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Under Every Green Tree

 
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I have really fallen in love with this community.

Mostly because of the freedom that I have found in being able to ask questions and seek answers that may or may not conform to a script I was trained to not just, not read, but to follow as it was interpreted back to me by someone else.

Almost a year ago. I met my maker. When I did, he had a long talk with me about what i have held him accountable for. The bitterness I had in my heart and the overall lack of consideration I had for any plan he may have had for me.

My world changed. The signs in my world changed. It became a much different place and it was alive with the knowing He's always been there and he could be ANYTHING without limitations.

He told me.. He was making me into a human. And being a human was more than just about walking upright. It was about righteousness and accepting truth. Even when the truth wasn't what we wanted to hear. He told me I had to accept that... I had to be crushed in all of my elements in order to grow as a person and to identify the elements in others. I would know hurt. I would know pain.. I would know failure and disappointment because without it, I couldn't know him and I couldn't know happiness and success even when it sat in my face. I would know fear because in knowing fear I could identify the signs of danger.

these past 9 years have been the most exciting and humbling years of my life. Once upon I was told i wouldn't be a mother. Despite that voice I had in my soul that I identified as my creator telling me.. peace be with you in my plan. 9 years ago I met my husband. and I delivered our first son on my 30th birthday. He was EVERYTHING that I heard from that promise that I didn't believe. Because I had no faith. I'm now the mother of 4 young children. And my family has become something worth fighting for. Nothing more precious and green to me. It has given me cause and great purpose.

My marriage has gone so fast. we had just become engaged when we learned of our first child and 4 children later. My husband went to college, we struggled but made it. And we finally opened our own business last year. We have both struggled with adapting to our new roles. And with everything that has spiritually happened in our lives. With all of the questions being thrown our way about discerning and understanding, we both found our way here. It's been an awesome experience bouncing ideas back and forth with the anonymity of not being judged.

A few months ago I got the Ick. Something came upon me that something wasn't right and after that talk I had with my maker I knew it was to tell me it was time to check my closets so to speak. I started seeing things in the shadows. Things out of place. I went to work hard core. Ignoring Reality.

I got a lot of answers back and some of the truth hurt. And a few nights ago.. I bought a bottle after my husband and I had it out when he was home. I felt betrayed and cheated and I took out my horns and I'm sorry for the ass of myself that I made. I went for the jugular on my porch bathing myself in the moonlight and wine and unleashed like a beast.

I finally had enough and went into my home and went to summon the sunset by shutting down all the lights.

And I found a stranger in my home. Sitting at our family table.. smoking a cigarette.. and browsing his Facebook account. while my children were asleep and I was unleashing my heart because my THIRD EYE told me something was wrong.

He told me he had heard my husband and I fighting a few nights before. He's been watching me for a while. Said he knew I was breaking down and figured he could give me what I needed when I was done having it out.

I kicked him out and used my laptop to file charges. He had also stolen over 600.00 worth of property in the kitchen.. Chargers a note and some other things.

All day yesterday all i could do is just sit there paralyzed with what had just happened. Running things through my head. The times I saw a figure.. a shadow. my kids swearing they couldn't sleep in their room because their was someone on the porch outside their window. EVERYTHING i dismissed, blinded by my jealousy. Ready to cut down the trespassers I'd found.

I found myself under attack. I knew something wasn't right. I knew something was wrong. He was KNOCKING on my door to wake me up and I thought I had all my eyes wide open and had with my armor found the source and I was headed for the jugular.

Anyways. Under every green tree. I'm sorry, I went nuclear. My Creator is working on me and I am trying. I'm sorry to anyone I stung. And I'm sorry to my husband.. For being Shiva again.
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I see blue people.

There are two creatures that defy the laws of physics and can take flight.

The Bumble Bee. and Man...
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I love Virgos.
Chin up honey bee.
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Lol there's gonna be a lot of accidents in the journey.
Your spiritual legs get stronger from exercising them.

When he's knocking and you know it's him. You answer.

This is a very powerful positive response to blowing up the kitchen.

