Question (serious inquiry)

Have you tried taking a couple of night classes? Sounds like your tank is empty and you've been squeezed like an orange.

night classes? like school or whatever? noo i have not I need to get a wheel running meaning I need to get a job so my bills get off my subconscious and then I am able to think about taking some classes good idea tho. thanks

(stalker shill)

dont know what that means

I had no idea what I wanted to do until I was in my mid-30s. I did work, and I was good at what I chose to do, even if they were dead end jobs (and making money to be with my son was partly how I found out what I wanted to do, but it's another story).

There are a number of shitty, fake certificate programs on the net that will at least introduce you to a number of topics, many you can find on Groupon on some such for very little money. One thing it does do is help you decide if you even like something and if it's something you want to look into further.

At a time when I was at a similar point to you, I was taking buses because I had no car. I rode them 3 hours a day, just to pick my kid up from school. I people watched, and I noticed that there WAS things I could do to make it a little better for them because I didn't have much in my life. Religion was a waste, and the only thing that kept me from killing myself was my son. I wound up spending about a year and a half going out on the streets in different areas two days a week with a hand crank sewing bags, coats, and whatever else the homeless needed fixed for free. Wasn't a huge difference in anyone's life, to be honest. But I talked to them while I did it, and a few months into it I discovered it was cheaper then therapy, and I felt like I had something to do and a point to what was then a pretty crappy life.

Sometimes a small difference makes a huge impact on yourself.

I want to comment but you're not ready yet. You are closer than most though. Goodluck.