I seek to expand my "awareness", I am looking to perceive a richer resolution of experience in each "moment" to allow me to get "more" out of my perspective and I seek to use that to increase the "quality of life" for myself and those I care about. I've found in some of my trials, I became less tolerant or patient with the very ones I'm looking to protect/enhance. This seems to happen because as I expand my understanding I am more aware of their intent and the relationships they hold within my perspective. This (at times) leads me to dismiss their concerns as if they're trivial (yet to them they're obviously not). If I am to assist and nurture them in order to "enhance" them and "protect" them (from my perspective), I cannot dismiss their perceived concerns (as trivial as I perceive them to be). Quoting: Jesse Sovoda
Curious.. do you think they could be resisting how you think they should be enhanced?
Maybe they will be relative to your new self on their own terms, not ones that you've planned.
I haven't experienced your situation, so I'm only guessing.
Yes, I do. On this level, we get along and work toward mutual happiness and benefit. My curiosity has led me down many rabbit holes and I find within them a common theme, they're interesting to the geometry of relationships that I "care about" (value) but irrelevant. In the "next level"(all levels) that "working towards mutual benefit and happiness" may be rendered as working against each other (as that dynamic is working now through my inability to properly explain my perspective or inspire others to seek to experience it).
My desire to bring them along in nice packages neatly marked fragile is seemingly beyond my ability. I think back to what you said about most of your population choosing to not use (or even bother to understand) the language of perspective (consciously) and I cringe. I believe that I am able to perceive a subjective universe rich with experience but I will be unable to share it. I feel like I am building a massive playground rich with possibility and the ones I'll invite to come play will ignore it altogether (as they do not technically
exist beyond my perception of them anyway).
I don't want my wife to be properly represented as a "carnival ride" within perspective. I want to transplant her into my perspective, I want her to be who she is, making the decisions she does and be able to ride it "herself". It seems to me that if we perceive as a "god" does or as a player does via an RTS game, we find ourselves incapable of interacting (fairly) on a first person basis, whether we are playing a character in first person or not. It seems that I would only be able to properly interact with someone I perceive to be at the same level.
What I mean is that a chess player can never have a proper interaction with his queen on the board, that interaction is reserved for the other player. I do not want my wife to be reduced to a chess piece (yet, I feel as if in some ways both she and I already have been). I seek to allow her (and the others I care about) to continue to play.