Your still breathing. That's your grade.
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It's In The Air It Will Pass For The Best
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It's In The Air It Will Pass For The Best
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Hey King
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The Bumble Bee. and Man...
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Hey King
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Hey Whatz Good
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not much.. just gathering my honey.. getting ready to sound a trumpet and make the color orange look purple to see how many like it. than just change it back because.. well purple oranges are kinda weird lol but it would be WICKED TIGHT with summer coming for those really white girls that use tan in a can or those spray booths...GUMMY FISHES blame it on Thailand hahaha. SILICONE HORDERS


What about you? You planning anything fun this weekend?

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The Bumble Bee. and Man...
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I have really fallen in love with this community.

Mostly because of the freedom that I have found in being able to ask questions and seek answers that may or may not conform to a script I was trained to not just, not read, but to follow as it was interpreted back to me by someone else.

Almost a year ago. I met my maker. When I did, he had a long talk with me about what i have held him accountable for. The bitterness I had in my heart and the overall lack of consideration I had for any plan he may have had for me.

My world changed. The signs in my world changed. It became a much different place and it was alive with the knowing He's always been there and he could be ANYTHING without limitations.

He told me.. He was making me into a human. And being a human was more than just about walking upright. It was about righteousness and accepting truth. Even when the truth wasn't what we wanted to hear. He told me I had to accept that... I had to be crushed in all of my elements in order to grow as a person and to identify the elements in others. I would know hurt. I would know pain.. I would know failure and disappointment because without it, I couldn't know him and I couldn't know happiness and success even when it sat in my face. I would know fear because in knowing fear I could identify the signs of danger.

these past 9 years have been the most exciting and humbling years of my life. Once upon I was told i wouldn't be a mother. Despite that voice I had in my soul that I identified as my creator telling me.. peace be with you in my plan. 9 years ago I met my husband. and I delivered our first son on my 30th birthday. He was EVERYTHING that I heard from that promise that I didn't believe. Because I had no faith. I'm now the mother of 4 young children. And my family has become something worth fighting for. Nothing more precious and green to me. It has given me cause and great purpose.

My marriage has gone so fast. we had just become engaged when we learned of our first child and 4 children later. My husband went to college, we struggled but made it. And we finally opened our own business last year. We have both struggled with adapting to our new roles. And with everything that has spiritually happened in our lives. With all of the questions being thrown our way about discerning and understanding, we both found our way here. It's been an awesome experience bouncing ideas back and forth with the anonymity of not being judged.

A few months ago I got the Ick. Something came upon me that something wasn't right and after that talk I had with my maker I knew it was to tell me it was time to check my closets so to speak. I started seeing things in the shadows. Things out of place. I went to work hard core. Ignoring Reality.

I got a lot of answers back and some of the truth hurt. And a few nights ago.. I bought a bottle after my husband and I had it out when he was home. I felt betrayed and cheated and I took out my horns and I'm sorry for the ass of myself that I made. I went for the jugular on my porch bathing myself in the moonlight and wine and unleashed like a beast.

I finally had enough and went into my home and went to summon the sunset by shutting down all the lights.

And I found a stranger in my home. Sitting at our family table.. smoking a cigarette.. and browsing his Facebook account. while my children were asleep and I was unleashing my heart because my THIRD EYE told me something was wrong.

He told me he had heard my husband and I fighting a few nights before. He's been watching me for a while. Said he knew I was breaking down and figured he could give me what I needed when I was done having it out.

I kicked him out and used my laptop to file charges. He had also stolen over 600.00 worth of property in the kitchen.. Chargers a note and some other things.

All day yesterday all i could do is just sit there paralyzed with what had just happened. Running things through my head. The times I saw a figure.. a shadow. my kids swearing they couldn't sleep in their room because their was someone on the porch outside their window. EVERYTHING i dismissed, blinded by my jealousy. Ready to cut down the trespassers I'd found.

I found myself under attack. I knew something wasn't right. I knew something was wrong. He was KNOCKING on my door to wake me up and I thought I had all my eyes wide open and had with my armor found the source and I was headed for the jugular.

