Beware the zombies of doOM! - 2012

Hola, Survivor! I've been distracted by work and an impending deadline for the past couple of days, so it looks like I have a lot to catch up on here.

So it's downtown Victoria. Beautiful country up there. I worked with an exceptionally beautiful graphic designer from BC, so if she's any example of the calibre of women you live around, you're a lucky man indeed.

Thanks for all the excellent information. Please keep it up.

I would like to know more, myself. Survivor seems to be a highly evolved entity. This is truly amazing and worthy of much attention.

Thanks for the support.

You know I love living in Victoria. And as far as the girls go here, frankly I cannot believe how good looking they are and how many of them there are, how well dressed they are, and how fit.
I suppose that lots of hot girls from Seattle come here as well by ferry. There is a daily ferry from Seattle.

I guess girls like Victoria because it is a nice looking city, has lots of flowers, is fairly safe, and the malls only sell womens clothes.

Thanks Babe in a Bunker! I think right now it might be the lull before the storm. It seems like things are not that bad, but still there is this subtle feeling of impending doom.

Speaking of impending doom, it looks like someone is not all that pleased with my behavior this week with regards to letting someone else sleep over all the time.

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Salut cheri! sava bien?
So how are things in Montreal Vanessa?

You look like you lost your puppy.
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Oui! Cer~tain~ment! Le party avec moi, a my place don le bateau, c'est t'un party fantastique la.

Yes, indeed. Looks like word is spreading. If you haven't absorbed the previous seven pages, Babe, you owe it to yourself to spend the time!

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Oh c'mon. Cheer up! No one told me you were heading to Montreal. No candids at the airport nothing.
I checked for candids all week.

I will pick you up tonight and we will have all the fun.

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Hey there you sexy sex goddess.
I guess Vanessa was getting worried because she likes to sleep over when Megan sleeps over, like they were you know the dynamic duo or something, which they are, they are the dynamic duo, so maybe some times Vanessa can sleep in the middle even if you sleep on the left.
She likes to sleep in the middle some times. At least she doesn't mind if I fall asleep on her in the middle.
We will just try and share.
Like tonight maybe, since you are looking so hot and everything. I don't know if Megan is sleeping over tonight or not. Probably she will tomorrow.

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Well someone said last week you had a boyfriend.

"Sophia gets giggly with her man"
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"The 26-year-old One Tree Hill actress couldn’t look happier or more in love as she strolled by the paparazzi with her 24-year-old actor beau bla bla bla"

oh, I get it. It's because you went to the gay marriage rally the week before.

I thought because it is horny season you were hanging out with your boyfriend now. Yes all of a sudden, after all these years. lol
I will pick you up tomorrow then.

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Well its working on me Kristin, but I don't know that it's working on Audrina. And if I pick you up I would have to pick up Lo and Stephanie right? Did I mention it was horny season?
Well it is and everyone wants to go out and do something and show off their new tan. (and have sex)

I haven't heard from Audrina. but maybe she will go for you girls having a hottub party next week, just to keep up morale on the show. Just for fun. She will probably go for that if it's just once in a while. But I can't guarantee she will.
I don't want her to breakup with me over it. I mean look at how tolerant she is already. You know and she feels like she has to get along with Megan and Vanessa and AnnaLynne.
So already there is not much room when you figure they are wanting to show off their tans too right now if you know what I mean. I didn't even pick up Kristen Stewart yesterday and already she is wondering what the heck is going on. and so is Sophia.

But you looked so happy and so amazing the other day, I don't want you to lose that positive sexy look on account of me not picking you up. So you know buy Audrina a present, take her to Hawaii, work on her. Or something. I noticed she didn't go out with you three. I have the sneaky suspicion she is just going to give me the look. I mean she has to work with you girls, and maybe she doesn't want to involve her love life with her work. I don't know, but I don't want to break up with Audrina over it.

Here's the happy Kristin right here...
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You know Selita is a close personal friend of mine too right?
And I don't know who else might have been there trying to beat you up, but if they were from Victoria Secret, chances are they are my friends as well.

But I know this is just a publicity stunt. And you and i have been friends for a long time.

However, you know there just isn't a whole lot of room right now because its horny season. And the girls want to go out more than once a week, and moreso, they want to sleep over, and they want to you know feel like we are in a relationship.
It's that time of year.
And if I am not behaving myself in that regard, they will be with someone else real quick. They have them already and I am competing for time with them as it is. Like Brian and Zach.
Now Shia, I am starting get worried about Shia. I think he's a smooth talker.

