POOL PARTY! --Presented by The Esoteric Fr13nds for Gaia (EFG).

I will admit I Have attempted suicide at a very young age, around 13 or 14.
All because I stupidly took my dads car out for a drive while he went out and I crashed it. The fact I was only young combined with the guilt of seeing my dad so upset, being caught up in the moment drove me to attempt suicide. Luckily being so young I only took a packet of headache tablets, if there were any stronger tablets I would be dead. I got the idea to do that, the tablet thing from a movie. So in effect I could be dead today because of something I saw in a movie.

I feel like an absolute idiot knowing i couldve ended everything over a stupid dent in a car door that cost $500 to repair. :s

Ok. First off lets establish some things like that regardless of if it's possession or mental illness the first steps are the same.

Also you want help. You reached out to me so you do want help.

Let's remember those two things for now.


Hearing voices is bad business friend no doubt about it. It takes help to deal with a situation like that. No one should talk back to voices alone and what those voices say should be shared. Those voices only work because they're a secret voice. They don't like when you tell ppl what they say because it weakens them when you tell their secret.


What did the hospital tell you?

I need to add that everything on your list of the cursed fits my story. I was the one who asked you how to tell if one has been cursed, I been waiting on the thread of what to do.

They treated me with drugs and diagnosed me with acute sychosis

You have my full attention

With no follow up psychiatrist? What was the psychosis?

I wouldn't do Teenagehood again for DIAMONDS.
Your body is growing and your brain isn't.....unless you get enough sleep. Teens need at least 12 hours, the problem is they don't GO to sleep until 10, 11, 12...so they CAN'T RAISE UNTIL that time the next day.

Teens need to go be able to go to school later than stupid o clock in the morning.

One minute you are an Adult and the other minute you are a Child according to EVERYONE that Lords it over you.

I used to escape.....into the woods, not doing anything, just being.....

there is too much pressure on teens especially now.

Dart Boards are the rage here. Sometimes pictures get placed on them! lol

So, temporary problem, that dent. YES???

What country are you in AC? I know many resources that can help.

Both psychiatricly and spiritually

Last Edited by Merit on 03/16/2017 05:54 PM

There was a follow up but I did not go. I don't understand the next question, my paperwork said acute psychosis in the diagnosis.

I'm in Texas

Ok that makes sense. The follow up was to begin trying to diagnose the exact condition so they could treat it better. They just generalized it as an acute psychosis until could be further narrowed down.

Why didn't you go girl?? You knew you needed help right?

You don't have to answer that if you don't want.

Getting help now in the present is what I really want to focus on.

We just need to decide what kind of help you need.


If you can give me your closest big city I can get you information to churches or psychiatrist care thst is free and truthfully you may be better off with the church as they often have specialized resources of their own that end up giving you better accommodation.

Still waiting on that summons to internet court by the way.

I got my lawyer e-Johnny Cochran all ready for you

Because I am afraid . .. Plano, Richardson, or Dallas

Nice. Well, what direction do you want to go with this?

I mean if you're possessed I can't give you a spell to end it without help same as I can't prescribe you a one time pill to cure a psychosis.

It's going to take some help both from you and others.

Are you ready?

Edit to add about being scared: That makes sense. It sounds scary to me. Perfectly natural.

What exactly are you afraid of? Do you know?

Last Edited by Merit on 03/16/2017 06:15 PM

Merit ... find out if they is being gangstalked. I heard Voice to skull technology and Synthetic Telelpathy is being used on him.

This is not a natural phenomenon.

AC do me a favor...

Play this with head phones but drink a glass of water first and then tell me about 5 mins after how you feel. and Yes it is a test of sorts to see if I am hearing correctly.




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also if that helps ... play this in the background or with headphones on it will further the help.

As I said this is just a test to see if I heard correctly.




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Haven't even tried yet hon. I'm still doing flat foot detective work here.

The music is relaxing though AC so it certainly won't hurt.

Last Edited by Merit on 03/16/2017 06:18 PM

AC I'm driving. I'll check back for you. I really can help and get you help. Just ask.

Merit, you truly are a dear and kind soul.

I get static on the video, no music

Ok, Merits driving. Would you allow me to talk with you based on this....idea/poem.

STANDING IN ONE’S POWER.
I am a sovereign being
I seek always to stand in my power,
and be who I really am
honest to the guidance of my heart above all things.

I honour my fellow humans, every individual as being on a journey of self-discovery and soul development -
however they show up in this physical world.
For the circumstances they are now in are those which
they have elected
in order to make progress along their path.

I stand in no man’s shadow neither am I owned or directed by woman.

While I acknowledge that the great wisdoms of the ages
are - somewhere - present in all churches and major religions,
they tend to manipulate,
their key messages obscured by dogma.
Therefore, I no longer allow myself to be controlled
by these structures of man.