Anyways. Under every green tree. I'm sorry, I went nuclear. My Creator is working on me and I am trying. I'm sorry to anyone I stung. And I'm sorry to my husband.. For being Shiva again.
 Quoting: HONEYBEE350z


You were forgiven right away. I still consider you a sister. Forgive me if I did anything you perceived as wrong?
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not much.. just gathering my honey.. getting ready to sound a trumpet and make the color orange look purple to see how many like it. than just change it back because.. well purple oranges are kinda weird lol but it would be WICKED TIGHT with summer coming for those really white girls that use tan in a can or those spray booths...GUMMY FISHES blame it on Thailand hahaha. SILICONE HORDERS


What about you? You planning anything fun this weekend?
 Quoting: HONEYBEE350z


Nope same ol' script just an different day have nothing planned maybe you can make me dinner or something
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not much.. just gathering my honey.. getting ready to sound a trumpet and make the color orange look purple to see how many like it. than just change it back because.. well purple oranges are kinda weird lol but it would be WICKED TIGHT with summer coming for those really white girls that use tan in a can or those spray booths...GUMMY FISHES blame it on Thailand hahaha. SILICONE HORDERS


What about you? You planning anything fun this weekend?
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Nope same ol' script just an different day have nothing planned maybe you can make me dinner or something
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lol right



with Strawberry Topping

I was getting robbed while I was serving that up. Still can't believe it happened. What really freaked me out was how calm he was when I came in the kitchen. I was pretty tipsed. He came earlier and had asked to use my phone and knew I had had a few drinks.
All i could think is I'm about to get my lawn mowed and our babies are going to hear me crying. All i could do was go hard let him see the irish in me. Thank God I'm part Thai and that means I know karate.
fuckyeah5
He didn't want to find out. Guess I was supposed to be less resistant in my status. He tried to kiss me grabbed his "issue". He smelled like a dumpster in India after a Durian Cooking challenge. Or a PILOT bathroom in Reno after 4 days of Chain Up In Effect on Donners Pass. Looking like a nightmare I had once that liked knives.
Slept in my kitchen on the floor in complete horror that our children were alone in the house with him and I didn't even know it. And that he might come back.

How could i have missed that? I know what time it is. I know where I am.

I can't even sleep now. Think i've slept like 3 hours in the last 48.

Last Edited by HONEYBEE350z on 04/21/2017 01:48 AM
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I see blue people.

There are two creatures that defy the laws of physics and can take flight.

The Bumble Bee. and Man...
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I have really fallen in love with this community.

Mostly because of the freedom that I have found in being able to ask questions and seek answers that may or may not conform to a script I was trained to not just, not read, but to follow as it was interpreted back to me by someone else.

Almost a year ago. I met my maker. When I did, he had a long talk with me about what i have held him accountable for. The bitterness I had in my heart and the overall lack of consideration I had for any plan he may have had for me.

My world changed. The signs in my world changed. It became a much different place and it was alive with the knowing He's always been there and he could be ANYTHING without limitations.

He told me.. He was making me into a human. And being a human was more than just about walking upright. It was about righteousness and accepting truth. Even when the truth wasn't what we wanted to hear. He told me I had to accept that... I had to be crushed in all of my elements in order to grow as a person and to identify the elements in others. I would know hurt. I would know pain.. I would know failure and disappointment because without it, I couldn't know him and I couldn't know happiness and success even when it sat in my face. I would know fear because in knowing fear I could identify the signs of danger.

these past 9 years have been the most exciting and humbling years of my life. Once upon I was told i wouldn't be a mother. Despite that voice I had in my soul that I identified as my creator telling me.. peace be with you in my plan. 9 years ago I met my husband. and I delivered our first son on my 30th birthday. He was EVERYTHING that I heard from that promise that I didn't believe. Because I had no faith. I'm now the mother of 4 young children. And my family has become something worth fighting for. Nothing more precious and green to me. It has given me cause and great purpose.

My marriage has gone so fast. we had just become engaged when we learned of our first child and 4 children later. My husband went to college, we struggled but made it. And we finally opened our own business last year. We have both struggled with adapting to our new roles. And with everything that has spiritually happened in our lives. With all of the questions being thrown our way about discerning and understanding, we both found our way here. It's been an awesome experience bouncing ideas back and forth with the anonymity of not being judged.

