That is odd. I got into a heated argument/borderline screaming match against the Heavenly Father, demanding he do something about the wicked city of Dallas.
My soul was so riled, I couldn't sleep all night, until 6 in the morning, when I mustered an almost not insulting prayer.
Due to deep dissatisfaction over the world and my life, I have been very sore towards the Divine lately*. Spiritually at the "I only repent in being formed, and mourn the day of my birth" type despair.
*It came into crystal clear focus, how between Satan, the Heavenly Father/Christ, my life has been deliberately F'ed from the moment of my conception. It is so F'ed, if I dare think, plot or plan to court a woman, the Heavenly Father will F my life up to prevent it, while Satan rubs my nose in it, and tortures me with all the things I will never have or experience. So my opinion towards the Heavenly Father/Christ is, "you are all powerful and can force me to do what you want, but I repent and do not consent. Send another whom you have rewarded. On account of you, my life has been a misery since conception, you take that which I desire, and offer that which I do not desire. Never did I desire eternal life, never did I desire to rule over nations or be eternally trapped in a paradise without seasons, without dreams and from my vantage point, without hope. Send another, for you have only did evil to me, and did fornicate with my enemies against me. On account of you I have lived a loveless impoverished existence, and repent in existing.".
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For the sake of prophecy, I get the distinction of being a failed prophet. At birth, I was given a name to "Honor God the Heavenly Father, and the Messiah Jesus Christ". basically, at conception I was the most damned/cursed soul on the planet.
Biblically speaking, that means I'm God's favorite human to F with. Study the Prophets carefully, they all had miserable, F'ed lives. Sometimes it is tempting for me to compare God to a Sith Lord. In that, he only wants to know your hopes and dreams, so he can deny them to you.
It sounds incredibly petty on my account, but, Jeremiah and the others, often had less flattering things to say about their own situation.
In my own part, I did try to correct the Churches, get them to turn their hearts back to boy's, young men and men. A few years of labor, only resulted in 6 months worth of "good behavior" from the Churches before they backslid and became dens of boyhating/manhating Jezebels again.
That is when I wrote the Churches off and considered them all to be children of Satan. Afterwards, the Holy Spirit turned me into a puppet, and forced me to speak about a particular Doctrine not emphasized enough but in keeping with Biblical teachings:
"If you desecrate another, you end up more desecrated then the one you sought to desecrate". Then I was told of how the Jewish State of Israel will be handed over to the Muslims. Most adults will be killed, children brutalized/raped/murdered/sold into slavery stuff. Really horrific.
Coupled with being powerless and forced to beg for scraps(unless I beg for my enemies, God loves to perform miracles for my enemies/extreme frustration). Before that super hurricane was about to destroy Mexico I prayed and begged to give them a reprieve, let the storm die on the shore, surely they will repent. If they don't repent send twice the disaster.
Mexico didn't repent and doubled down on stupid, so "
srry Mexico for making your punishment worse..".
Add in, the few times I tried to draw close, Satan goes all out to upset me, from personnel attacks, to f'ing with the world order. In that, coupled with my own personnel life being a miserably sad tale, "I repent in being formed, and mourn the day I was begotten".
Satan did try to tempt me once as he tempted Christ, but how can you temp someone with something they don't want? That kind of pissed him off, so now he just wants to ruin/destroy me.
After I heard the last agreement between Satan and the Heavenly Father, things have gotten much worse on all accounts.
