I have never met anyone that wants the truth...they simply want the entertainment of the search...
if you want ascension.
the first thing you need is to have an experience that will give you a REASON to keep going on. That REASON will be the BENEFIT of an action. That BENEFIT will be so undeniable, so profound that you cannot deceive yourself...and then you will be on the path.
buy a book on meditation. 'The art of meditation' by Goldsmith is a good one. Read it 3 times.
Now, meditate and fast 20-40 days drinking only natural spring water (it will have minerals that will be good for your system).
after 20-40 days you will need to begin eating by drinking juices and then work into solid foods.
continue to meditate daily in the early mornings at least 2hrs a day. eliminate alcohol, tobacco and caffeine. read at least 1 hr daily from a 'real book' like 'Course in Miracles' or an eastern meditation book. Maybe one by Radha Soami Satsang Beas.
If you follow this regimen for 6 months, you will understand your path completely and you will be well on your way to ascension or better said...'reintegration'
my guess is, you won't even start.