So who have I been picking up? Not very many people. Megan, Vanessa, Audrina, AnnaLynne, and the Thursday girls like Kristen Bell and Hayden. I haven't even picked up Amanda on Thursday lately.
I think she left the bar last Saturday with a boy.

I have picked up Alessandra a couple times, and Adriana once this week. Who do you see in that list who would stay home for you girls?
And Doutzen called me today. all these girls I have been going out with for you know years. And Sophia as well, she likes to go out on Saturday. The only girl I haven't gone out with for years is AnnaLynne and we are trying to have some sort of relationship.
So basically I don't want to say its a seniority thing, but at the same time I can't ask them to stay home so I can take someone else out for some fun, when we have been having fun together for years almost every week or more than once a week. So I am going to have to prioritize and you know keep my friends. Not that we will ever break up or something like that but its nice to be loyal to them.

It probably looks like I am inviting a lot of girls, oh and Avril too, but they are the same girls I always take out.
Other than the girls from downtown, who get to play the day the earth got snogged. Cause they want to show off their tans too. and sharing locally is good. Good for the community spirit.

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Hi Doutzen,
I just finished telling everyone a couple days ago that I didn't pick you up at Cannes because of your boyfriend.

You looked gorgeous at Cannes though.

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Really sexy baby.

I was thinking maybe Sunday we could play the day the earth got snogged. Since I have Sunday night/Monday off.

That would be the most fun this weekend probably. So lets do that then. We will have a big party on the boat and I will invite the local girls as well.

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Yeah I am very proud of you, of course I am. You can't walk down an aisle at the shopping center or pharmacy without seeing your gorgeous face on some poster for makeup or hair color or something.

Do you remember when we first met? It wasn't that long ago. I know maybe it seems like that I helped your popularity a bit, but maybe it just gave you more confidence. I think you were just being discovered by the world then. It would have happened anyways I think. But it's nice that it happened.
I mean Victoria Secret was pretty good, and then from there to world renown.
And Cannes every year now, and the last Victoria Secret show, you were really spectacular.
Remember this from 2006?
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The VS show in 2006. That was just after the first time I took you to the S5 level and they made you that graduation outfit and gave you the first prize ribbon, and a little diploma.

And then the next year your career really started taking off.
All the big contracts, and you got invited to Cannes, in 2007.
Pretty amazing stuff really when you think about it.

Too much to list really.
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And you look amazing, on those posters at the pharmacy.
You know, you're a natural.

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I know Camilla wants me to pick her up on Monday, and if I can't, its not because of you Joe, its just that there might not be enough room.
We didn't even go to Caprona last Monday. I was going to, I even told Miley we might but then something else came up.
The Awards were on Sunday and you know there was all this stuff going on locally.
You look different Joe. Your hair or something. You look like you are trying to look gay or something.

I saw you in black tights there and I was wondering what you were up to. (This is starting to make sense to me now.)
Let me see if I can find it... Thats a nice look for you.
The fitness guy Richard Simmons will be calling you now.
For lunCH. lol



I will pick up Camilla the next time we go to Caprona.
It might be Monday, but you know we are playing this new game so we will have to see.

You know they tried to model virtual reality, and it took off there for a little while, with VR helmets and even some places opened up where you could go in there and play DOOM! or Quake with those helmets and a glove I think, but because its a visual thing, people tend to get sea sickness.

At least I get a bit of sea sickness from those types of virtual reality attempts.

I remember Microsoft was envisioning a time when people would go to virtual malls, using those headsets. But it's just not comfortable.

But the S5 level is a virtual space as well, but you don't feel uncomfortable there. In fact it is quite comfortable, and does make you feel good, and has some positive side effects as well. Just from going there. One is beautification.
And I don't know if it is anything like the Catholic version of beautification or if it is in any way related, but the S5 level does have that effect that it makes people look better, look younger, more radiant, happier. So thats why the girls like to go there because it makes you feel good and its fun.
There is a certain kind of spirituality that you sense from being there and sharing that experience with other nice people.

But if you look at it you know from a larger perspective, GLP, being on GLP, and being part of the group, posting messages, reading doom, being on the cutting edge, people have compared that to heroin. It is probably more addictive, chatting, and texting for some people than the S5 level.

