genius part i have God to thank for. But all things considered no one listens to me because at present i look and talk like a reject. It wasn't always that way. I was an athlete in high standing and had to beat back the cheerleaders and beautiful women. No fault of my own I was raised by a set of very religious and strict parents. Both pretty much scared me off of women, which is a damn shame as I do love the fairer. Did a brief stint in the army in medical field before all this happened, and thats pretty much the qualifiers.

I however ran into a very imcompetent medical doctor who effed me up royally through a very common emergency procedure (lumbar puncture) that went very wrong. The incompetent sob gave me iatrogenically induced meningitis which totally devastated my entire body. I was bedridden with almost total systemic failure for about 2 years and it felt like and was a living nightmare. No other doctor or even hospital really wanted to help. Whether a product of covering up or just not realizing what was wrong I cannot say. But ever since my health and good looks have gone down hill.

The stinker is when i look back on my life i see no legacy. Nothing I have done in spite of all my blessing will ever be remembered. In fact the bad i did early on probably outweighs the good. Dont get me wrong im no criminal in mans sight but im pretty tough on myself. So now that im almost at the end of my life, at least it feels like, i look back daily with sorrow.

I have much i could contribute to this world, but due to lack of spirit and body i cant do much at this time. However, i have experienced quite a bit in my 48 years of hobbiting around Gods green earth and hope anything i can say to anyone will be a great help. Not trying to toot my own horn, just want to be a player in the band.

Oh, i do have several ideas that i consider billion dollar ideas, and i mean very quick returns. I haven't taken anyone into confdence of yet, but may if you can persuade me. Im a question waiting to be answered?