LHP occult magick just seems like introverts trying to feel special

You gotta get laid somehow

Lots of them learn about hexes and curses and all that because they were bullied or made fun of and never learned to let go of that and realize that kids are cruel and stupid no matter what. You could have been the most popular, attractive, cool kid in school and accidentally farted or something and they still would have made fun of you forever. Having a higher IQ than your peers is a blessing and a curse and it is the same in adult life. God blessed these people with a higher IQ or unique way to see the world and they get mad at Him and rebel because they won't let go of their insecurities or traumas. They have to really fully integrate all experiences and realize that even bad experiences early in life makes you a stronger person that can have empathy for the suffering of all others.

Magick and trying to achieve self-godhood is just an internal way of trying to over compensate for past feelings of weakness or inadequacy. God helps us to integrate all of our experiences and even says that He loves using the simple and humble to do great things in time and lifts them up into places of honor while humbling the proud. The prince of darkness isn't making you stronger and healing your adolescent pains, he is just exploiting them. Forgive your childhood peers who hurt or rejected you and humble yourself and realize that you aren't some special Awakened one while everyone else is a still asleep moron. When you let go of that identity you created for yourself as a witch or magus or sorcerer or whatever and accept who you are, you will find true peace and power knowing that you are enough just as you are and how the Most High created you. You are enough as you are and you were created to be who you are for a purpose. God didn't set you apart from this world becauase He hates you, He did it because He really loves you.