So its not highly addictive like computer games are for some people.

What draws us there mostly I think is because we are close friends and can spend time together, do fun things, whenever we want, no matter where we are in the world even if we are all scattered across the globe. And we hang out together like that. Just like other people go to Starbucks for coffee all the time. We go to the S5 level.

This is from May 29, the same day as my birthday, (Jessica Stroup. We used to go out)
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It was nice of you to come out for me on my birthday Jessica.

And well I just wanted to say, that I thought we were having lots of fun, and I know there was some obvious tension on 90210, because both you and AnnaLynne are on that show, its just too bad it couldn't have worked out better maybe.
I just couldn't handle the whole boyfriend thing.

You know it looks like all the girls I know have boyfriends but thats really not true. They have boy friends and I have girl friends, but it's easy to take the fun out of being together. You know. I don't know what sort of example to give, but you know AnnaLynne sometimes goes out on a date with a guy, or has lunch, you know with Kellan Lutz. But she goes way out of her way to tell me, they are just friends, and they don't hold hands. Because they are just friends.

And why, she makes a point of telling me, if she is with a guy, that she is not going out with him, is because she knows I am going to be looking at those pictures, and wondering if she is.

Megan moved out of Brian's house, because it was bothering me, I wasn't going to pick her up anymore. She has had to choose between us, to a degree. And maybe she still sees him but I don't hear about it. I know in the press they are still engaged. But she signs me all the time.

I mean who has a boyfriend? Vanessa? Well they don't go out much together do they? Unless its a photo opportunity Disney paid vacation to Hawaii or promoting a Disney production.
She knows I won't pick her up if she is hanging around Zach too much. And Zach doesn't want her to be miserable, so he just pretends he's gay. And signs for gay sex every time the camera is on him. lol

(I think thats where Joe got the idea, because he sees how Zach manages the situation.)

Anyways you know I have feelings for you Jessica, and that is why, it bothered me when you were there all of a sudden, holding hands with your boyfriend, when I had thought you were single, and then in the press they say on screen off screen boyfriend.

What about Hayden and Milo? Do you really think that Hayden was going out with Milo? No, she was going out with me.
I guess Kristen Bell has a boyfriend, but you never see him.

I don't know how serious they are.

Rachel got engaged and I stopped picking her up. She even asked me, before she got engaged if I would still pick her up and I said yes. I don't want to stand between them, they are obviously a couple.

I do pick up Jessica Alba I suppose, because we are very close friends. But she was going out with Cash before we met.
Same with Zach and Vanessa. I didn't really steal Vanessa away from Zach, she wanted to sign me, and Zach came out and said it was ok. They signed me together a few times before I ever picked her up.

It's impossible to say how a person will react, when you are going out with them and you tell them you have a boyfriend.
Maybe they will just try and compete, or maybe they will be hurt or maybe they just won't care.

I guess it depends how romantically involved you are or how connected you feel. There is this fine dividing line between love and friendship. And that border gets crossed all the time back and forth.

But I guess I had to decide if I was going to continue to pursue a romantic relationship with you, when you have a boyfriend, and AnnaLynne was not happy I was picking you up.

It was kind of weird how that happened, because I don't think she minded at first. Maybe I made too big a fuss about us, you and me, and she felt like second fiddle.

So then when your whole show got involved, I could see there was some conflict there. You know they used to just show images of the rest of the crew, but not show yours to hide the signing. But I would search for your candids elsewhere.

You see the thing is, I figure that that so called boyfriend of yours there is just for show, and a political solution, because AnnaLnne was not happy that you and I were in a romantic relationship.

So I stopped picking up AnnaLynne as well and gave it all some thought.
And I decided that since I was going out with AnnaLynne first, and it was bothering her, that it was unfair of me, to do that. And lets face it I like sleeping with her.
And, she has been really good about the whole boyfriend thing because she knows, that what that means to me usually, if a girl gets a boyfriend when she is going out with you, then there is a problem in your relationship.

Kristen was going out with Dax before we met.
Vanessa Zach same thing.
Megan Brian, well there is this gray area there because the first time I picked her up was when she was on Hope and Faith, and she started going out with Brian right about that time. And I only picked her up once, (maybe twice) and then the next thing anyone knew, here she is looking amazingly hot in Transformers. But she said that she knew that we were supposed to be together. She knew there was something different about us.