A few months ago I got the Ick. Something came upon me that something wasn't right and after that talk I had with my maker I knew it was to tell me it was time to check my closets so to speak. I started seeing things in the shadows. Things out of place. I went to work hard core. Ignoring Reality.

I got a lot of answers back and some of the truth hurt. And a few nights ago.. I bought a bottle after my husband and I had it out when he was home. I felt betrayed and cheated and I took out my horns and I'm sorry for the ass of myself that I made. I went for the jugular on my porch bathing myself in the moonlight and wine and unleashed like a beast.

I finally had enough and went into my home and went to summon the sunset by shutting down all the lights.

And I found a stranger in my home. Sitting at our family table.. smoking a cigarette.. and browsing his Facebook account. while my children were asleep and I was unleashing my heart because my THIRD EYE told me something was wrong.

He told me he had heard my husband and I fighting a few nights before. He's been watching me for a while. Said he knew I was breaking down and figured he could give me what I needed when I was done having it out.

I kicked him out and used my laptop to file charges. He had also stolen over 600.00 worth of property in the kitchen.. Chargers a note and some other things.

All day yesterday all i could do is just sit there paralyzed with what had just happened. Running things through my head. The times I saw a figure.. a shadow. my kids swearing they couldn't sleep in their room because their was someone on the porch outside their window. EVERYTHING i dismissed, blinded by my jealousy. Ready to cut down the trespassers I'd found.

I found myself under attack. I knew something wasn't right. I knew something was wrong. He was KNOCKING on my door to wake me up and I thought I had all my eyes wide open and had with my armor found the source and I was headed for the jugular.

Anyways. Under every green tree. I'm sorry, I went nuclear. My Creator is working on me and I am trying. I'm sorry to anyone I stung. And I'm sorry to my husband.. For being Shiva again.
 Quoting: HONEYBEE350z


You were forgiven right away. I still consider you a sister. Forgive me if I did anything you perceived as wrong?
 Quoting: Crystal Fire


I really love your writing. You have a unique style that reminds me of what I love about Louisa May Alcott. An identifiable tone. Not in context of course. She's Spring and you're Solar. (not the most accurate comparison but i'm sure you understand)

I have a hard time identifying when your role playing and when your not. Where the Imagination ends if you will.

I wish we could start over. let me introduce myself. But coming into meeting you, you had an advantage. My Faster Self. As such I had very little information from your communications to discern if what you were saying was simply coincidental or if you had personal understanding of components and were exploiting them before me.

I felt attacked that you were communicating with that part of me. And betrayed that part of me may have given you information that i personally guard because they are a wayward wind in their nature. I can't change that that was our introduction. I wish it wasn't. But it was because you both had a choice to know that there are formalities and boundaries in introductions, and the vagueness of your discussions were suspicious to the remarks you were making which... may have been in coincidence. I had to discern a few things and it was entirely disappointing to know i had to go lure Leviathan on a hook to get it to tell me the truth and it spit you out before me. Rendering any affinity I had as dis-genuine but manufactured from an a mutual source because once tested leviathan showed you holding a phone in your hand talking to my faster self.

anyways. I love you. I think your a beautiful light. I don't agree necessarily with some of the things you babble on about. I would LOVE to see that is mutual for how you may feel. Because I assure you, even if i dont agree with you I am deepening my understanding on components I may not have considered. While it may not be true right now. It doesn't mean it wont fit that peg at a different stage in my journey. And that lesson will always have your name on it when I reach it. That is how we learn from each other.

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I see blue people.

There are two creatures that defy the laws of physics and can take flight.

The Bumble Bee. and Man...
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I have really fallen in love with this community.

Mostly because of the freedom that I have found in being able to ask questions and seek answers that may or may not conform to a script I was trained to not just, not read, but to follow as it was interpreted back to me by someone else.

Almost a year ago. I met my maker. When I did, he had a long talk with me about what i have held him accountable for. The bitterness I had in my heart and the overall lack of consideration I had for any plan he may have had for me.

My world changed. The signs in my world changed. It became a much different place and it was alive with the knowing He's always been there and he could be ANYTHING without limitations.

