God, of course, is a Mother, Mother Nature.
The last line of your message sums up my beliefs, entirely.
There is no God (capital G), only god and god is nature. Sure, it could be more complex than that- but that's all we can ever know for sure, so what's the point at trying to make shit up to fill the voids?
My mission/story/revelation alters the playing field.
I was pretty much where you are, when I declared my mission.
My own story proved
there is a big G God, but it's a Goddess.
That's why I'm the New Age Messiah.