Astrology - pluto square pluto - what does it mean?

You're very welcome.

Just one other thing I meant to add to my post--

If there were to come an important child into your life - a child you morally couldn't turn your back on - who had been abandoned and was confused, crying, and hurting, wouldn't you take that child into your arms and try to comfort them?

Be the comforter and caregiver to the abandoned child within you. When you begin to love and care for yourself in this manner your interpersonal prognosis will begin to change, and maybe even quickly.

Your "mam" gave birth to your body, you gave birth to your hurt and discontent. Be your own good natured and loving "mom"... it sounds like you have a good roll model to follow suit from.

That's it! That's it!

Thank you

that's a keeper!

Thanks mm

i've received an incredible amount of support on this thread

GLP is the greatest

Hi, mm!


Yes, for being one who integrated my Shadow Self five years ago I know very well that it's the hardest fractured aspect to love and embrace, and it's also the fractured aspect that most needs/requires embracing and love.

Once healthfully integrated it is also the one that brings a person fully into their own personal strength and power. The dark heart of the Shadow Self brings more blessings than it does woe, when all is said and done.

After all, it takes shining an entire field of light, with the fortitude of an energizer bunny, into that dark space to bring its frequency out of the orphanage hell it has had to call home.




I'd like to add a resounding "amen" to the above, mm!

As a Shadow Self "soul doctor" (there's many a time I've worked with others as an energy worker/healer with regard to this area of the psyche) I have numerous times expressed the same sentiment of thanks, and have enlisted it as a source of encouragement while one is in the process of healing.

So, yes, a personal thanks to all who undertake this effort, and a big thanks from the collective consciousness, as well.

HELL!

That's how I'd describe my life over the last few weeks.

HELL!

I'm between the first and second stages of my pluto square pluto and life is HELL!

I'm not sure I can take mush more. No-body warned me that I would have to go through adolescence a second time. Why doesn't our culture talk about this? This is just as terrible as the teenage years except its worse because now there is so much baggage and financial responsibility.

I look back over my life and see that at certain times I had EVERYTHING. I had great jobs which I walked away from. I love fantastic ladies and I walked away from them. I live in great cities in fantastic countries and I left everyone of them.

I threw everything away. I'm 37 and alone in a rented room in the shitty hometown where I grew up and every morning I wake up at 4am unable to get back to sleep and I"M F#C#ING EXHAUSTED.

I AM ON THE EDGE
I AM ON THE EDGE
I AM ON THE EDGE

I AM FILLED WITH RAGE
I AM FILLED WITH RAGE
I AM FILLED WITH RAGE

Every morning I awaken into the nightmare that is my life

Okay here is the run down from my forecast:

2nd stage 6 May to 2 August

Squeezed like a lemon pip, to realise your resources and full potential

Last few years going through major inner and outer transformation – TRUE
Career at crossroads – TRUE
Financial affairs a tangled web – TRUE
Passion and sense of purpose gone out of life - TRUE
Sexual stimulation less easy to satisfy – TRUE

You are being squeezed like a lemon pip to find a solution and something is going to budge.

Change unavoidable on the outside but the solution lies on the inside.

Forced to confront yourself, your unfulfilled and unlived potential

If there is a valuable resource that has been wasted, talent buried in the ground or if you are simply reviewing the past saying to yourself “If only…”, then you must act to exploit, milk, redeem and realise that resource , hidden treasure asset or “unexperienced experience”. Yes there is a price to pay and it is the price you have levied on yourself through the way your life has been structured. However, the great psychological growth that can come now, can only happen if you are able to be like a snake and discard your old skin. What you are losing may only be a mask or an obsolete or superficial part of your life. Circumstances may force you to confront your entire life history – rewind (<<) and fastforward (>>) - like Ebenezer Scrooge in Dicken’s “A Christmas Carol.” Through facing buried areas of your past , regressing as far back as traumas from childhood, and cutting through the junk and the rot, you can start to feel reborn. It is time to get in touch with the entire process of life and death.

I enjoyed that rant to myself.

I feel quite calm.

I'm going to bed now

today hasn't been that bad.

I decided to get drunk which seems to have dispersed a lot of my internal rage

I squandered my life on booze, drugs, loose women and traveling the world.

I could have made something of my life.

There was so much potential...

Now I can hardly get out of bed in the morning because I feel so fucking depressed.

Why did I leave those ladies that I loved?

Why did I abandon my career(s)?

These are the things I think about at 4.30am