If I had a billion dollars....

I would sit on my laptop all day, and find legitimate and sincere people who need charity.

And give enough to meet their immediate need during their crisis moment.

I know this is absolutely exact;y what I do. And it is selfish in the sense that I would get such a high from doing it, it would be in that regard, almost like a drug.

I know this is what I what do for a fact....

I even thought of it this morning. I received an email from a charity that deals with Native American's in crisis...but it is very personal... names, addresses, and a list of their needs...

Basic needs folks..
Like Bob Soaring Eagle needs a ride to his doctor on Tuesdays.

Annie Willow Tree would like a winter coat in size M...

And it kills me...I have been laid off for over a year...had to live off my savings..there is just NOTHING out there..I bar maid to make ends meet...and the ends don't meet despite my effort.

And my last date was with a man who litterally makes prob over 10 mil a year. And he and I are friends, but I would never tell him I had 2 dollars in my checking account...

And I thought to myself JUST TODAY. My goodness, if I ever married him, I'd be dangerous in the sense that I'd be giving his money away all day...But the greatest thing about this man...is that he'd probably let me....

If only...