He told me.. He was making me into a human. And being a human was more than just about walking upright. It was about righteousness and accepting truth. Even when the truth wasn't what we wanted to hear. He told me I had to accept that... I had to be crushed in all of my elements in order to grow as a person and to identify the elements in others. I would know hurt. I would know pain.. I would know failure and disappointment because without it, I couldn't know him and I couldn't know happiness and success even when it sat in my face. I would know fear because in knowing fear I could identify the signs of danger.

these past 9 years have been the most exciting and humbling years of my life. Once upon I was told i wouldn't be a mother. Despite that voice I had in my soul that I identified as my creator telling me.. peace be with you in my plan. 9 years ago I met my husband. and I delivered our first son on my 30th birthday. He was EVERYTHING that I heard from that promise that I didn't believe. Because I had no faith. I'm now the mother of 4 young children. And my family has become something worth fighting for. Nothing more precious and green to me. It has given me cause and great purpose.

My marriage has gone so fast. we had just become engaged when we learned of our first child and 4 children later. My husband went to college, we struggled but made it. And we finally opened our own business last year. We have both struggled with adapting to our new roles. And with everything that has spiritually happened in our lives. With all of the questions being thrown our way about discerning and understanding, we both found our way here. It's been an awesome experience bouncing ideas back and forth with the anonymity of not being judged.

A few months ago I got the Ick. Something came upon me that something wasn't right and after that talk I had with my maker I knew it was to tell me it was time to check my closets so to speak. I started seeing things in the shadows. Things out of place. I went to work hard core. Ignoring Reality.

I got a lot of answers back and some of the truth hurt. And a few nights ago.. I bought a bottle after my husband and I had it out when he was home. I felt betrayed and cheated and I took out my horns and I'm sorry for the ass of myself that I made. I went for the jugular on my porch bathing myself in the moonlight and wine and unleashed like a beast.

I finally had enough and went into my home and went to summon the sunset by shutting down all the lights.

And I found a stranger in my home. Sitting at our family table.. smoking a cigarette.. and browsing his Facebook account. while my children were asleep and I was unleashing my heart because my THIRD EYE told me something was wrong.

He told me he had heard my husband and I fighting a few nights before. He's been watching me for a while. Said he knew I was breaking down and figured he could give me what I needed when I was done having it out.

I kicked him out and used my laptop to file charges. He had also stolen over 600.00 worth of property in the kitchen.. Chargers a note and some other things.

All day yesterday all i could do is just sit there paralyzed with what had just happened. Running things through my head. The times I saw a figure.. a shadow. my kids swearing they couldn't sleep in their room because their was someone on the porch outside their window. EVERYTHING i dismissed, blinded by my jealousy. Ready to cut down the trespassers I'd found.

I found myself under attack. I knew something wasn't right. I knew something was wrong. He was KNOCKING on my door to wake me up and I thought I had all my eyes wide open and had with my armor found the source and I was headed for the jugular.

Anyways. Under every green tree. I'm sorry, I went nuclear. My Creator is working on me and I am trying. I'm sorry to anyone I stung. And I'm sorry to my husband.. For being Shiva again.
 Quoting: HONEYBEE350z


You were forgiven right away. I still consider you a sister. Forgive me if I did anything you perceived as wrong?
 Quoting: Crystal Fire


I really love your writing. You have a unique style that reminds me of what I love about Louisa May Alcott. An identifiable tone. Not in context of course. She's Spring and you're Solar. (not the most accurate comparison but i'm sure you understand)

I have a hard time identifying when your role playing and when your not. Where the Imagination ends if you will.

I wish we could start over. let me introduce myself. But coming into meeting you, you had an advantage. My Faster Self. As such I had very little information from your communications to discern if what you were saying was simply coincidental or if you had personal understanding of components and were exploiting them before me.