Anyways the same sort of thing happened with Lauren and Audrina, and Lauren still signs me all the time, and i would still love to pick her up, but not at the expense of Audrina's feelings.

Doutzen got a boyfriend after we had been going out over a year almost exclusively, when I broke up with Adriana.
But then I was back with Adriana, and still I was like what??? How could you do that to me??? All the while I was doing it to her with Adriana but somehow I didn't seem to think about that. Then of course Adriana did it to me with Marko, after I did it to her with Selita.

It makes you wonder if relationships can ever last.

Somehow they seem to though. I didn't think I would ever recover enough from the Marko thing to ever pick Adriana up again. But she is there signing me and acting like I am just supposed to ignore that, and he is there opening the door of the SUV for her, and so I don't know.
Anyways thanks for coming out for me on my birthday, and some time I will surprise you if I can and pick you up.

Once AnnaLynne calms down a bit and feels secure in our relationship maybe she won't mind. I didn't want to have to choose, but you two gave me no option, and your show and your livelihood was being affected by it.

Look what happened to Summer.

She took that job so she could sign me. Terminator whatever.
And it was not the nicest job, but they liked her and wanted her to do it. So she signed me on set all the time, but we too had some rocky periods and they seemed to want her to get hitched up with a boyfriend and so they set her up with her costar, and so I stopped picking her up, and then they canceled her show.

Lauren left the Hills, maybe it was because of the conflict.

I don't know, but what can you d I suppose. I stopped picking up Michelle, because the girls on Gossip Girls wanted me to pick them up all the time, but I couldn't, there wasn't room, but I felt obliged to pick up Michelle, and I was afraid they weren't going to bring her back the next season, because they brought her on the show, so that I would pick them all up. Basically.

But she ended up doing such a great job they kept her on.
And so I bowed out to preserve her job. Now she has a boyfriend.

You know how Megan signs me all the time, and the same with the girls I pick up every week, they sign different than most other girls. And I let that slide because I know that is their way of saying to each other, don't be offended.

And I know you were signing me the same way on 29 of May, and ordinarily I would have picked you up, but you know I just got the candids today. The conspiracy was probably holding them back. Because they know you are in competition with AnnaLynne.
It will all work out in time I am sure. It always does.

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I don't think anyone needs to see the full size to see that is how Megan often signs me.

And that is ok. If someone I don't usually pick up signed me like that (Other than yourself as well Jessica) I wouldn't pick them up.

and that is because Megan has wore all black, got dressed up for me, and right in front of Brian, signed me, for me, toes pointing out, the whole nine yards several times until it was no longer necessary because she made her point.
She had made her decision, and was telling me and telling Brian at the same time.

Now that doesn't mean she might not change her mind, but until then, I can assume she likes me best. So now she is free to concern herself with what the other girls we hang around with might be worried about. Like Vanessa. So if Vanessa is worried we are getting too cosy, she won't be, when she sees Megan signing like that.

Just like AnnaLynne signed the other day and I will show you the thumbnails for those too and you can see the Megan look-a-like and I think there is even a Jessica Alba look-a-like in there too...

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And there were a whole bunch of image sets like that at different sites different images, sending different messages to whom it may concern I guess. She has a vast conspiracy backing her because you know she has a future as the next Angelina Jolie.

But basically she was just being diplomatic with Megan and Jessica Alba, and whoever. Probably Gwendolyn.

Then later that day she signed me in a black dress because I had said I wanted to take her out.

So basically whenever the girls sign me like that I usually don't mind because once in a while they sign me directly as well.

I guess its just that right now its horny season, and you know people want to be in a relationship, and not just for show, they want to express some love for each other and a little romance as well as just have fun. Its maybe a little late to have spring fever but the girls appear to be in that mood right now. I wish it was all year round, but this is my favorite time of year, when they want to be affectionate.

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I don't have time to talk right now Vanessa, I have to talk to the other Vanessa and she is probably in bed right now looking at her blackberry. If I can I will pick you up on Monday.

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So this new Beauty and the Beast Shrek like movie you are making, do I think it is risky?

Well you know that if you play a risky role, one that is not attractive, if they have you dress up like a beast, then you have to act your way out of a paper bag.

That is what other girls have done. Like Charlize in Monster or whatever it was.
Lots of girls have parts of their movies where they turn real hideous because of something in the film, like that film with Kristen Bell a while back, Pulse.