While I understand the need for good Government
I see that humanity has largely forgotten
that to govern is to serve.
I will therefore support government-in-service,
but will not collude with that which is self-serving and politically competitive.

I am a citizen of this planet Earth, and I see the boundaries of state and country as merely an outer sign of our separation.

I understand that the universe in which we live is teeming with intelligent life in many forms :
than we can communicate with that life,
and that much of it is like us.
We are merely separated by frequency.

In these end times, others around me whom I respect and love
will often be disrupted by the demands of their own path.
The things they then do and say may sometimes seem bizarre.

When the emotion that arises is directed at me
I think none the less of them
but I may choose
not to be in their company while things settle down
and balance is restored.

Instead of anger at what may seem unjust, I choose to observe
that progress is being made.

My own path is one of constant learning.
To those who still need to judge the material world, my works may seem to be failure :
yet I know that in seeking to move our world forward, I, and others who have chosen to be with me
for a while
have learned much, and have grown constantly.

What more is there?
For it is how we tackle the task that is important, and not the result
as it may be seen in the physical.

I am a sovereign being.
As I stand in my power, I know that the fact of so doing can offend many
who perhaps have all the required skills and knowledge,
but do not yet have full confidence
to stand in theirs.

In the meantime, power with insecurity remains a most dangerous combination on the planet.

I therefore work to encourage others
in being who they really are
so that, from a new stability of beingness we may build a new reality where comfort in relationship is afforded to all
because insecurity has fallen away,
and every being
has the confidence and support
to be sovereign unto themselves.

For this is the true meaning of the ascension :
a time when every human will come to be the true expression
of the blueprint that they are.

And, as I offer support in finding that blueprint,
I, too, learn from those around me, for I am on the very same journey.

Our human destiny
is to stand between Heaven and Earth,
the transponders of God-energy into the physical,
bringing All-That-Is,
that great being, the centre, the highest of all frequencies,
into this physical world
at the opposite end of the frequency spectrum.

As I stand in my sovereignty,
I acknowledge All-That-Is as that which makes us all one ;
that facilitates our co-creating ;
and for whom we are the experiential probes
to discover all that is possible
in this physical plane of existence.

Our work is almost over : the journey nearly at an end.

For the end times are upon us.
We see our reality breaking up, sometimes giving us a challenging ride
as we learn to detach ourselves
from that which we once thought was so important.

We are still learning to release all that constitutes the old world
in order to
bring in the new.

Dependence
is a characteristic of the old world, the dying paradigm.
So is fierce independence;
retreat into isolation;
focus on mind or magic;
reliance upon other worlds -
giving away our power to any other being,
be it temporal
or etheric.

For,
now is a time for
inter-dependence between ascending humans,
choosing
to work together while individually standing in their power.

This
is the key
to planetary and human transformation.

As I stand in my power, I choose to work with others
willing
to do the same.

Together, we can act powerfully to bring in the New Reality.

There are so many other doors that can be opened. I hope you reconsider.

I have to recharge, my battery got sucked. Thank you to all helping in case I don't get back tonight to say it. Thank you All.

Hang in there AC and that white noise you hear is a frequency also embedded for purposes of knocking out the other signals around you to give you relief.

You should feel the immediate energy around you if heavy lift and feel much lighter like you can breath better.

Grand. New Doors tomorrow. K?

You're welcome. When you come back let me get you connected to some real life ppl though ok?

Later

Yeah, but absolutely no on, I mean no one, can fling a whisky glass with your level of expertise. I look forward to the challenging workout.

^^Truth^^

merit help me finally get rid of an attachment I had been battling since age 7. Nasty critter that liked to attempt to plant nasty telepathic thoughts. I never succumbed, as I am strong, but it is a great relief to not have that nasty following me around blathering his BS.

Merit can help you.

LOL shhhh he's supposed to be the big bad around here! I mean, a whole other forum has numerous threads dedicated to hating on us right now which is amazingly funny. They seem so angry... I guess they are easily triggered! I've never seen such impotent rage before from a group of adult individuals. Extraordinary.

Last Edited by MilaMoon on 03/16/2017 07:34 PM

He actually is. :-)

Now damnit I just get done wrecking another forum thats still melting down over it and you ppl are in here trying to make me out to be some kind of saint.
I'm going to have to stab someone around here and get my rep up.



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What are we supposed to hear, FF. I hear a mix of white noise, voices, drumming, echoes some synthesizer? I listened with headphones.

The feeling after a few minutes? Curious. After about 5 mins - some pain/tightness in the 3rd eye area, between shoulders behind the heart chakra and pin intermittently behind the right eye/right eyebrow.