has anyone here ever totallly changed their life. Just went in a new direction

Five fucking kids and NOW you realize you're a fagot?

There are no words...

it's only energy draining if you wack it to demoralizing porn or are involved in a sick sexual relationship(fucking kids, your sister or dogs)

making love and or masterbating regularly is a good sign you're healthy.

Yes, I have OP. I went from a life of drinking, smoking and doing all kinds of different drugs, to being clean & sober and smoke free. I did this by picking up exercise six days a week, daily meditation and eating right. It's VERY hard to change OP, but possible."

that's too bad cause i do the exercize eating healthy thing + living the party life once and awhile.

gotta have balance.

I was 42 when I made my change. I didn't have a plan, I just followed my nose as I was being done. That's how it works. I'm not doing it, I'm being done.

I was wondering if anyone on here just at a later age changed it all. I am 43 and have 5 young kids and I am stressed daily and I feel dead inside. With the gang that I have it seems really hard to take a risk or to change much at all, but I still with to have a life too!!

oh AND by the way I will just go ahead and slam myself now so I don't have to read it from a freak. "hey why didn't you use birth control"

"Don't you know the world is already overpopulated?"

My reply to this is ............you have never seen my wife. Can't stop....wont stop!!!!!!

From a Google cache (search "Cloise Orand"):

Violent Crime Victim Turns Life Around

Cloise Orand is a business owner and now has written a novel.
By TRAVIS BAKER, tbaker@kitsapsun.com
October 9, 2005

Port Orchard -- Youthful Port Orchard businessman Cloise Orand doesn't remember the hours he spent on the operating table in 1987, being sewn back together as one of three victims of one of Kitsap County's most grisly crimes.

For that matter, he doesn't remember being found by police and medical rescuers, near death in a clearing near Dickey Road in Central Kitsap where he and two girls had been brutalized by Daniel Yates, a Bremerton tattoo artist now serving a 60-year sentence in an out-of-state prison for the attacks.

Orand's tongue nearly had been cut out and his cheeks slit outward from the corners of his mouth. He'd been shot once in the back and sexually assaulted.

He was 13, a runaway who had been living in vacant houses he and the two girls — also runaways — would break into. One girl died two months later of injuries suffered that day. The other's throat was slashed, but like Orand, she survived.

Orand, now 31 and the owner of four businesses, says the attack is "something I actually left back then and never really dwelled on."

Yet he recreates the violent Sept. 17, 1987, attack in nearly exact detail in a science fiction novel he has written and hopes to have made into a movie.

His main character, Mabus, the unfairly vilified Antichrist, is about his age and shares many of Orand's life experiences. But in the novel, he is the only victim of the brutal attack. The girls aren't mentioned.

Called "The Antichrist, Version 666," the novel is due out soon, at $24.95 a copy.

Orand was an unlikely candidate to be a business success or an author in his younger days.

Even after being nearly murdered by the man who picked up him and the girls up hitchhiking, he went back to the life of a runaway. He also resumed his Navy Yard City paper route for this newspaper as something of an inadvertent celebrity.

"The tips were good after that," he said. "I'd start with a bag of papers and come home with a bag of presents."

He made prosecutors nervous as a key witness in a murder trial because his whereabouts were never certain.

But he did testify, with the same detachment with which he still tells the story, detailing the atrocities committed against him matter-of-factly.

As an adult, Orand became a valued worker in the rough-and-tumble world of roofing but still lived life on the ragged edge.

In the midst of a custody battle with the mother of his two oldest children, "I was going out a lot, clubs and what not," he said. "Despite a decent income, it was spent before I got my check, I was in serious debt, using marijuana and alcohol.

"I had a box of comics and sleeping bag to my name, I was living on friends' couches.

"About eight years ago, I realized I was good at making poor choices. When my mind tells me I want to do it, it's probably the wrong choice and if it required discipline and integrity, that's probably the path I should take. So rather than blaming everybody else for my outcome, it was time I started making better choices."

He and Mike Holbrook left the Hanley Construction roofing crew and formed their own business, later adding Tom Cowan as an owner. Orand says he also has formed two property management firms to handle rentals as well as Port Orchard Publishing, which is publishing "The Antichrist, Version 666."

His wife, Michelle, played a key role in his reclamation, giving him reason to stay home and out of clubs, he said.

"She was a bit of a challenge to court," he said.

Until recently, Orand had become something of an absentee owner of Cloise and Mike Construction, which mostly does roofing jobs. Its bright yellow trucks are a fixture in downtown Port Orchard.

He was spending most of his days at home with Michelle, baby Savannah, 3-year-old Alexander, and, on weekends and in the summer, 11-year-old twins Stefan and Christopher. He watched a lot of the Discovery and Science channels, spent time online and read science magazines.

But the Mike in Cloise and Mike left the company Friday to start his own business, Orand said, so he's back at it full time.

I was wondering if anyone on here just at a later age changed it all. I am 43 and have 5 young kids and I am stressed daily and I feel dead inside. With the gang that I have it seems really hard to take a risk or to change much at all, but I still with to have a life too!!

oh AND by the way I will just go ahead and slam myself now so I don't have to read it from a freak. "hey why didn't you use birth control"

"Don't you know the world is already overpopulated?"

My reply to this is ............you have never seen my wife. Can't stop....wont stop!!!!!!