Can you meet your twin flame or a soul mate/friend and have them not feel the same way or maybe they do and are scared to express how they feel? Or maybe they expressed themselves to me about how she felt and then got scared of how attached I was getting because she is married..

The thing is, I met this amazing girl through an online video game.. From the first time I heard her speak on voice software I was like wow, why do I get the feeling i know her and have this weird magnetic force pull me to her.. A year almost 2 have gone by since I met her and we had our ups and downs in our friendship.. We we're at a point where we would tell each other how much we loved each other but at a certain point since(she has been married 5 years but not in a healthy relationship from what she tells me- not abuse or anything sh just isn't loved by her husband), that after a certain point I expressed to her that I wanted to be with her, things started to spiral out of control.. Meaning, we began to fight and disagree a lot about little stupid things which resulted in her not talking to me for a few months.

I felt like I was complete and whole when being with her, it was like being on a drug high but with no drugs.. For those 2 months I contemplated ending my life just about everyday.. But not only because of not having her in my life anymore at that moment but also because Im a failure when it comes to holding down jobs or even getting decent paying jobs.. i can't support myself independently... Which is a reason I think me and her started to sour in our relationship because I think she wanted out of her marriage but I wasn't and outlet for her.

2 months went by and we are now very close again and i take special care of just trying to help her out and be there for her on an emotional level when things get rough for her in real life. She can vent anything to me in full confidence and I like to think I give her sound advice.

Deep down I love this girl with all my heart like I've never loved anyone before.. I think about her constantly, any cute brunettes I see on t.v or in real life I immediately think of this girl.. Its starting to drive me nuts because although I know Ill never be with her till I get some sort of cash flow happening (even if then), I just can't stand to be away from her or without communication from her.