Going to take a couple of pills and try to get some sleep. Need to think and have a long conversation with my girlfriend. Riddiculing me if it helps you deal with your fear. I have faced mine. Remember as a kid you would hear a noise in the night and picture a monster. I have heard the noise and seen the monster. Now I need to decide if I want to show others the monster too.
What could be gained?.Lost?
All I know is that my life has changed forever and all your lives will do the same, wether I tell you when or not.