I felt attacked that you were communicating with that part of me. And betrayed that part of me may have given you information that i personally guard because they are a wayward wind in their nature. I can't change that that was our introduction. I wish it wasn't. But it was because you both had a choice to know that there are formalities and boundaries in introductions, and the vagueness of your discussions were suspicious to the remarks you were making which... may have been in coincidence. I had to discern a few things and it was entirely disappointing to know i had to go lure Leviathan on a hook to get it to tell me the truth and it spit you out before me. Rendering any affinity I had as dis-genuine but manufactured from an a mutual source because once tested leviathan showed you holding a phone in your hand talking to my faster self.

anyways. I love you. I think your a beautiful light. I don't agree necessarily with some of the things you babble on about. I would LOVE to see that is mutual for how you may feel. Because I assure you, even if i dont agree with you I am deepening my understanding on components I may not have considered. While it may not be true right now. It doesn't mean it wont fit that peg at a different stage in my journey. And that lesson will always have your name on it when I reach it. That is how we learn from each other.
 Quoting: HONEYBEE350z


Beautiful writing honey bee. I speak in parables a lot or sometimes I just watch. I do have a purpose on my plane. I am.not a role player but I do have humor and endless imagination. I believe you do as well. I'm sure as time goes forth we will understand one another more. We are from the same..you are my sister.
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not much.. just gathering my honey.. getting ready to sound a trumpet and make the color orange look purple to see how many like it. than just change it back because.. well purple oranges are kinda weird lol but it would be WICKED TIGHT with summer coming for those really white girls that use tan in a can or those spray booths...GUMMY FISHES blame it on Thailand hahaha. SILICONE HORDERS


What about you? You planning anything fun this weekend?
 Quoting: HONEYBEE350z


Nope same ol' script just an different day have nothing planned maybe you can make me dinner or something
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lol right



with Strawberry Topping

I was getting robbed while I was serving that up. Still can't believe it happened. What really freaked me out was how calm he was when I came in the kitchen. I was pretty tipsed. He came earlier and had asked to use my phone and knew I had had a few drinks.
All i could think is I'm about to get my lawn mowed and our babies are going to hear me crying. All i could do was go hard let him see the irish in me. Thank God I'm part Thai and that means I know karate.
fuckyeah5
He didn't want to find out. Guess I was supposed to be less resistant in my status. He tried to kiss me grabbed his "issue". He smelled like a dumpster in India after a Durian Cooking challenge. Or a PILOT bathroom in Reno after 4 days of Chain Up In Effect on Donners Pass. Looking like a nightmare I had once that liked knives.
Slept in my kitchen on the floor in complete horror that our children were alone in the house with him and I didn't even know it. And that he might come back.

How could i have missed that? I know what time it is. I know where I am.

I can't even sleep now. Think i've slept like 3 hours in the last 48.
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Damn, sorry to hear that hope everything works out for the best, you can always vent on glp I listen
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Wow... um...Woah... You have a lot of energy and it's special. You made a click click click in my mind and it wasn't until I was done I asked myself if what I was reading was real or a riddle. I don't even know if it was English. Where were you made? Lol! I'm going to read this again later. Its like my mind went on a trip. Was this all a parable lol? I feel like I can't take it at face value.

I said a special prayer with you in mind for the parts that tore me.

Sending love and blessings your way warrior.

Lol.

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I have really fallen in love with this community.

Mostly because of the freedom that I have found in being able to ask questions and seek answers that may or may not conform to a script I was trained to not just, not read, but to follow as it was interpreted back to me by someone else.

Almost a year ago. I met my maker. When I did, he had a long talk with me about what i have held him accountable for. The bitterness I had in my heart and the overall lack of consideration I had for any plan he may have had for me.

My world changed. The signs in my world changed. It became a much different place and it was alive with the knowing He's always been there and he could be ANYTHING without limitations.

He told me.. He was making me into a human. And being a human was more than just about walking upright. It was about righteousness and accepting truth. Even when the truth wasn't what we wanted to hear. He told me I had to accept that... I had to be crushed in all of my elements in order to grow as a person and to identify the elements in others. I would know hurt. I would know pain.. I would know failure and disappointment because without it, I couldn't know him and I couldn't know happiness and success even when it sat in my face. I would know fear because in knowing fear I could identify the signs of danger.

these past 9 years have been the most exciting and humbling years of my life. Once upon I was told i wouldn't be a mother. Despite that voice I had in my soul that I identified as my creator telling me.. peace be with you in my plan. 9 years ago I met my husband. and I delivered our first son on my 30th birthday. He was EVERYTHING that I heard from that promise that I didn't believe. Because I had no faith. I'm now the mother of 4 young children. And my family has become something worth fighting for. Nothing more precious and green to me. It has given me cause and great purpose.

