My mom is old-school. 50's mentality she always cooked fresh for the family and raised us.
My dad was the well educated and hard working provider.
They both raised my older 2 brothers and sister.
When I was 10, my dad wanted to speak to a shrink. He was gliding off.
In my youth I have seen some dark things how my dad behaved. He was seeing things that did not even exist.
He tried to commit suicide. He was almost gone. Big cooking knife in his stomache. But the doctors saved him. He did that in his worst state. That was around the age of 18
I never did father son things. My mom raised me. I always saw my father as a patiënt in asylums.
To be honest I never really was busy with school. I was always worried, what if they call me or what is the situation when I come home.
So a few years at the age of 22 I found myself.
Did some small studies and found a job in logistics. But I lack passion.
Have good friends and found a Lovely woman now.
But still I never learned a trade that I love. I'm just a simple packer at a logistics company. I'm ok with it tho. But still I miss passion.
The young woman I'm dating she is in her last university year and almost a animal vet. Operating horses and so.
She has that passion from her mother and fucking respect that and kinda jealous in a good way.
I hope I find it aswell.
To be honest I Wish for WW3.
Quoting: Anonymous Coward 49880444 Dude, sad about ur Dad, especially as a kid. To be honest, not all people are happy. I've got something effed up in my head that keeps me from being able to hold a job properly.
I had the traditional family upbringing also: home cooking, meals together, dad working, mom keeping (emaculate) house, little league, PTA. Perfect little family to those on the outside. But then I got the shit beat outta me every day by a violent woman who was bitter, insecure, angry, and looking for someone to take it out on; whether I did something to deserve it or not.
I honestly think that all of those beatings probably caused whatever is wrong in my head. My life kinda sucks, but I remind myself all the time how there's millions of folks who wish they had some of what even little ole humble I have. I have learned to find peace instead of resentment.
Don't know if you'll ever see this, but all I'm trying to say is most peeps don't have it as well as you think from looking at them. Most people have insecurities (some worse than others) and problems. From where I sit, it sounds like you are in a good situation now. You have a girl who will soon have a good really good job. Perhaps she could let you go back to school once she is there? THAT could be a real blessing.
Keep your head up, AC, and remember--there is no shame in any type of honorable work. Dreaming is what keeps us going, but don't let it turn into covetry. That just rots your brain. :)
