i hate being alone. i hate not having anyone to love.

i hate being alone. i hate not having anyone to love. i hate not having anyone to please. i hate not being needed by anyone. i hate not being truly desired. i used to think i was alone because i was fat. i lost weight, everyone saw the difference, and everyone thinks i'm sexy. but still, no woman wanted me. i thought the problem was because i was shy. i overcame my shyness. i hooked up with many girls. none of them really wanted me. they wanted me to replace the missing elements in them. they didn't wanted me, they wanted a 'boyfriend'. they didn't wanted someone else, they wanted a toy. i hate how immature girls can be. i thought the problem was because i was looking in the wrong place. i started looking for more mature woman. i hate not finding any. i hate having to settle down for mediocre relationships. i hate being with someone so ridiculous i would rather be alone. i hate not knowing anyone other them this type of girl. if all i wanted was sex, i would go to a prostitute. woman complain about men, but they are shallow, incoherent, immature, insecure, desensitised and inconsequential. i thought the problem was in me. i corrected what i thought was the problem. apparently, now i'm too perfect for anyone. i hate being rejected because i'm too perfect. i'd rather be rejected a thousand times for being imperfect, them being rejected by a girl who says i'm too good for her, and she says she wants to want me, but she cant give me what i expect of her. i expect nothing beyond your desire for me! stop being so insecure! all i need is a woman who knows how to seduce a man, how to motivate me. i hate how they are all so shy. i hate how they are all so blindly self-absorbed. cant they see its in their best interest to keep the man attracted and motivated? thats all they have to do, and still, they manage to screw it up. they are either too vulgar or to arrogant, or too shy. no one knows how to seduce anymore. no one knows how to love anymore. i hate having such high standards, but i rather be alone than being just some girls appendix. god forbid, i would even settle for a boy. i just want to love someone. but no one seems to need it. everyone seems oh, so content. i want more than contentment, i want immense pleasure. but it takes courage! people just want safety. a bunch of fearful cowards, afraid of their own potential, afraid of their own desires! whats wrong with you humanity!?