The Hottie and the nottie, well that is everyone's nightmare.
You know that should have gone straight to video or straight to the Walmart discount bin maybe. I didn't see it, I didn't need to see it, I saw the poster.

Anyways, at this point I wouldn't worry about it ruining your career. You already have another film lined up. and besides it's just a film, everyone knows you are gorgeous, and it is a horror film, so people will not expect an academy award performance. If you manage to pull a Charlize and get an award for it, well thats great, but if you don't, well so what?
Look at Jennifer's Body. Megan just did that horror flick.
I probably won't watch it. But people will even if it isn't a very attractive portrayal of her.

I guess people just wanted to say that she was not afraid of zombies, like some other people are.

Anyways I will see you in a while.

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What were you doing, getting pregnant without me?
It's a good thing you called. We have a practice tonight.

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Hi Kristen, so this is from your new photoshoot you did last week.

I like this one the best.
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and if he doesn't smarten up I will punch him in the nose again.

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Pardon? Oh I thought you said something.

My spies were so interested in what you were going to say to AnnaLynne they followed you right through the Whole Foods and took pictures of everything you bought. There's like a hundred pictures.
I still don't know what you said. Well I know a bit of what you were saying.
You said it doesn't matter, you sleep on the right anyways, and she usually sleeps on the left. And then you were talking about the weekend and a whole bunch of stuff and about having another baby and I don't know what all else.

Well I can see you are worried about what I said that was in mythology about you having two children, and they were both girls and I said you can always go for invitro and request a boy if you wanted one, but then you are worried about the timeline, and whether or not you should just accept your fate.

And so what you need to consider is that we have just as much right, to forge our own destiny, as the people who came through this timeline before us. And all that is, there in mythology is a way for us to follow a timeline, by following a theme together.

So mythology has a storyline, and we follow the storyline, to try to stay on the path. But the closer you get to the end of the story, the less it matters what you do.

And so just a week ago, we did time checks and got time stamps, a whole bunch of us all over, to see if we were following the time line and on our marks.

And we are right on the money. So then when I watched that Captain Video program, I could see that we were pretty close to where they figured we would be. But, they were not completely accurate about everything, they were just guessing based on the storyline.

So you can just decide whatever you want, and that includes even having twins, if you wanted, because the storyline in mythology, is just to keep us close to the path, and you have the right to forge your own destiny.

If you look at what Adriana did, she was totally freaked out over this movie some people made about zombification, because they portrayed her in that movie having a zombie baby during zombification, just because they were being jerks basically. But you know it bothered her, so right now she is married and pregnant.

But its kindof funny how that happened too because I spent Valentines day with her, you know I picked her up, but there has been this real effort to keep us apart, and to get Marko Jaric in there, and so right at Valentines, he gets accused of sexually assaulting a girl, she now has to save him, from this false accusation, so they have to get married right away, and so they elope to a justice of the peace, right at Valentines. Then right after he gets cleared of all charges.

But the mythology is more for me and the people like Robert who are doing the driving. David gets worried about the timeline, but I don't. We have not always been right on the mark. We have strayed from the path like 7 years ago, and we got back on the path and are right on the mark now.

Its no big deal. The time line is never the same every time. History does not repeat itself completely.

If you want another example, Octo mom had 6, and then 8, when really she should have had 5 and then 8, and the Gosselins have 6 and then twins, and Angelina, she just had twins, after we discussed what they wanted, and then they got what they wanted.

So there is plenty of information there to say it really doesn't matter that much. Now you know that there are 6.5 billion people here, and not all those stories are in the mythology.

And so again you have to look at this like we are just here on holidays. And we are just supposed to have fun. And to experience life to it's fullest and that includes having a family and having children and all the rest.
But I don't think we can look at what we are doing here and say that everything that happens, is going to change reality as we know it, outside of this life.
You know my brother here on earth, is not a real person, he is a Smith. I had 4 children, and probably they are all Smiths, but one of the seven sisters is going to try to get a record made for my son, because she is thinking she wants a mate somewhere down the road. Now I don't tell them that of course. I treat them like real people. But its beyond my control if they are real or not.

And even you know if he does get a record, he will have his own life, he will have his own story, and our destinies may not be intertwined. He will have his own friends to go through time with.