My marriage has gone so fast. we had just become engaged when we learned of our first child and 4 children later. My husband went to college, we struggled but made it. And we finally opened our own business last year. We have both struggled with adapting to our new roles. And with everything that has spiritually happened in our lives. With all of the questions being thrown our way about discerning and understanding, we both found our way here. It's been an awesome experience bouncing ideas back and forth with the anonymity of not being judged.

A few months ago I got the Ick. Something came upon me that something wasn't right and after that talk I had with my maker I knew it was to tell me it was time to check my closets so to speak. I started seeing things in the shadows. Things out of place. I went to work hard core. Ignoring Reality.

I got a lot of answers back and some of the truth hurt. And a few nights ago.. I bought a bottle after my husband and I had it out when he was home. I felt betrayed and cheated and I took out my horns and I'm sorry for the ass of myself that I made. I went for the jugular on my porch bathing myself in the moonlight and wine and unleashed like a beast.

I finally had enough and went into my home and went to summon the sunset by shutting down all the lights.

And I found a stranger in my home. Sitting at our family table.. smoking a cigarette.. and browsing his Facebook account. while my children were asleep and I was unleashing my heart because my THIRD EYE told me something was wrong.

He told me he had heard my husband and I fighting a few nights before. He's been watching me for a while. Said he knew I was breaking down and figured he could give me what I needed when I was done having it out.

I kicked him out and used my laptop to file charges. He had also stolen over 600.00 worth of property in the kitchen.. Chargers a note and some other things.

All day yesterday all i could do is just sit there paralyzed with what had just happened. Running things through my head. The times I saw a figure.. a shadow. my kids swearing they couldn't sleep in their room because their was someone on the porch outside their window. EVERYTHING i dismissed, blinded by my jealousy. Ready to cut down the trespassers I'd found.

I found myself under attack. I knew something wasn't right. I knew something was wrong. He was KNOCKING on my door to wake me up and I thought I had all my eyes wide open and had with my armor found the source and I was headed for the jugular.

Anyways. Under every green tree. I'm sorry, I went nuclear. My Creator is working on me and I am trying. I'm sorry to anyone I stung. And I'm sorry to my husband.. For being Shiva again.
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Wow... um...Woah... You have a lot of energy and it's special. You made a click click click in my mind and it wasn't until I was done I asked myself if what I was reading was real or a riddle. I don't even know if it was English. Where were you made? Lol! I'm going to read this again later. Its like my mind went on a trip. Was this all a parable lol? I feel like I can't take it at face value.

I said a special prayer with you in mind for the parts that tore me.

Sending love and blessings your way warrior.

Lol.

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I see blue people.

There are two creatures that defy the laws of physics and can take flight.

The Bumble Bee. and Man...
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Lol warrior! I got to see that.

Like out of no where in reading some guy saying he's a God and here comes a raid on his ass. Haha I laughed my ass off. Lol then I saw we were in EverQuest and you going down I'd see pause and it was Inc Res. I was shouting if she beats him I'm calling bids on boots!

Haha EPIC battle!

On a serious note. I'm glad your okay. That was really freaking original. Took me down memory lane camping for a swift sash.

fuckyeah5

CH~~ incoming (honey bee) !!!
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Lol still laughing.. you see blue people haha dark elfs.. leading a raid against innoruuk.

Omg.. haha haha
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Your awesome sauce on steroids.

Screw me upside down and walk me.

I lick the ground my neck in crown...


Take me away you with you.

I've prayed and you won't answer.

Collar me. Whip me.. defeat me...


I surrender my kingdom.

Queen of the night.. queen of the light.

Where are we.



Sorry..

Read this saw another post..

Thump thump... Please want me.
I will be Jupiter.. you can have ALL of me.

Put a choker on my neck.. My great Mistress.. walk me.. bark bark bark..

I call you.. Queen..

Please claim me

-thump thump thump


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