Precognitive Dreams: I didn't follow their advice. Think I lost a very good girl. How do I have more of them?

Man, I can relate to you... Especially about hearing voices while at the brink of sleep. My advice is to pray and do your best, and try to follow God's will. We may not always get what we want, but He will always provide us with what we need.

God bless you!

Unfortunately in terms of a particular romance, you are given only one chance. That is my experience. It's weird. Also a very good friend of mine agree with similar experience. So, move on and don't miss the next one.

Thank you for your post.

My thoughts on the subject and how far down the rabbit hole you wish to go:

PREFACE - Watch the romantic movie called, "Serendipity (2000)"

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This movie will help get you into the frame of mind of wanting to find this woman.

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The Dream world act's has a two way street. You can view "possibilities" of what might happen in the future. But you can also have an effect on the past too.

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This deals with Time Symmetry (Picture an Hour Glass Sideways - where the sand can flow sideways to the right and then back to the left).

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When you dream you are accessing your higher self which existence outside of time itself. By doing this you can also communicate with other Higher Density beings...Such as this Woman that you like. This is in affect a form of Wireless Internet Connection...Telepathy...We are ALL starting to get this abilities (Not all of us as fast as others and not all of us as well as others). There are other abilities that we will gain too but that's not important right now.

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The dreaming is one step in the right direction, but you need to retrace your steps....Go back to the "Seen of the Crime". Sit back in the chair you sat in and focus on her...this is a form of remote viewing...your looking for the target, location, and date.

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You need to start meditating and learning to focus your chi energy...one way to do this is to work/burn off Karma...There is a reason this woman didn't want you at first...you still have unresolved issues.

Your issues: The DRUGS!!! whether you like it or not...the drugs and your actions have caused a negative timeline for you. This is okay though...the time away as help you (hopefully) grow...this journey too will help you grow and in turn strength the possible relationship/outcome.

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LESSON: Using positive vibrations/Unconditional Love and service to OTHER's not yourself...will increase the flow of Chi/Aura of your body/mind/spirit complex...think of this as a sense of divinity/Christ conscience that we all have the ability to achieve.

Doing this will increase the likely hood of "Synchronicity"...little things will start to happen and you will be faced with choices...example: Taking a walk and seeing a piece of trash on the ground (Do you leave it or pick it up???) If you pick it up and throw it in a waste can and then keep walking...you may find a couple of pennies on the ground...this is FATE/DESTINY talking to you (NOTE: this happened to me)...PROBLEM: you can't will it to happen it needs to flow like water.

Doing this enough - seeing the synchronicity in life...you will start to see glitches in the matrix...people might start to say something weird that you where just thinking...don't get freaked out...just breath.

This is the Vacuum State/Zero Point Energy/The Source Field/God/Allah/Creator/etc. Talking to you and helping you out.

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ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS THOUGH: You always need to check your INTENT constantly...do intend to do good or intend to do harm...this is a form of scales of justice...weighing your worthiness for the desired result.

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There is more to this, but it's 1:20AM and I have to go to work in the morning...I need some sleep.

The point was to have said that I had this impossibly beautiful girl that was head over heels for me and yet I ruined it. When she left I was left with my second girl, A, who I started selling drugs (LSD,DMT,Mushrooms,MDMA) alongside. I never had a relationship with the first girl though I remember just how into me she was. It's painful now to see because it was handed to me. I was shown what to do. Instead I did nothing.

I might watch that movie though it doesn't quite belong to my mindset or situation per se.

I won't be able to go back. It was a classroom in which I was never in again for a college I graduated from. I've moved houses since then as well. As I am now I have went to rehab and am 6 months clean. Surprisingly, exactly why the girl that I never got with had been in our town, for rehab.

I have now found myself yet again addicted to masturbation and a lesser extent porn. It is my final barb wire battle it seems. Alcohol and all drugs are completely removed and I have fought the attempts to begin selling again.

I battle demons voices at night constantly. This is interesting as it doesn't line up with psychosis and schizophrenia or the like. They suddenly appear to which I have to cast out and pray about and not fear and they will leave for a short while. After a little I will sense the fear again rising and the chanting and taunting is back again but it goes away on command through the Father.

I know, I must push off this karmic weight I have. As of recent I have been moving forward constantly. I am alone through this whole ordeal after being arrested and sent to rehab but it feels more wholesome than being surrounded by fake people.

Even through selling drugs my intent was never the money but the spreading of awakening that I brought about to the people. After I left, as I was a regulator and big dog, they found themselves falling hard as well. My ex losing her home with her family. Mutual friends losing themselves to tripping constantly. I was the lighted path and without it they fell to darkness.

I will begin today to have this life be a vessel for God yet again. Meditation, removing addictions, reading the Bible, praying, always choosing good, and being the water in all situations.

Thank you for your thought out reply. Hopefully you will send me more.