“ OUR CHILDREN are not our children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself…
They come through us but not from us.
And though they are with us yet they belong not to us.

We may give them our love but not our thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.

We may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which we cannot visit, not even in our dreams.

We may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like us.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

We are the bows from which our children as living arrows are sent forth.
The Archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends us with His might that the arrows may go swift and far.
Let our bending in the Archer’s hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrows that fly, so He loves also the bows that are stable…..”

…The Poet

Do Smiths know they are Smiths.

Of course they do. They are not even individuals. They are just being animated by Hanuman and Chupee, and the person inside is based on some existing record, or a mixture of records, borrowed by Hanuman and Chupee. Mostly Hanuman.

And so they themselves as real people, are just as real as Hanuman cares to pretend they are, when they are interacting with you. A Smith is not a real person, they do not have their own individuality as a person. Yes Hanuman can keep that secret from you entirely, and that is the way it works so that everyone believes their children are real people. And their siblings and their spouses.

Occasionally, you hear about a person who reports to the authorities that their children have been replaced by imposters! Or their spouse. And its quite common, if Hanuman decides to just switch out the current set of behaviors he is using for them. And so the only real person in that situation is the person who is now claiming they have been switched!

And of course the authorities, also Smiths, then tell the press he is clearly nuts. So everyone else who suspects their family might have been switched, shuts up about it.

You know that some people worry about these sorts of things, but not people who have a firm belief in God, because they just say well everything belongs to God, not me, I am just going with the flow, and I have to just trust that whatever happens, there is some reason for it.

So we are supposed to treat everyone as if they are real, and ignore the times when the Gods or angels or Hanuman speaks right through them, or puppets them, or any of those things. We are just supposed to turn a blind eye, even if you suspect they have all been switched.

After all what control does anyone have over things of that nature?

And you could also look at it and say, well maybe they were real, and have been sent elsewhere, and are now being projected into another body and you will see them when this life is over.

It doesn't have to be bad, it could be for the best. They could now be in heaven.

But people tend to think the worst in every situation because of their fears.

So you can also look at it, that our children are potentially real. And they may become real, or they may be real people and reincarnated in which case whose children were they before, and are they now really our children?

You see how you have to treat them as people, and not so much as children or possessions of any kind.

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Yeah they are just taking shots at me for their own amusement.

Whatever. You know what really pisses them off is that I can just go downtown and prove them completely wrong about me any day of the week. That is something they were hoping I wasn't going to do. Then they could manipulate photoshoots, manipulate candids, and control our lives on the S5 level.
Then THEY would get to decide who sleeps with whom, and who gets to go to parties, then THEY could decide who are the special favored ones, and then THEY could decide, not unlike Pinky and the Brain, who the popular ones are and through that who the role models are and THEN! Tomorrow the worLD!

I just ignore them. They hate that most of all.

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Hubba hubba.
That was nice of you. Wearing black for me.
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You look nice. I'm looking forward to the weekend. Starting tonight as a matter of fact.
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You wanted to sleep on the left tonight? You are getting me all excited now.

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Is Gwendolyn jealous? lol No but someone up there is trying to suggest she is. I told her I was going to take her shopping.
Maybe someone is suggesting Gwendolyn should sleep on the right tonight, since you are sleeping on the left.

I don't know. Its all about you and me tonight I think anyways.

Well of course we want to possess our children. And we get to possess them up to about the age of 12, when they start to have a mind of their own.

And then we have to trust that whatever we have been able to teach them, in those 12 years will help them to be good people the rest of their lives.

That is what we are supposed to do. And they continue to be our responsibility for the rest of our lives.

That is real world stuff. This world. As far as the larger picture well, thats a different story. And sure we can glimpse the way things might be, and maybe know about some of that, but again, while we are here we are supposed to immerse ourselves in this reality and when in Rome do as the Romans do.

But you know there is a lot of joy in raising children, and having a family, and you know thats a big part of life.

So I never worried about you know what life might be like outside the matrix, even when everyone else was saying I should, I just enjoyed raising children and did the best job I could.

Then got a divorce like everyone else does. And the children who are still young but all older than 12 now, each have their own lives and their own interests. And no matter what anyone like myself or their mother wants them to do or become, you cannot chain them down and make them do anything.

So the whole possession thing ends at about 12 anyways.
Then they start looking at their friends as being better advisers than their parents.