WOW - I'm truly amazed at everyone who is still around. It's almost like it was 2012 all over again!

As for your "questions" ...

I have always been interested in esoteric topics, if for no other reason other than I find this subject FASCINATING. I'm convinced of one thing, and that is we all share the SAME reality. It's the same reality for the scientist, the atheist, the Muslim and the Catholic. That means if reincarnation is real, it's real for EVERYONE. So what that means, is obviously everyone can't be "right" in their thinking and outlook. Either the atheist or the mystic is wrong - they both can't be right. Even though I am no mystic, I have seen enough clues in my life to be very persuaded that there is more beyond the five senses than atheists posit. I've seen enough to persuade me that some people can see the past without having any history with it in school, media, family or elsewhere. And I've seen where some people can occasionally see elements of the future beyond what mere chance guessing would reveal. I've also had my own "ufo" experience - nothing extraordinary, but enough confirmation to persuade me that the testimony of others is probably true more often than not. I've also seen enough evidence of coverups and disinformation to persuade me that powerful organizations are "hiding" a great deal from us. They are hiding technology, science, history, you name it. It has been said that as much as one third of ALL human knowledge is CLASSIFIED. I am persuaded this probably true.

So, I am convinced that **THEY** are hiding something - A LOT in fact.

Obviously, that one third body of knowledge can only be "guessed" at. Only clues exist, not hard evidence available to the public. Whether it's giant human skeletons, ETs, free energy devices, or even human trafficking practiced by powerful people, none of it can be PROVEN by the common person because of the lack of accessible evidence.

That said, there are a LOT of "clues" that "THEY" know or are concerned that some big planet wide (Earth) or even solar system wide EVENT is on the horizon. Those clues can be found in every major religion, as well as the behavior of people, corporations and governments.

I don't know if anything of historical import at that level will happen in my lifetime, or even my children's lifetime. But there is and has been for awhile, enough NOISE to be concerning.

Nancy is a case in point. She is still online. She told me herself back in 2007 that she had a wealthy "fan" that paid all her credit card bills. That is consistent with a lot of folks recruited to work on behalf of classified "programs". So that tells me that rich powerful people connected to the Military Industrial Complex/Black Ops/Intelligence Community WANT this disinformation out there and ongoing. She also is psychic or "schizophrenic" in that she does indeed hear voices, and does indeed do "automatic typing". She's a legitimate "channel" even though what it is she's channeling is NOT legitimate, and doesn't hold up to scrutiny. Nevertheless, there is a LOT of really good and genuine information in those thousands of web pages she put together. But picking it out from the disinformation can be challenging.

So what I have learned? - probably not what YOU think I "should" have learned. My outlook is largely the same as it has been since I was a young adult in the 80s. Life is so much more than is taught in school, media and church. There probably is something coming that is scaring the elite - but what and when cannot be determined with any genuine confidence. So I continue to look for clues.

What have I lost? From my perspective, nothing. A lot of time obviously reading and whatnot, but it's a "hobby". It's what I ENJOY, not unlike someone who spends a lot of time and money playing golf.

>> What drives your desire to find new sources of doom?

I'm just always looking the most comprehensive "world view" that accounts for everything. That explains our collective reality, history, mentality, and perhaps destiny. A grand unifying theory of EVERYTHING. That's all. Too much to ask??